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are you serious? you are going to sit there and ask me not to be mean? listen. i wasn't the one who cheated. i am not the one trying to cover it up. i am not the one contimplating cheating on someone AGAIN. i am not the one playing games with other peoples heads giving false scenarios. you can site there and ask me not to be mean? ok well, first of all, i wasn't being mean. i was being blunt. i read people like you a mile away and brutal bluntness is the only way to get through to your type. if being honest is mean, then i guess i am mean. listen. EVERYONE here gave you the same advice. TELL YOUR BOYFRIEND. there is no other option. will it be easy? nope! but i figure you to be someone who has always tried to take the easy way out in life. this is why you are contimplating sleeping with someone else again. that's a lot easier than seeing the pain in your boyfriends eyes when you tell him. having sex with your ex when your drunk is easier than being responsible. fact is, this isn't about you anymore. this isn't about what YOU should do. it's now about your current boyfriend and what HE deserves. let me tell you what he DOESN'T deserve. first off, he doesn't deserve you. he deserves honesty. he deserves love. he deserves to be treated fairly. you aren't giving him ANY of that by cheating on him and lying about it. what's WORSE is that if you weren't being blackmailed, you'd be happy even though you are cheating on him, lying to him and keeping things from him. you are the type of person who would feel relieved. why? because you like taking the easy way out so you don't have to stand up to the consequences of your actions. am i being mean when i say i care more about what happens to your boyfriend than you? you wish you were a guy because guys are good liars? listen to yourself. you are literally saying you want to lie. you're coming straight out and telling the world you want to lie. you want to cheat and keep things from this guy. i have a feeling you don't quite understand how you think and what comes out of your mouth so am i being mean when i feel i have to repeat what you said? your boyfriend got cheated on by his ex. it devastated him and he was willing to go back out there and trust someone else. that someone else was you....who did what? cheated on him! ofcourse your gonna break his heart. ofcourse he's not going to want anything to do with you for a while. does this mean you shouldn't tell him? OFCOURSE NOT. this isn't about you and how bad you will feel or about how bad he will feel. this is about honesty and truth and to allow him to know this part of you rather than keep it a secret. if you don't tell him, you're just gonna hurt him again. personally, i don't want that to happen. your friend now gives advice that you should cheat on your boyfriend again? what kind of people do you hang around? cheat on him and blackmail him like you were raped or something? get an innocent man thrown in jail? all you're doing is compounding lies. your creating more lies to cover up the old ones. how the heck is this supposed to help the situation? eventually, you will be surounding yourself with so many lies, there will be a time when it all comes crushing down on your head. not only that, you might even get used to it so much, it's all you know how to do. no listen....and listen carefully. my intention is not to be mean. my intention is to get you to see yourself. it's not pretty, but there is a solution and it starts by doing something very hard. you HAVE to be honerable and honest with your boyfriend. you have to. i am not saying this because i want to hurt you....and it will hurt you. it will hurt him too. but you have to allow HIM to make his own choices. by keeping things from him, you are caging him and not allowing him to make choices based on the truths he knows. trying to save him and protect him from the hurt is out of the question. you probably feel it's with good intentions you are thinking how you are. that you don't want to hurt him when in reality, all you're thinking about is yourself. you don't want to hurt YOURSELF. you whole thought process is a selfish one. not ONE THING did i hear out of your mouth was about your boyfriend. it has all been about you and what you can do to hide who you are. believe me, you don't want to compound lies. it may seem like the easy way out and in a way it is, but in the future, all those lies WILL come back to you and you will be worse off than you would have been if you were honest from the start. now you have to be honest with your guy. there is no other good option. how do you deal with your ex? go down to the police station and tell them what is going on. if he is stalking you and you don't want him around, they can help you get a restraining order or an ex parte since he is an ex. what that will do is prevent him from contacting you and anyone you know. if he does, he goes to jail. it's as simple as that. but you STILL have to be honest with your boyfriend. and don't play games with him by giving him scenarios. he doesn't deserve that either. your testing the waters for YOU. not for him. again, SELFISH. you OWE IT TO HIM to be honest. do it for HIM. NOT for YOU. you get me? he deserves that much if was willing to put trust in you and be with you. he does NOT deserve dishonesty or hidden truths. listen, i feel for you, i really do. i am trying my best to give you the best advice. i gaurantee it will be better advice than any of your friends will offer you. and you really have to wonder who your real friends are missy. i don't even know you but i am giving you some no nonsense, straight up advice. no game playing, no lies, just some straight up advice. i know you've got your own problems. ok. maybe you can talk about them in another thread, but you need to be honest with your boyfriend now. it's not only the respectable thing to do, but the honorable thing to do. it will build your character and you need that right now too. don't live like this missy because over time it will be easier and easier until you wake up one day and you don't even know who you are. also, my advice is to break it off with your boyfriend and not enter in to another relationship for a while. if you're gonna hurt people in a relationship, then you're not ready to be in one. be single for a while. you sound needy and being selfish doesn't play well in a relationship when a relationship is about SHARING. you get me? there's time for all of that. get to know yourself and what type of person you want to be because until you know and until you can practice it, how on earth are you ever going to be able to share yourself fully with someone else? be true to yourself FIRST....then you can be true to those you say you love. and listen, you made some mad mistakes but that doesn't mean you are a mad person. we all make mistakes. it's up for us to FACE our mistakes head on so we can learn from them so they don't happen again. we don't learn from our mistakes by covering them up. when we can learn from our mistakes, it makes us better people. believe me.....no.....it's not easy. life ain't easy. life is supposed to be hard sometimes because life is a test. look at life as a game in some senses. you wont win this game of life by lies and deciet. trust me. now do the right thing. tell your boyfriend. NOT because you are beling blackmailed, but because it's the right thing to do. and go to the cops or tell someone in your life that can help you with this guy like your parents or a teacher who can be supportive. also, if your gonna sit there and tell me you would have never commited that act you did if it had not been for you drinking, then what that tells me is you will commit more stupid acts when you drink again. you went clubbing? where were your friends who are suppose to protect you if you're being stupid? you better get some new friends. yea, they may be fun to hang with, but they aren't your friends lastly, your life is a jerry springer show. STOP IT! i admire your openess in this thread....now be open with your boyfriend and let us know how it goes. i'll be more compassionate with you when you start doing the right thing.

hi- welcome to KS(Xisto). how much you earn in mycents differs between the quality of post you make. the average mycents per post seems to be around .20 per post or around $1 per 5 posts. everyone posts differently though so for you it could be more or less. the thing is though, you need about 10 posts beore your mycents start showing up. did you make your xisto account and use the same email as the one you used here to link your accounts? keep making posts and eventually you will see your mycents show up like everyone else.don't mind wd- i know you didn't come for a blog review. her heart is in the right place though. you can learn a lot from her since she is indeed a web designer. because of that, she's a little more picky than other people :)now all you have to do to rack up the mycents is keep posting. post post post and you'll have enough for your own personal domain and website in no time!welcome again, and if you have any questions, just speak up

listen. this isn't going to be something you want to hear, but the problem wasn't your phone or your computer. it was the fact that she didn't feel the right connection with you. so you write this long note that took you a while and was from your heart and again she said she isn't interested. what i suggest to do is stop concentrating on her and concentrate on yourself and think about why you want to be with her. ask yourself if she has all the qualities you are looking for. ask yourself if you really even know her. my thinking is this. if there was supposed to be a connection between you two, you BOTH would feel this connection. since only you are feeling it, there may be some hidden undrerlying factors that you can't see because you are just so focused on her and not what the truth really is. i really don't know what you are asking help with. suggestions so she dumps this guy she wants to be with just so you have a chance with her? unfortunately it doesn't work like that. if she was interested in you, she wouldn't be seeing this guy in the first place. you get it now? even if she wasn't seeing this guy, she wouldn't want to be with you. it's not because you're some horrible guy, you are just not her type for one reason or another. people have different tastes and preferences. with that said, give her some space and get over this infatuation. she sounds like a good person so far in trying to let you down easy. if you push it, she may not be so nice in the future. respect her wishes and her choices. there is nobody out there that can help you with this situation. the only thing you can do is help yourself by moving on and WAITING for the RIGHT person to come along. i know it sucks and i know you are hurt, but in time you will get over it and i will bet that in the future, you will look back at this point in time and laugh because you would have learned more about yourself and other people in the future and realize that she WASN'T the one for you and there was more fulfillment in your life later down the road. life is funny that way bud. you will just have to take my word for it.

yea, he's already posted pictures of his new office on his facebook wall. more to come. can't wait... did opaque teach you how to roll a fattie?

well first of all, you guys have a high crime rate because the average person's income per day equals the price of a happy meal. so if you want to enjoy a steak or something, you're gonna have to rob someone. i am against reducing sentences if people agree to testing on themselves. they did a crime and they have to pay for that crime. i am not against testing on humans IF humans agree to testing. what i do think that should happen if they ever implement testing on humans in prison or jail is that they should be allowed extra amenities including their own cells. they should also be paid if they are willing to sacrifice themselves.personally, i have nothing against testing on humans as long as it's agreed upon and as long as there are no lies involved to scam someone in to agreeing to be tested. but this is the problem. people WILL lie and people WILL scam. testing is a huge money maker where compaines even recieve grants from the government or other private institutions. it's a business. have you ever heard of a business not lie to make an extra buck? or hide the truth just to stay in business?we can talk about politicians and lawyers all day, but they don't represent big businesses who directly influences economy. these same businesses who will do whatever it takes to STAY in business.on the other hand, i know here in the united states, prisoners lose most of their rights. we have the same conditions in the philipines in some cities and towns where there is so much over crowding, prisoners are required to sleep on the floor unless they know how to do that standing up. in some places, it got so bad, they moved prisoners to the rooftops because the inside of the jail was too crowded.we also have laws here that it is against the law to attempt suicide or harm ones self. i think testing on humans would be a conflict on those laws. but i am still in favor of it as long as the prisoner agrees and there is no deception. after all, they wouldn't be productive otherwise.the only problem i see with testing on humans is that if the tests go wrong, other people would be responsible for their medical. are they willing to be responsible for proper medical attention that can get in to the billions of dollars if testing on humans became legal? i mean, we don't care about the rats or even the cute bunnies named "fluffy". or those innocent puppies that don't even know their about to be tortured. i know you eat dog in the Philippines but that is beside the point.

you are so anti government.....jeeeez. you are always portraying them in an evil way. you wouldn't be surprised if they banned internet access? i really don't know what planet you are living on. i would be VERY VERY surprised if that ever happened personally. you go on to say you would be outside with all the rest of the protesters? no you wouldn't. you would be INSIDE with your shotgun because i gaurantee if they took away internet access, there would be civil unrest, rioting, and people shooting people. nobody is outside protesting during those conditions. but we don't have to think about that because unlike what you believe, it will NEVER happen. instead of being anti government, be thankful that you live in a country that wont do that. THAT being taking away your internet access

well then i guess your post in response to him wanting help was useless then. you posted your first tut on there? you haven't even finished with your site yet. also. i don't see your first post. all i see are the posts that came with your theme

gosh darnit, hard decision again between you two. i usually like most of web designers stuff because it's more original and stands out more. i have to take points away now for the unoriginal quote in the heart. i really like deadmad's sig this week so my vote is going to him.

i think you both are missing the point. he wanted a tutorial using any of that software on simple animations. i believe once he has the tutorial, he will download the free program that you used for the tutorial and follow it to create his own simple animations. recomending him programs right now does him absolutely no goodbani- good call though. blender is an EXCELLENT program. i messed around with it for a couple weeks a while backdeadmad, why don't you stop bragging about all the illegal stuff you download and create a tutorial that actually works and help this guy out. i would do it, but graphics is not my forte. can't be that hard to slap together a 1 page tut. you run a tutorial site now for gosh sakes :)OR, that can be your first tutorial. what a concept. slap it on your website and post the link here

naw. don't change the direction of his face. change the direction of the gun instead so it points at deadmad haha. anyway, i think it's a pretty good job there. what's it for? or are you just messin' around....

i never had the problems like you did with the chat room and the regular forum, wd and i was always using firefox. i will tell you this much though, the forum is loading SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW now. it's probably loading slow no matter what browser people are using. it's not a browser issue. it's a forum issue. i hope the ghost of Xisto past will be working on this issue soon. it's really annoying in the meantime, i will create a top 10 list off the top of my head.... Top 10 things to do while the forum is loading! 10. get something to eat or drink and come back 9. pet your dog or cat 8. think about all the productive things you can be doing rather than waiting for the forum to load 7. bite your nails 6. vacuum the house 5. look up and ask god, "why me"....and ask him if he's punishing you for something 4. go outside and dance around naked 3. curse at the computer screen or just throw the whole computer out the window 2. keep reminding yourself why you wanted to log on in the first place and the #1 thing to do while the forum is loading is...... DRUM ROLL..... TAKE A NAP!

14 and you are worried about giving your teen life away to help your family? you just turned a teenager for gosh sakes. who knows, you may learn something as a teenager by helping your family where otherwise you wouldn't have learned a thing. i know for me though....if my family needed me, i wouldn't turn my back on them. sounds like you have resentment issues that exceeds just trying to make a little extra income as a teenager to help with things.kids don't have a choice to be born in to this world, but that doesn't mean that they should seperate themselves with the problems the world is already facing. would you rather be spoiled and hold a silver spoon in your mouth and not have to work a day in your life?if there is something going on here besides your own selfishness, i would like to hear it. in 4 years, you'll be 18 and be able to do whatever you want without having expectations being put on you. you will still be a teenager too! but are there other circumstances here? are your parents emotionally abusing you? are they physically abusing you? are they not fit parents?if they are trying to do their best or if there have been unfortunate circumstances that dictate that they have to swallow their pride to recieve a little more help from people they wouldn't otherwise expect help from, then maybe you should reconsider your mind set.your 14. i am not trying to put you down. i understand your concern about not being able to do what other kids do or doing what you want to do fully as a early teenager. i mean working will take away from spending time with friends or other hobbies you might have. personally, i am not fully understanding what your parents are wanting from you. usually as a 14 year old, you cannot hold a regular job legally. do they have a family business? do they want you to collect cans or get on your bike for a paper route? do they want you to work around the house for them so it gives them more time to bring in a better income?you really weren't too specific but i have a feeling this post was more of a vent than anything too serious about jobs and careers.....the category you posted in. obviously you are too young for a career, so tell me what kind of job or jobs we are talking about here.

deadmad, why don't you change your sig to only ONE SIG. it looks tacky and is border line against the rules here on Xisto. at the very LEAST put them on one line.....jeeeez

read the rules before posting here, moderator deadmad. it says post only FULL how to's and tutorials. not half *bottom* crap. whoever approved this thread made a mistake. it's one of the major problems with this forum when things get let go like this. people come here for knowledge and all they get is broken down forum

BETA PHP Info Not Available Not Available ***server status earlierBETA PHP Info 0.99 108 Days 23:09:46 ***server status nowfunny how beta was down again but shows it's been up still for 108 daysalso, when beta was down and none of the websites beta is hosting were working, even my clown in my sig wasn't showing up.i haven't been keeping track ever since i posted how xisto is crap right now with crappy support with the crappy lies they tell about how a server was up when it was really down. i am going to keep posting about this until this issue is resolved and the truth comes out here. don't lie to me, because i will expose you....

i think it's a pretty good idea, but i am not in to it. i think it would be to hard to impliment on a forum. people need to hear the words......not just see them written. but could be interesting if you teach by uploading videos of yourself trying to teach and use those as part of the learning tools to teach people your language while trying to learn another language.

haha, well being away is no excuse. i agree though. adding music would create a better effect to the time lapse. i was going to suggest that along with other things, but there is just too many things to suggest all at once where did this lazy guy go? i wanna see more videos!