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i know that but i wanted to point out that eating is only a substitute for depression. it doesn't fix it and it does have it's bad side affects along with the good ones . yes, chocolate can help, but it is also psychologically addicting. actually, a good suggestion would be to join a gym that stays open 24 hours. that way, she can release some of this built up negative energy at night when it's the hardest for her. but if she does this, she really needs to eat something or she wont have the energy. i don't know if she has a gym that stays open 24 hours near her though but it's a great alternative.i remember when i was severely depressed, i didn't even want to go out. i was living with my parents at the time and i didn't want to stay there either. i didn't want to talk about anything and i didn't was people seeing me like i was. i didn't feel i fit in anywhere. i couldn't even work. i was a driver and i had too many close call accidents from thinking too much while driving so i had to quit. i would spend every single day either in my room alone or outside thinking. at night, i would drive to the park which was only a few blocks away and drink. i didn't want to live. the pain was too great and i had a pistol to my head ever night sqeezing it slowly. i didn't want to die, but i didn't want to live either and although i was pretty sure i wouldn't sqeeze it all the way, i was hoping it would go off by accident.now what helped me through it all was a few things. i would force myself to tell myself every day that i was a good person and had a lot to offer and it would be a shame if i were to just give up and die not knowing how my life would have turned out. i am what you call a late bloomer and i didn't know as much about myself back then as i do now. nor did i understand life as much as i do now. what also helped was to dwell on my situation when everyone was telling me it was bad for me. but instead of thinking about the negative, i was trying to be objective through my depression. eventually, i cam to many realizations. in a way, even though i am not relgious, i think god talked to me because i had somewhat of a god-like experience one day. after that, it was much easier to move on and be productive. what made everything worse is that i had introduced her to all my friends. i was a dart player and got her in the dart scene. she would still show up playing small weekend tournaments. i couldn't handle seeing her face so eventually i decided to leave my past friends behind and find new ones. i started playing darts at another place, met new friends(better friends as it turned out). i would put on a fake smile every time i went out. the jukebox would play songs that would remind me of her but in the long run, forcing myself to go out and socialize helped me a lot. plus, it all took place at night which was better than going to the park and drinking and holding a gun to my head. i don't think to this day my friends realize that they saved my life because i wouldn't talk about it. i know what they did though and have been there for them ever since when THEY needed someone even though it comes naturally to me anyway. the reason i didn't want to talk about it was because i knew people would just say the same old crap that didn't help me. and i just didn't want to hear the same crap. the only person i really talked to was my mom and i was even getting tired of her words and suggestions. truth is, other people couldn't fix what i was going through. only *I* could when i was READY to do that. it had to have been the toughest period in my life and i survived it. it's also important to know that each and every person has something to offer the world, even though we probably wont get famous for it. we are all unique and we are all special in our own ways. this is something important to realize when going through hard times like this because i can't stress this enough. it would be a SHAME not to know how our life turned out if we gave up instead of fighting for who we are. personally, i like helping people. i have met so many people in my life in all sorts of situations and it would have been a shame if i gave up back then. otherwise a piece of me wouldn't have traveled on in to other people. i know this about myself to be true even though i don't go out of my way talking about it. but it is just an example of why we need to fight for our own selves. to see exactly what we are capable of and to know that we CAN make it through those bad times and be stronger for it and love ourselves even more than before.hurt4love- you talked about how you can go on mapping out your life. you don't know how because this guy was always a part of your map. my advice to you on that one is DON'T! don't map out your life. from what i know about life is the best and most fullfilling things in life happen unexpectedly. if you start mapping out your life, all you are doing is forcing yourself to think about this guy. you're just punishing yourself again. you don't have to go out searching for life. life has a way of finding us......but we DO have to force ourselves sometimes to do the things that we know is inside us. just go with the flow.....let life flow naturally. don't try to force anything that you have no control over. you will just be setting yourself up for more pain. one of the hardest parts was moving on without the one i loved. it was tough. i mean, i used to ask myself the same dumb questions every day! then i realized i was asking all the wrong questions. my emotions and hurt was interfering with my rational thinking. what was also tough was to see how easy it was for her to move on. i only THOUGHT it was easy for her. while i was living in hell, a few months later, she was dating some other guy. in truth though, she was hurting too and didn't know what to do either. i had a chance to take her back one day but decided after everything i had been through, it was best just to move on without her. that seems hypocritical but it's not. she broke up with me. as a result, i always wanted her back....but in the end, i didn't take her back when i had the chance. i made that decision for a few reasons i wont state here. i will still always love her though. my point is that it's harder when we feel we have no control over our lives. but when we do have that control, life seems easier to deal with so it's important to know that even though he may have broken up with you, you have to justify it your for your own self so you are able to move on and have closure. you have to know that you have choices even though they may seem limiting. some people think they are left with no choices but that isn't true! you just have to justify why you are better off without him and make the choice to leave him too without the thoughts that you had no choice since he left YOU.now i am not going to say i understand your pain fully, but i did want to show that i felt a very similar pain in my past when it was just so hard to move on. i also want to some up my whole post.the starting point to heal your pain comes from within side your own self.....knowing who you are and forcing yourself to lead the life you were meant to live. eventually you wont have to force yourself, then pain will go away, and life will be different for you in a way you never expected right now. you have to believe in yourself and who you are to be able to live that life you know that is inside you. you will one day look back on this situation and know that being with him wasn't a mistake. he made you a better person when you were together and the situation after the breakup made you a better person. this i PROMISE you will happen because this is one of the things i understand about life and dealing with the crap life has to offer us sometimes.

i was kidding, opaque! but i did laugh recently when someone posted about not knowing why they got their post deleted actually, opaque never wanted to make me moderator but when he read this thread, he felt sorry for me that nobody responded and granted my wish!

i think anyone who knows me knows i am never afraid to speak my mind haha. maybe you are talking about other people.as far as opaque, i think he is a hard worker, dedicated and determined. he's a cool guy who seems to have a good balance to accomplish everything he does. i have learned a lot from him since i have been a member and i have personally encouraged him to post more. he never listens to me though haha. he has his own mind. i think he's one of a kind and it's been a pleasure knowing him.as far as any dirt, i don't have any. if i did, i wouldn't be posting about it except for the fact that his son jack will be finding me in america one day haha. no. he doesn't have a son...just a fleeting conversation piece recently :)i think it's a shame he doesn't post more though because i really think people would benefit from knowing him more.

you know there is a saying. we are our own worst enemy. it just seems you are punishing yourself in thoughts. don't punish yourself. everyone deserves to be loved and from what i can tell, you are a kind person with lots of love to share yourself. will. as far as getting over him. in a way you will and in a way you wont. i think when people truely love, they always love no matter what happens. but you will move on with your life and it will become easier over time. unfortunately there is no magic pill or medicine you can take to make your situation go away. yes. i believe the nights will be the hardest. it's when people are supposed to wind down.....but instead of winding down, you get wound up in racing thoughts. my suggestion for you is to go see a doctor so that they may be able to prescribe something for you for the time being to help you sleep and so your thoughts don't keep you awake at night. one thing you can do to keep busy at night is to rent or buy or watch online some good movies. no dramas that are going to make you more depressed though. some comedies. you need to find your smile and you deserve to be happy. i wouldn't suggest eating chocolate haha that can be addicting and you may just find yourself gaining 20 pounds. gaining weight ain't no fun either it may just make you more depressed.you have a choice each day you wake up. it can either be a good day or a bad day and it's whatever perspective you choose to see it. your dad needs you too. i know it's hard right now but if life was easy, we wouldn't be pushed to be better people in the experiences we have to live in.your going to be asking yourself all sorts of questions that you think you don't know the answers to. don't punish yourself like that because you will never get closure that way and chances are, you already know the answers. you just don't want to admit them to yourself right now. why did he confuse you? why doesn't he want to marry me after he proposed? am i good enough? will i ever be good enough? will i ever move on? will i ever find someone else to love? how can he say he loves me and dump me? those aren't even half the questions you are probably asking yourself but they need to stop. you are hurting yourself more than he hurt you. you have to stop torturing yourself because you are a better person than that.i know words don't help take the pain away. i wish they did. all i can offer is some support and to let you know that you are not alone. i think everyone feels your pain who has read your words and they care just like i do. i was in a similar experience in at one time in my life. it is a crazy story that happened when i was in my early 30's.the one good thing that came out of all this was you were able to love. that's important. a lot of people aren't able to do that. you are going to take the positive out of what you got from this relationship and move forward. you are going to know yourself better and be stronger to continue on one day and be successful with whatever you put your mind to. don't think otherwise because you ARE better than that and it would be a shame if what you have inside goes to waste because you feel you aren't good enough. you are. believe it. it's his loss...and as you already know....yours too. but that is life and we have to have the right coping skills to deal with those rough times. keep us all informed in how you are doing when you feel like talking and just know you have some people who care here....

i am sure ash meant economically speaking.of course money doesn't define wealth. and hapiness comes from within. there is a saying. "money can't buy happiness". but there is a second part to that.... ".....but it sure makes misery easier to live with". personally, i think money is a distraction to the more important things in life. here in the united states, money is part of the american dream go after that high paying job to be able to marry and afford that house with the white picket fense. i think some dreams have it all wrong...how many people in america are living that american dream? we have a shortage of jobs even. my home state is almost bankrupt.it's sad that people don't know how to live any other way. without money and technology, some people are lost.

we had a lot of people complain about why the forums haven't been upgraded. now we have a lot of complainers that are worried about the mycent system and their hosting accounts. you know in some ways, you're damned if you do and damned if you don't.ash- i agree 100% with you. announcements have to come regularly. the members need to be informed every step of the way. why even have a forum if it's causing so much troubles and complaints. all it does is lose valuable members in the long run. something this place could never afford recently. i hope there are plans to get this forum moving and shaking again. not just an upgrade. i would have liked to see 100 posts a day before an upgrade any day!

if it was me, i would be trying to make a reputation as "the plant guy" and that is what i would call my business. who better to call than the plant guy? normally, i use a little more creativity in business names or thinking up a good domain for a business. "the plant guy" says it all though. people will remember the name and it clearly states that he is the guy to call.

where in her post did you get that the guy was mean to her? sure, he ended things. but does that deserve the label of being mean? maybe he was doing her a favor not to waste her time so she can actually meet someone who appreciates her more. sure, anger is something that comes natural sometimes in some people after a breakup when they feel the love and connection is gone. they want to blame someone because they can't deal with the emotional distress but the anger is unfounded as emotions have no brains. you don't think with emotions.....emotions just comes. also, i am sure she didn't love him as much as she did if he was mean to her. sometimes it's easier to get angry though instread of thinking about the things he DID offer and why she DID love him. she mentioned the fact that how can he do that while she was going through such a hard time knowing her father was ill, but there is never a perfect time for a breakup. excuses can always be made why any time is a bad time.

in some religions, it would be the sun god and the moon goddess. the sun will take on the male form and the moon will take on the female form.you have an interesting way of looking at things when you can start naming the clouds and the wind and "blow me" takes on a whole new meaning!

i hear ya! that is the world we live in though. it comes to no surprise to me as she is just a # among many minors who have been raped. i don't normally believe in the death penalty, but when it comes to an adult intentionally raping a minor, the punishment should be death. forget about sniping anything off. forget about passing go and collecting $200. you should go directly to your maker. it's one of those things that i have no patience for and is someone i could potentially kill myself with my bare hands. i normally see good in everyone, and i usually always believe in second chances, but an adult raping a minor is one of those things that shouldn't be taken lightly and governments should send a message that some things will never be tolerated.here in the united states, people only get the death penalty for an illegal killing(or murder). but when you consider the effects of rape on a minor and what they have to live with the rest of their lives, you can say in fact, that a part of them has died. you kill a childs innocence and spirit that will linger on for a long time and sometimes the rest of their lives.

i was about to say the same thing. stop stealing my thoughts. if it was any other member, i think the post would have deserved instant deletion but since opaque is the admin, he deserves some abnormal attention haha. i am not too keen on posting personal information on people though. they might want their lives to be more private.

really? i am abusive in my powers? you are the only one who has suggested that. fact is, you re-posted a logo that was already posted. the only difference was you included the whole top part of the header. it was neither original or informative.if you have an original logo, you should post it. otherwise, don't repost the logos. simple as that. i am not arguing with you but giving you some good advice so that you don't get your posts deleted in the future. this forum has always prided itself on enforcing original quality content. my job isn't to be the nice guy all the time and you've already stated your position on how you feel about me in public. i told you before that if you have a personal problem, you need to talk to a mod or an admin in private. i meant it. topic closed.

you will sell a .net domain? haha there are better .net domains than "itneed". if you get any takers on that one, i will be amazed. in fact, i don't even know why you went with a .net in the first place when there are several good .com domains available for hosting sites. people think there are no good .com domains available anymore and that is just not true. sure, the one word domains are all taken, but i bet i could come up with some good 2-3 word names. people just need to be a little more creative.

i deleted it. it was truefusion's logo and he had already shared it with us. it was skating on duplicate content. being bored had nothing to do with my decision. i deleted ash's topic "what car does your parents drive" and other posts that just don't have any business here. and if you think i am harsh, you haven't seen anything yet. if you don't like it, talk to opaque or buffalohelp.

yup! it is now officially gone. i was playing it last night and got something like 75k haha those suckers really move fast at that level. i got to the third intermission. i miss pacman already!

actually, there are both pros and cons to raise or lower the limit. if you lower the limit, you actually force more quality content from those who want to earn mycents. but, you are also limited to how many posts you can make. if you raise the limit, yes, people can earn more, but, you raise the risk factor of 2-3 line posts.i haven't seen too many people post more than 50. usually new users will hit 20 posts a day for a week and then slow down. on a rare occassion you will see a new user who posts 40-50 posts but that is not common at all. i have only seen 3 users do this since i have been paying attention.but! i don't think opaque can have it both ways. if giving away mycents and free hosting to post, there shouldn't be a limit but the new credit system isn't even in place yet. maybe once it is, he may adjust the values.

i am very sorry about your pain. you really spoke your heart. you are not alone. a lot of people has had this pain in their lives. everyone just deals with it different and it seems like you're just punishing yourself with this hurt that you carry.1st of all. don't hate this guy. he has been giving you signs all along. i am sure he didn't hurt you intentionally. you just didn't want to pay attention to the signs. sounds like he may be afraid of commitment. best advice i can give you is stay away from him right now because being just friends right now is going to cause you more pain than good and seeing him will only be a constant reminder. in the mean time KEEP BUSY. it helps to do fun things or at least try to do the things that seem fun. force yourself to keep busy. it's important to try to move on from this and lead a productive life. the sooner the better.be open to your mom and your friends about what you are going through. it may be embarrassing or you may not want to worry people, but i am sure your mom and your true friends will want to know how bad you are hurting. this is what friends and mothers are for. to listen and comfort you and give some good advice and some really crappy advice at times. don't hide from them. let them do their job and help you. you would do the same for them i am sure and you wouldn't want THEM hiding their pain from you if their was any way you could help. right? you sound like a really good person and sensitive to other peoples needs. but what about yours? how can people be there for you if you don't allow them to be? you're just going to feel that much more alone and that really wont be good for you right now.just know that your pain is not unique. yes, a lot of people have been where you are now and in time, it gets better. that is a promise. the pain fades over time. you will probably always hold love for this man though. that probably wont ever go away. the pain will though. you have to start looking at the brighter things. this was your first love. you probably learned a lot and so did he. the relationship wasn't for nothing but at the same time, it wasn't meant to be and somewhere out there there are other guys and other relationship and more love to give the right guy. the guy who is right for YOU and you for him and where maybe next time, the relationship is meant to be and he wont leave you. it will be a connection worth waiting for if you can only move on from the pain you have inside right now.but please please PLEASE, don't hide your pain from others. the beatles said it best when they said "i get by with a little help from my friends." let them in. especially your mother no matter how much she may annoy you with worry. and please please PLEASE KEEP BUSY! it's the absolute BEST thing you can do for yourself right now. you will probably have to force yourself to keep busy and to even try to have a little fun. but that is what you HAVE to do! force yourself.also, you have to stop hating this guy and respect his decicision. would you rather him force himself in to a relationship or marriage where he knows it's not for him and waste his time and yours? he did the right thing in telling you now so you don't waste more of your precious life. it was probably hard for him to do too even though it may not seem like it. i'm sure he loved you too. i know it may not seem like it now, but in time you will realize that you both took something positive out of the realtionship and became better people for it even though you two weren't 100% compatible.also, i know there will be lonely days ahead and you will be wanting to feel loved and want those hugs and kisses and affection. just don't substitute those feelings with another relationship right away. it wont do you any good and it sure as wont do the other person you may be dating at the time any good. you wont want to put someone through what you are feeling now just because you are on the "rebound". that wouldn't be fair.i know you don't feel strong right now and weak as hell....but you can get through this. you may feel that you are at your weakest point in your life. fact is, you are still strong enough to get through this. try to feel that and know that about yourself. i really hate hearing stories like this. i am half asleep and promised myself i wasn't going to respond to this post, but after reading it, i just had to. i hope i have made sense. if not, just shoot me!try to find a smile out there for yourself somewhere. when you find it, hold on to it. it will get you through.....if your eating habits remain the same for over a month, you will need to see a doctor. your body wont be able to handle what you are putting it through and you will just feel weaker because you aren't feeding your body the energy it needs. don't punish yourself ok? it wasn't your fault and you don't need all these negative after affects. you are better than this!

well i am one who likes to see my friends photos. especially when i log in to facebook or something and notice they have added photos, i will flip through their album. posting them is a lot easier than emailing photos individually too. they aren't called social networking sites for nothing simpleton it's one of the reasons they are so popular. a social setting as close to reality as you can get for right now...i'm sure everything will also be ever changing. so with your question, i have to answer no. the albums aren't needed. but is anything else needed? no. but it still exists. take the shout box or chat boxes for example. are they needed? heck no. is texting needed? no. anyone can pick up the phone and dial free long distance now a days. it's also a lot easier to do. social networking sites though offer the ability to be with friends and family in one place where otherwise it would be impossible.

maybe he should just keep it running until he fullfilled a certain amount of entries. yea, it's depressing that hardly anybody took him up on his offer, but the board went through a transition without warning.deadmad, you think it's admins and mods job? the users make up this place. not the admins or mods. it's the users. maybe you need to come up with some ideas to promote this place after the bugs get worked out and mycents starts to pay again. soviet had a great idea and put some good effort in to trying to help this place. we need more users like that. even though it may have not been as successful as one would want it to be, i still see the objective behind it and the thought that it took to come up with the idea.anyway, you are wrong. i helped soviet a little with his project even if i did give him a heart attack a couple times haha. so my question is this. are you just another # here or are you going to stand out as a member somehow and try your own efforts to help this place? if can't be part of the solution, then i don't see how you have a right to complain.

why not? it's hot news. it's all over the net now or haven't ya noticed? also, it wasn't just about the google doodle but pac man. one of the most popular video games EVER! i think it's very cool that google has gone to such great lengths to show their support in a part of american history that you will never see in the history books.not only that, but this pacman game is tough. you think you can go straight through and you can't. you are partially blocked by part of a wall. i would play it more but i like my laptop too much :)but it would be interesting to see if anyone can get over 50k. i can't seem to get past the apple stage

actually, the only critique i have is that some of the pictures are tilted to the right or left. other than that, i do like the ones you put thought in to and it's obvious which ones.

i know that social networking sites can be unsafe at times, dude, life outside the internet is more unsafe than a social networking site. your original post talked about how your pictures are unsafe and how hackers will hack peoples accounts just for the pictures. since then, you have been all over the map. oh it's even in the media. that is no surprise. you actually believe the media now too and think they don't hype things up for the ratings? i remember when they were talking about how dogs are unsafe. the media were targeting pit bulls when the media should have actually been targeting the owners of the dogs that they had no control over. do you know that i have abxsolutely 0 privacy settings in my facebook account and haven't had any problems yet? you are still talking about things that may happen, but they happen so infrequent that it's not even worth discussing EXCEPT i DID agree that what you say on social networking sites can lead to trouble for you. especially when people start posting their phone #'s and telling people they will be away on vacation for a week, etc... now THOSE are the problems worth discussing. not some hacker that picks random accounts to hack....

how about deleting members and their mycents who haven't logged in in a month. that's even better, don't you think?

yea, i noticed that. at first, i thought it was just a design. then a few hours later i realized you could actually play the game. i had to give it a shot. i can't ever get tired of pacman., it's one of my favorite games.... :)here is one of my scores....

sorry to break the news to you, but those are not original names and all the .com domains are taken. do your research before posting suggestions. i don't even like any of those names except maybe easyhost. i would not normally suggest going with a name that is geographically limiting either. what is 911host? that's the worst of the suggestions. is it supposed to mean emergency hosting?