JasperIk

I know im so optimistic aren't I? But its like everyone says "oh they will find a cure soon" and all this bs, but they probably wont. I mean the HIV, is very smart and tricky. Its always changing, and no strand [as in strands in inviduals] is the same as another, unless probably it comes from the same person, but because everyones body reacts to it differently, its never the same really. I just dont think they will find a cure...i mean they have ideas on how to maintain it, but its changed so much since the first case in america in what 1981?

Its not like none of this has happened before. The world is an ever changing place, even the universe is ever changing. Many times in the past has the world changed, and animals died out, and then new ones came to exist. The only difference is, humans believe they will be here forever, but that is not the case, who knows in like 1,000 years a new better breed of animals will inhabit the earth. Wars have happened since the beginning of time, just now we have bigger, and "better" weapons that could actually destroy a whole country, with just one action...its a scary place to live honestly, and if the ever changing earth doesn't destroy us, some big headed country leader will.

You need some serious typing help. I can't honestly read what you are ranting about because the content is so poorly written. You keep having , everywhere even in the middle of a word. Your spelling sucks horribly also. Please rewrite it, and maybe i will agree with you, but for now its hard to even understand what you are talking about. All i have gotten so far is that you are upset with Xisto's host, and rules. You also mentioned that Xisto hosted sites have been hacked, even paid sites get hacked- and many people give out their password to people, but wont admit it later, and will blame the host.

Can you, or someone else please explain how the hell leet is easier then regular normal typing? If anything, i think it wastes more time, so i don't see how it would be easier or less time wasteful. I don't know, i dont use the number keys very often, because i normally spell out the whole number, so to use it, i am somewhat slow with it, and I hardly use % or $ or # or & i just type out percent, dollars, number, and and.

I just want to bring something up, before anyone else does and turns it into some crazy bs that isn't true. When i was younger, i got really sick, and was put into the hospital, and my heart stopped. They revived me, so technically i HAVE died. People say they felt outter body experiences, and stuff or spoke with "god" but I didn't. If i did...i dont remember, and i normally have a semi good memory of my YOUNG childhood. I think people want to believe they saw all this stuff when they were "dead" but i think really its just your brain slowly shutting itsself down, and you see/feel all this stuff, and it seems real...but if you have ever done any drugs, or anything or even simply just dreamed something, sometimes your brain can produce stuff that seems so very real, but it isn't.

In IM, i will normally spell you "u", and i will shorten somethings, but for the most part i don't shorten words. But on a message board, i hardly every shorten a word, and when i do its on accident. I ABSOLUTLEY hate L33t, Kewl talk, and overly shortening words. I seriously will chew out anyone who talks like that in my IM. It doesn't make you look cool, it makes you look stupid. Ets Lyke Y du u kneed 2 tipe lyke dis? Et Makes u luk stup1d. And especially on a message board, even a simple non professional one, its better to type educated answers with correctly typing.

I don't really get this post, if a girl admits to masturbating, the only reason why i would make a face to it, is because i am gay, and i dont care what a girl does. But if a girl masturbates, i dont really think its wrong... i mean, if guys do it, why can't girls?

I am not gonna read all that sorry... Anyway, i think that could be a possibility. Like when i die, i want to be just in this place that is just like everyone wears white, and the grass is green and just stuff that is simple but pure and beautiful. And only the people i loved are there, and no one else. I also have a theory, that especially if you die young ,you go into another world, but instead of dying you just continue with how your life would have been, if you hadn't actually died.

Bisexuals are totally brainwashed, its like a little cult. Watch all the bisexuals in High school they are all the same, and they all branch off of just like one bisexual. Its sad really.White men are brainwashed? Heres one for you, all people other then white [well not all of them, but some of those who aren't white] are brainwashed into thinking, all white people are racist, hey if you go up to me, and start telling me i'm racist, when i have said NOTHING to you, nor have given you dirty looks, maybe it is you who are racist, eh? Religions are completley brainwashed, but not all religious people are cult-like.

This may not seem major, but it really put me in an extremely bad mood. On another message board I am in a RPG. Well I created a second character, and as i was waiting for my other character [i had two already, so in order to get another one, i had to remove one of them, so i had to RP my other one leaving, but i had to wait for other people to post and stuff] to be accepted, i decided to make a graphic for her, for the character developement thread. For it i chose the song "B!tch" , because it fit my character so well. Well i showed the graphic to some people, and i was telling them that the song was perfect for her. So, then a thread is opened up to put down a song for your character, and i still couldn't post the song because my character's account wasn't created yet. So this girl chooses the song for her character, and i litterly beg her to choose a different song, because i already created a graphic, like atleast a week ago with the song on it. And she tells me its unfair, and that she probably wont change it, and that i should just choose a different song. I mean, am i being unreasonable here? Granted YES, she put the song down in the official thread first, but i would have if my account had been made I would have done that. [she put the song down, today]. So if she doesn't change it, i have to make a whole new graphic, and find a completley different song. And there are like 5 people, and one person especially that knows that i had that song long before she did. And, i can't say for sure, but I THINK i even sent the graphic to her, showing her...but i cant really remember, so i can't say that unless i know for sure. If i hadn't of made the graphic, the fact that she took the song, wouldn't be bad because then there would be really no proof, in me actually choosing the song, but i did, and so for her not to change it, i think is just in general messed up. EDIT: She did, now give me the song... but it still pissed me off.

Well first off i do not believe in heaven or hell, so lets just get that completley clear here. I want to believe that there is life after death, but my realistic and non imaginitive side tends to get a hold of me, and i just picture myself being put into the ground 6 feet under, and that is that. I really don't know what to believe, because i need evidence either way. So i guess i am agnostic when it comes to life after death, neither can be proven, so i just don't believe in anyway. I will see when i get there i guess.

The only reason, i got past the gay part, is because i tend to read lists from the bottom up. As for the bible suggestion. I do, honestly respect those who have found their way through the bible. And, i have tried, but its just not for me. I have far to many questions, and opinions to follow christianity, or really any religion. As For Sports. I don't do sports. Im just not an atheletic person. I used to run, but health problems more or less prevent me from doing so. I like Yoga, because it actually does calm me, but i can never put forth the effort in doing it. I'd take up boxing maybe or martial arts (mostly, because i like Kill Bill...<3 Uma) but, i know i'd just give up.

And yet, you are wrong. I have had a lot of females in my life, and yeah they talk about sex- but most women wouldn't. Women won't openly talk about sex, especially in front of men, because they don't want to spoil their holier than thou image. If you talk about sex amongst yourselves, it doesn't mean anything, because you already keep all your stuff between eachother, so how is sex any different? Yeah we talk about sex with eachother, and yeah we often boast...but atleast we allow ourselves that right, women don't. If you all would just talk about it like men, eventually people wouldn't care its the fact that you don't talk about it as openly, that causes people to judge those who do it. You have really brought it upon yourself. The only time i think a girl is a s ut is if they sleep around , while with someone already, and for men i think the same. Women are constantly not opening up to men, and so men are really forced to judge women, who do because they are always told its not how women are, by WOMEN. I've talked to girls, who are all about sex, and then a straight guy comes along and they shut up, but really a lot of men don't mind hearing what girls have to say about sex, but oh no, must no ruin the image! Its because of women, that people call women who have sex with more than one person s uts, not men.

Girls lie. It wouldnt be such a taboo amongst girls if they just all admitted to it, like its not such a big shock that guys masturbate, cuz we admit it, girls dont so it becomes a hush hush topic, but they all [or a good portion do it] just never talk about it. [This goes for sex too].The reason why women are called s uts, and w ores if they are sexually active, is because they, unlike men pretend like that never think about sex, and never have sex. So when a women is open about being into sex, people label her, because so many other women are saying that all women arent into sex. So if you are labelled a s ut, blame the prude right next to you, who is probably just as sexually active as you, just doesn't talk about it.

Huh, so all women are lesbians? Personally, i guess i could see the point of it, but as a gay guy i am more attracted to the behind, then the front. Though sometimes a bulge is hot , i rather see it outside, then it pressing against a guy's pants. But i suppose if you are going to be showing off what you have- or rather don't have i guess it would be a semi good idea. But I don't know, false advirtisement, just brings your character down a bit.

Well, i recently changed all my messengers, and only added people that i liked. Because i had a lot of people on my list, that i didnt even know, or that made me feel like crap- and i could have just blocked them, but i wanted to start over, with just the people i like- and no one on my list makes me feel like crap now. I went from about 70 people on my list to 11 people on msn, about 15, to 4 people on AIM. I was just sick of having people i didnt like on my list. On a another nore, i think i have Anemia. I am prone to it, because a lot of factors, and i am almost 100% sure its what is wrong with me, i have many of the symptoms, dizziness, loss of appitite, rapid heart beat, fatigue... I just cant explain, why my arms feel so numb. I'm going out of state untill Sunday, with my boyfriend to meet his family, so maybe it will be fun. As for my parents, i dont talk to them...we arent on the best of terms [since march 31st 19 years ago actually]

At my old school, someone did do that in the girls bathroom... I've gone in to the bathroom, and girls were in there and they take like 10 minutes to use the bathroom, i understand that girls are built differently, but do they really take longer to pee then guys?

Concidering what kind of garbage we humans have, i don't think it could create any energy. Here is an idea, get off your *bottom*'s and actually walk somewhere, ride your bike you don't need a car to go a block to the store...really it will save you the extra 10 pounds you gain per year, and the extra 10 dollars you spend every other day.

I've been in the girls bathroom but it was only to be with my friends and smoke a cigarette because we couldn't anywhere else. But one thing...WTF, girls complain guys are so nasty and dirty the girls bathroom smells like fricking death, and there is toilet paper everywhere. Here is an idea...flush the toiler and throw the paper away wow what a concept! I've never been in a guy's bathroom, that smells as bad as any girl bathroom i've been in. I can seriously say, you girls are nasty. True we may not all wash our hands and THAT is why there isnt paper towels everywhere, but atleast most of us have learned how to flush a damn toilet. You have obviously never been in a high school girl's bathroom. It is the nastiest thing in the world. I used to dread when they would suggest to smoke in there, because they never were willing to go into the guy's bathroom, which in my opinion is always a lot cleaner and less smelly. Probably because we just do our thing, and leave where girls wait in the bathroom and make a mess...or something I don't know but girls are nasty when it comes to highschool bathrooms.

I really wish it were that simple, but its not. I tend to hurt myself when i'm angry, i will punch myself, and give myself bruises, only so i dont do it to anyone else, and so that i can feel something other then emotional anger. I try not to be a violant person, but when it comes down to it, i really can be. My first reaction is just to put my fist up and punch someone, and i normally don't but there is always that feeling, of wanting to beat the h ll out of someone.

We are where we are because of what others did. Everything in history ties in with what today's life is now. Even the smallest things have a great deal in what today is. From the time microgranisms started to evolve on this planet, to us leaving it [momentarily] it all has to do with past actions. I really just think its a coincidence. Everything is just coincidental, and when people think its fate, its because they have just barely realized the coincidences in their lives. For example, you hear a word and what it means, suddenly you keep hearing that word, its not because fate has brought you to that word, its because you have just learned it, so it stands out. You don't choose what you do, you have some control, but really where you are, what you do, and what you look like, all have to do with other people's decisions.

To some god is not real, to others he is.To some god, is someone who created the world, and the universe, created people, and animals. He guides us through our life, and is expected to help us with our problems.To others, god is just a spirit, more of a helping hand that doesnt exist, unless you need him, an you choose when he is to be around, not the other way around. To even more others, god is nothing, and no one...he simply just doesnt exist.To me, god is a made up thing, people made him up to blame their problems on someone. But because you cannot prove that he exists, just as much as i cannot prove he doesn't... for the sake of it, he is a name in the bible.

I find myself to be just angry, and can't ever really be happy. Im not sad, just angry. I can't even walk outside because i get so angry. I live in the city, and as soon as i walk out there is cigarette buts everywhere, dried up gum on the side walks, graffitti, crappy lawns etc...One then that completley angers me, is cracks in a side walk, when i was like 8 i tripped and fell on one [it wasnt a crack really, but one side walk plate was up higher then the other] while running, and completley screwed up both knees, why are people so careless? I mean not only is it ugly, its a safety hazord. Its just i find little things to get angry about, i can't just look at something and see what everyone else sees, or doesn't see...all i see is the bad parts of it, like if there was a red rose, and part of it was black i would get angry that it isnt completley red.

Im extremely into animal rights, people make fun of me because i will move an ANT to safety. Even bugs i dont like, i wont kill...but then again id have to get close to cockroaches or pincherbugs, and im so deathly frightened of them, i have a panic attack before i can get close enough to kill them. But anyway, bigger animals:I find cruelty to animals to be disgusting and wrong. Especially when people go out of their way to harm an animal, like sticking thing's up their *bottom*'s that can explode, glueing their eyes shut, kicking them, poisoning them, etc... Starving them and dehydrating them is cruel as well. I hate that in many locations if an animal kills a human they are hunted down and murdered. I'm sorry but if an animal kills a human , in say the forest...as far as im concerned its the animals habitat, and YOU tres passed, if a bear went into your backyard im sure you'd kill it [ i wouldn't but thats not the point ] so look at it that way.

I dont think rock music makes me more angry, rap makes me VERY VERY angry, which [besides the fact that it sucks, and isnt music] is why i dont listen to it. Country music makes me want to shoot myself in the head. Rock music relaxes me, and even if it doesn't sometimes it helps bring out my anger because instead of taking it out on myself, or someone else, i just sing with it, or maybe if im really really upset cry with it, because it allows me to express my emotions through someone elses words, and instruments. Classical when im angry just makes me more angry, its too annoying, i have to be in the right mood to listen to it, and when im angry that is not the mood.