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Ok so I think that I have this staring problem. I just can't seem to get rid of it. I just don't stare at people. It's when I sit down next to people it happens. I stare at them at the corner of my eyes and I just can't seem to stop myself. I don't know what to do anymore. Is it normal for people to do this? I feel like people don't want to sit next to me because of this. I try to ignore it but that doesn't help at all. It's gotten so bad that sometimes I don't feel like going out to places that I know are gonna have a lot of people. Please help me.

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Here's my sad dating story... Im writing this story on my experience of online dating. I remember when I was 21 years old, going to college in Louisiana and working at the YMCA. One of the members that came to the gym often was telling me about how she was online dating. At that time I was thinking that the only people that date online were those that were divorced or older and dont have time to meet people outside of their circle. She said that she met a guy thats really nice they share the same common interest, hes really smart, he has a masters and they get a long great. What more can you want, right? She said that she has been dating him for some time now and that she asked him to take down his online dating profile from the website. So the guy said that he would but turns out he never did. Then she asked me if she should give him an ultimatum, either he takes it down or they wont date anymore. I just agreed with her and said sure, tell him that. I didnt think that much of online dating I was still in college and planning to go to graduate school to San Francisco. I figured that I would meet plenty of guys in the bay area while Im going to graduate school pursuing my career. Four years later, after graduate school one of my friends said you should sign up for online dating! I said, no I dont want to. I dont want to meet any strangers and it would be really awkward for me. I was in the kitchen cooking something for dinner and next thing you know it he created a profile and grabbed some of my photos from Facebook. He said, ok you can thank me later! He signed me up for a three-month subscription to an online dating site. I said okay, I would just go along with it. I was kind of nervous meeting people in a city that I just moved to. I just figured, why not Ill just meet them for dinner or coffee and chat. It wouldnt hurt right? I ended up going on a few dates and there were some nice guys but none of them really interested me. I was overwhelmed and surprise with the number of email responses that I got each day. There were anywhere from 20 30 new emails a day from men. I kept on going on dates, not really looking for anything, but just looking for someone that made me smile and had fun with. I wanted instant Chemistry, which doesnt always happen right away. Date of the Year with the Psychiatrist So this is December Then I met this guy, he was a psychiatrist, and we met at a wine bar on a Thursday night around 8:00 pm. He was older than most of the guys that I went on dates with. I was 27 years old and he was 33, which was only a five year age difference so I figure it wouldnt be that much of a difference. We started chatting a lot. He was really charming, polite and nice. We hit it off right away and the conversation went really well. I remember thinking wow this guy is really polite and mature. I feel really happy that I decided to meet him. We both started working and being successful in our careers around the same time. We both came from small country towns and had big dreams of being successful and both loved San Francisco. The next week we went to see the movie Tangled. I wanted to see a Disney cartoon because of the animation and graphics. My coworkers were chatting at work about the movie and I decided to text him to see if he was interested in seeing it with me. We first stopped off at Ted Baker so that he could pick up a couple of suits that he ordered. I started to wander around the store on my own since I just met him and didnt know him that well. It was raining that night and he brought an umbrella and held my hand while we walked down to the movie theaters. I still felt a bit awkward holding his hand, since I didnt know him that well. After the movies we then went to a restaurant and talked more and more. The conversations went great and next thing you know it we were talking until 1 am on weekday. I told him about my dreams and goals that I want to achieve in life. I said that I want my kids to be proud of me day in the future. We talked a lot about family and things that we wanted in life. The conversation was just very natural and we shared the same ambition. He said, wow, I had a great time with you and cheers to our second date. By the end of the night we were holding hands and he gave me a kiss before he dropped me home. I remember thinking this guy is really great, I really dont want to keep on dating. I really just wanted to get to know him more. On our third date we went to a Mexican restaurant by his apartment. He held my hand at the end of dinner and suggested that we take a trip together. I was thinking he would suggest some where like Napa or Monterey which was only a one or two hour drive. Then he brought up maybe somewhere in Mexico, where it was tropical and that January would be a good time to go. I didnt really take him that seriously when he said that. We both went back to our own hometowns for Christmas, so I didnt see him for about two weeks. We still kept in contact by text and by email. After we got back from the Christmas holidays, we started to meet every week and went out together. He said, I feel really happy when I am with you, I feel like I am at peace and I miss you. I remembering thinking this was too good to be true. We were still going out every week and having a lot fun. We were laughing and smiling all of the time. He said, This is a wonderful day I feel really happy right now. A few months ago when I was living in Northbeach with my roommate we were on my bed watching the bachelorette. The episode featured the bachelorette that was from San Francisco and she took at trip to Tahiti. I didnt even know that islands like that even exist. I remember thinking I wonder if I would ever get to go there with someone that I really care about one day. I asked my roommate joking where is my guy, she just said hes in Canada right now working really hard. Then when he is finish working you guys will meet. I laughed and went to sleep. Its funny how months later I would meet a guy that lived in Northbeach and that we was Canadian. So when I was home during the Christmas break, I sent him a link to Tahiti when I was at home during the holidays. I said this is where I want to go sometime this year. The water is so blue and beautiful. He emailed me back and said, Wow great choice, and that January would be a great time to travel. I wasnt thinking too much of it. I didnt think that he was serious. So this is January I realized how much I missed seeing him, I must of started to fall and really liked him a lot. I started planning my birthday party, which was at the end of January. We talked about going to Tahiti. I said maybe in March then, I figure it would give us more time to know each other better. He suggested that we go during Valentines week and that we get the deluxe package to Bora Bora also. I thought wow, he is really serious, and we went ahead and booked the trip. I invited him to come and meet some of my friends. They all really liked him and I had an amazing birthday party. I would text him and said that my heart felt really happy. He texted back and said his heart was really happy too. We were at a Thai restaurant one night at a bar and he brought up kid names. He said that he liked the name Jackie and that it was a strong good name. I said yes that sounds like a good name. I remember a couple of times when we were going out he kept on telling me that he had so much money that he didnt know what to do with it. I said, You need to invest or help your mom pay for her bills. I asked him if he helped his mom pay for her bills. I remember when he dropped me home, I said that I have an idea you can buy your mom a car, a really nice sup up one that would be a great surprise. The next week when we were going out and he told me that hes going to help his mom out and that it was better than spending money on booze. I said, thats good, you should do that and send her on nice vacation trips that would be really nice. On Sunday we were planning to go to Sacramento. Im from Louisiana and one of my dreams was to get my parents to move out to California some day. I built and bought a house for my parents and no one have seen it yet. My parents havent moved out to California yet, so they havent seen the house that I built for them. I told him that he makes me really happy and that I wanted to show him my house. The house represents my success and hard work that Ive accomplished at a young age. My parents moved to the USA when I was a baby for my sister and I to get heart surgery. They gave up everything and started from nothing but still made that big move to the US so that we could get surgery. I am lucky enough to get a second chance in life and have success in my career at a young age. I wanted to be able to surprise them with the wonderful house. I made lunch for both of us and started working on his logo for his company that day. He was on my computer checking his email and sketching out ideas for his logo. We had a blast that day. When I got home I went over to my computer to check my email and I saw that the last email was from Amy in my Gmail account. I was thinking who is Amy? I clicked on the inbox heading and read it. Then I realized that it wasnt my Gmail account that it was his. It turns out that they went to Napa together on Saturday and they were seeing each other. I felt so hurt and surprised. I signed out of his account and I didnt want to read anything else. I knew that I met him on a dating site and knew that theres a chance that the men and women on there date multiple people at one time. We were just dating and not official so I just let it go. I told my close friend about it but we already booked a trip. I told my friend, Im going to take a chance anyway. Im going to go along with the trip and take my chances of finding love. No one can fake happiness when they are with you. I saw that he was really happy when he was with me or else I wouldnt have kept seeing him. The next weekend we went to Napa for a day. Right before I moved to San Francisco, my boss bought me a pink pearl necklace and earring set. They bought me a suitcase set and the pearl set and said go to San Francisco and make them proud. That was over four years ago and I never wore the pearl jewelry set. I told him that Im going to wear it the first time today, because I feel like this is a lucky day. He said, Im so honor it looks so great on you. He was really charming and good with words. That same day I was at his apartment and he was using his iPhone. I came over and put my arms around him and gave him a hug from behind. I glanced over his shoulder not thinking too much and saw Amy on his iPhone as one of the most recent calls. Then I asked him was he dating other women. He said, You have nothing to worry about and why do you ask. I didnt respond. So this is February February 9th would be the day that we flew out to Tahiti and Bora Bora. We booked five nights at the Hilton. We were super excited holding hands and ready for adventure. When he picked me up in the cab from my apartment. I noticed that he got a text from someone named Alba. I dont like being noisy so I looked the other way. He told me that one of his guy friends just broke up with his ex and both their ex were close friends. He said that he was planning to go to Vegas the weekend that we got back from Tahiti. Bora Bora is an amazing island. Its one of the top honeymoon spots and everything closes at 9:30 pm. It felt like a dream trip. There were lots of stars in the southern hemisphere and the moon is very bright. We saw a shooting star one night. I was pointing in the sky, and said look there are so many stars. As soon as he looked up we saw a shooting star. Its definitely a romantic island. We got really lucky, because the week before it rained a lot and the week that we got there the weather was perfect. The sun was really intense. We stayed in Tahiti on the first night and went on an excursion. I had a blast and I felt so happy. On the excursion we met an older couple that said that they met on Eharmony. She said that she had two sons and he had two daughters and they both enjoy doing the same things and share the same interests. There were two other girls on the tour that were from Japan. They didnt speak any English. They asked me when I was by myself, Is this a honeymoon? I said no. He gave me a kiss and they both started giggling. I felt kind of awkward. Our tour guide got us a flower for the women to put it in their hair. If you put the flower on your right ear that means you are single and still looking. If you have the flower on your left ear that means that your heart has been taken and that you were in love. I paused for a bit and decided it to put in on my left ear. In Bora Bora we met another couple that were both widows and remarried. They have been married for ten years. This island is a perfect honeymoon location or when youre married and in love. Its definitely a fantasy dreamy island. On Saturday we went on a snorkeling trip. I cant swim so I wore a life jacket. I got really nervous because I had this image that the boat would be on top of me and I wouldnt be able to get out. I wasnt use to the movement of the water. There were sting rays, fishes and coral sharks. I started to freak out. I wouldnt let go of him and the tour guide said, Let go of your husband, and hold on to me. I felt kind of awkward and the island people would call me by his last name. I ended up holding the tour guides hand and was able to see all of the beautiful corals underneath. He swam by me underwater and waved at me. It was super fun. When we got on the boat, he said, You did so good, give me a kiss. Every night we would sit outside and look up at the stars and moon. He told me wow around this time last year he was clipping coupons and memorizing all of the happy hour times and that he didnt imagine he would be here right now. There were three stars that were vertically aligned and spaced apart with equal distance from each other that appeared every night. I made my three wishes every night: that I would continue to have great success, good health and know the man that I will end up with by next year. The next day we went to a restaurant called Bloody Mary on the main island. I usually have deep conversations with him. I told him I wanted to be a good wife one day. He said I would be an excellent wife and mother one day. He asked me what I thought a good wife would be. I said, I think you should love and take care of each other through everything. So it was Sunday morning and we got breakfast. He ended up getting really sick stayed in bed the whole day. I didnt want to leave him there by himself. I sat outside and tried to read the Twightlight book and listen to the radio. It was really hot in the hotel room but he was freezing cold so I turned the air off. I had to take two showers and sit outside, because it was so hot. I looked over at the time it was around 5 pm. He wanted to get in the bathtub to see if he would feel better. I remember him turning on the water and got in the bathtub on his knees and hands, in a crawling position. I came over and said, What are you doing you are suppose to fill up the bathtub with water first before you get in. I helped him get out of the bathtub and said that I he has to wait for the water to fill up first. It turned out that the water pressure wasnt that great and it would take forever for the bathtub to fill up. He took a shower instead and he was so sick that he didnt want to blow dry his hair. I stood on my tip toes and blew dry his hair for him. I called the front desk of the hotel and asked if they had any Advil, Tylenol, or Morton. It turned out that they were forbidden to give out over the counter medicine on the island since some tourists were allergic to French medicine. If you wanted to get over the counter medicine you had to take a boat to the main island and go to the pharmacy there. I was thinking of plan b at this point. I decided to go out on the beach and look for other tourists. I figured that there were so many American tourists on the island and someone would have over the counter medicine. I remember thinking if I should go in one of the restaurants or just go ask someone on the beach. I walked over to the first couple. The first couple was a Latin American couple on the beach and I told them about how theres no medicine on the island. The husband said, We dont have any on us. Then his wife turned around and said, Yes I have some in my bag. She grabbed her sack and she had a little blue container with three Advils left. I was so happy. I asked her if I could take all three. I remember thinking that there was three Advils left just like the three stars that I saw last night, I felt really lucky. I remember holding the three Advils tight in a fist in my right hand. I started jogging really fast with my pink Old Navy flip-flops back to the hotel. I had a sudden image in my head that if I got back to the hotel he would pass out or faint. I started jogging faster. The sun was so intense at that time, I was sweating and the colors of the Advils were sticking in my hand. When I got back to the hotel he looked really sick and had big frown on his face. He was sitting at the end of the bed and didnt move from that same spot. I said, I got some Advil! I remember his eyes lighting up and surprised when I said that. He took two Advils and rest for about an hour and got a lot better. He said, Thank you so much you nursed a doctor back to his health and I know nurses that are not as nice as you. You are going to be a great mom one day. He said that doctors were the worst patients and that they thought they knew everything when they are sick and that I took care of him without complaining. He kept on saying thank you and said he dont take this lightly since I helped him get better. So we went back outside on the porch and looked up at stars again. I fell asleep. He would give me a kiss on the cheek when Im sleeping sometimes. I asked him what do you think that God is trying to tell you since you got sick? I said, I think he is telling you that you need to be an adult. He said, I am an adult. He said that being sick, we at least got to bond on a different level. In the middle of the night he started sweating a lot again. He had a really bad fever, I reached over and touched him a couple of times and it felt like I was touching a hot kettle on the stove. I was so worried and scared, I kept on waking up. He asked me if I knew any CPR. I was getting more worried. We were both really badly sunburned. So I ran in the bathroom to get tissue and wiped off some of his sweat. I didnt want to use a towel because we were both sunburned. He had a big puddle of sweat on his chest, his hair was soaking wet and his hands were soaked in sweat. I have never been near or taken care of anyone sick. It was definitely a waking up experience. I really couldnt watch anyone sick and suffer like that. I really tried to take care of him. So now it was around 4 am in the morning. He was getting dehydrated from sweating. I ran out to the ice machine a couple of times to fill up his cup with ice and water. I remember looking up at the stars, while holding the ice bucket and saying a prayer that he would be okay and we would make it back to San Francisco safely. So I feed him ice water with a straw from the bed. I went back to sleep and looked up at the time one hour later and it was 5 am in the morning. We only had one Advil left. He said, Can you give me the last Advil? It felt like a movie, on an island with no medicine. I said I am worried, we are on an island and theres no medicine for you. An hour passed and it was now 6 am. I was waiting for the sun to rise so that I could go out on the beach and ask someone if they had more medicine. I walked out of our hotel and a couple smiled and said good morning to me. The lady was from Australia and her husband was from Texas. I asked them if they had any over the counter medicine. The husband said, No we dont have any on us. The wife said, Oh I can go back to the hotel and get some for you. I followed them back to their hotel and she looked for some scissors and got me half a sheet of IV Prophin. She said I hope he feels better and good luck. I was so happy again, I said thank you so much! I ran back to the hotel and told him that I found more medicine! He smiled and said that you so much. Our flight from Bora Bora back to Tahiti was at 11 am. He grabbed my hand and said that you can check off your list of things that youve accomplished in life, that you nursed a doctor back to his health. I said, that I didnt know that was on my list of things that I would do in life. The over the counter medicine just lasted him a few hours. He looked exhausted all of the time. We ran into the couple that we met on the snorkeling tour and I asked his wife for more Advil. The flight from Bora Bora to Tahiti was only about an hour. Before we got to the hotel we finally got a chance to stop at the Pharmacy to get a box of Advil. When we got back from Tahiti we stayed at the hotel for a few hours then we went downtown for a few hours. When we were in the cab he grabbed my hand and looked at me and smiled. We would do that often, every time we were going to a new destination or landed we would grab each others hand and say, Yay! It was really cute and innocent. I wanted to buy a few souvenirs for my friends when I got back. He waited for me at the bench and I went into one of the gift shops. I bought a few things for some of my friends and a Hinano beer cap for him. I felt sorry that he was so sick and I got him a cap to wear to keep the sun away. It was time to go and we finally got to the Tahitian airport. He slept on the bench and I handed him my jacket. He said, What is this for? I said, Use it as a pillow, Ill wake you up when its time to board. It was funny I ran into the first couple that I got the three Advils from in line. I ran into them again at the Los Angeles airport. It was a 9-hour flight from Tahiti to Los Angeles. He ended up sleeping on my shoulder the whole 9-hours. He started shivering in chills and his face and nose was really cold. He asked me if we could snuggle. I remember his freezing cold nose and face breathing down my neck. I could even hear his teeth chattering really fast in my ear. I had to hold him on the 9-hour flight since he was shivering. I covered my jacket over his arms under the blanket and sat by the window since it was colder in that seat. He was dehydrating and I kept on asking the flight attendant for more juice and water on the plane. We finally safely landed but there was a three-hour wait before we could board the plane from Los Angeles to San Francisco. We went to one of the restaurants at the airport. I ordered food and hot coffee and he got more orange juice. He started to shiver again after he drank the juice. He kept on holding my hot coffee cup to keep warm. He was shivering and didnt bring a jacket so he bought a sweatshirt at the airport. I had to hold him at the airport because he was so cold. I saw a bunch of people passing by us and kept on staring at us. He was coughing a lot and I kept on giving him cough drops. One lady pass by me when I was holding him and looked at me and she just smiled at me. The plane ride from Los Angeles to San Francisco was about an hour long. He slept on my shoulder during that hour too. We finally got back to San Francisco and he got an appointment to see his doctor to get checked up. I asked him if I could go with him, but he insisted that he would be fine. I made him promise to text me if anything changes. He texted me when he was in the doctors office. He ended up going to ER and left around midnight. I was so worried and concerned because I saw him when he was at his worst and took care of him. I started to care a lot. One day later after we got back, I started getting really dizzy and exhausted every few hours. I got really worried because I ended up in the hospital about 10 years ago from encephalitis. I got a bunch of mosquitos bites when we were in Tahiti. I went to the doctor near my office and she just told me to get some rest. They didnt prescribe me anything. I emailed him to ask what they diagnosis him with, it ended up being a bacteria from something we ate or drank there. He is a MD doctor so I was texting him my symptoms and he was telling me to drink a lot of water even if I wasnt thirsty and take Tylenol. He offered to stop by and bring me soup and Tylenol that night but I told him that he should stay home and get some rest since he just got back from ER. That same week on a Friday, he told me that he was still going to Vegas with one of his friends for memorial weekend. He said that he was sorry that he wouldnt be in town to nurse/doctor me but that he will be thinking of me. I remember in the cab when we were on the way to the airport to Tahiti that he said he would be going to Vegas the weekend that we got back with one of his guy friends. His friend just broke up with his ex girlfriend and that both of their ex were close friends and that they would go to Vegas for a weekend. I emailed him back and said to be careful you just left ER and just getting better. He said that hes going to be careful and that this was an old person trip and that he really misses me. So my friends were really upset that he went to Vegas since I was sick in bed over the weekend and how I took care of him on the trip. I stayed at home all weekend and was super sick and stayed in bed. I felt so dizzy, fatigue and miserable. He told me to call him if I had any questions when he was in Vegas. I texted him a couple of times then he said if I was feeling really bad to go to ER. Just hearing the word ER scares me. I remember him emailing me and said to call him if I had any questions. I texted him and said that I was scared and called him twice. He didnt call me back. I went back to the doctor that Tuesday. The doctors office was closed that Monday for Memorial Day. So I went in and got three 500 mg of antibiotics. I texted him and asked him to come over and keep me company a bit. I havent been around people in a couple of days so it was hard for me since Im very social. He came over and gave me a hug and kiss. I was really happy to see him. We chatted for a bit and I bought him two polo shirts over the weekend. He didnt have a green or purple one so I bought him one of each. Then he said, We need to talk about the trip. These were his exact words. It was a fun trip and it was extreme. I kept on telling myself that it would be just a fun trip. I dont want to send you the wrong messages. We need to take a break. We need to take a couple of steps back. I dont want to break your heart. We have to be just friends. Dont put all your eggs in one basket with me. I still have some figuring out that I need to do. You are a great girl and I dont want to hurt you. I said, you just did, you just hurt me. He said you have a lot of love to give and you need someone to give that to you. I am dating other girls. I said, are they serious?? He said, one is getting serious and he looked away but the others not so much. We should just be friends and Ill still be here but different. I said, I dont want to loose you. I was so shocked hurt in disbelief that I couldnt react and didnt know what to say. I couldnt believe what I was hearing. It went from I miss you and cant wait to see you to I dont need you anymore attitude. It was like a novel with a horrible chapter and ending. In the back of my head I always knew that this was too good to be true. I felt like I got kicked in the head and heart at the same time really hard and didnt know what hurt more. Then he gave me back the shirts and said I have to get going. He walked out and he said Im going to miss coming here. You have so much going on for you, the house and your success. You have more than anyone that I know. He started heading to the door and looked back at me when he was walking out. Im not sure if that was his true feelings or if he was staging it anymore at that point. I felt so hurt I was just feeling better from taking the antibiotic and felt really sad and sick again when he left. I texted a couple of my close friends and then my phone and Gchat started blowing up. They all called me and instant messaging me, so I have great friends to talk to. I had four meetings scheduled the next day at work but I didnt come in. I decided to stay home. I know that it was only three months and it was a short time that we met, but it still hurts. I started falling for this guy and started to really care. I was hoping that he would of turned around after a week and said that he made a mistake but he didnt come back around. Two weeks passed by and I was still feeling sick and dizzy. I stayed home for a whole week and worked from home. I would still go to work on the second week and my boss said that I looked green and should go home. I would rest on my head on my desk sometimes, then get up and do a web presentation. It was a struggle to just stay awake. He referred me to his doctor a week before and I decided to go. Then a week later I emailed him and said thank you for the referral, I hope that all is well. We emailed me back and said that he hopes I feel better and that he started seeing someone else. I wish he left that part out. It was like stabbing a wound that was getting better. I emailed him back and said that I felt hurt, sad and disappointed on what happen to us. I thought that we would bond more after the trip and didnt expect the outcome. I said that Im glad that he found happiness and good luck with everything. I know, Im too nice, yes I know. A month passed by and I felt better. I started going on other dates. I wasnt looking for anything right away. I just wanted to know that there were good men out there. I just wanted to smile and laugh again with some good company and great friends. It was too much emotion and things that happen in the last month. I went out on a weekday night with some friends and got home and logged onto my Facebook account. The first thing that I saw in the news feed was a bunch of pictures of him tagged from a Vegas trip. It turned out that he went on the Vegas trip with a girl in Guatemala and that it wasnt his friend. I started deleting all of his photos of us. I then remember when we were in the cab on the way the San Francisco airport for our trip, he got a text from someone named Alba. So it all started making sense, he planned a weekend Vegas trip with her on the week that we got back from Tahiti. I thought about emailing her and letting her know that. I decided not to since I didnt know her and that I didnt want to be labeled as the other girl. I really dont understand how anyone can be so amazingly sweet and so cruel at the same time. I didnt know humans beings were that capable of acting like this, but of course I should of known better. I thought back at all of the signs that he was dating around. I ignored it all because I saw that he was happy with me, so I didnt let it bother me that much since we just met each other. I learned a lot from this experience and it all happened with just click of a button on an online dating site. Im sure not everyone has such extreme experiences but I was the one that had one of them. I still think that in the end everyone is looking for love and happiness. That is one feeling that we all want in life is to feel wanted, happy and love. Even though he disappointed and hurt me, believe it our not I dont regret meeting him. I never had that kind of happiness when Im with someone before. Its an amazing feeling that I wish I would have everyday, even if it was not real. Feeling like you are happy and excited to see someone with chemistry is a beautiful and special feeling. Now I know how it feels like to be happy, even though it was short. Its definitely something that I want again with someone special. It would make life feel very meaningful as though everything you did in life brought you to that special someone. I thought back on some of the things that he said like, Ive done some bad things in my life. I listen to criminals eight hours a day at work. I listen to peoples deepest darkest secrets everyday and I wonder if that can rub off on a person. When he was sleeping he talked a lot in his sleep. He would say things like, you have one more year in prison, you came from a rich family and you are a brat. I just figured that he was just tired and talking about stuff from work. He would say things like, I have so much money that I dont know what to do with it sometimes. Or when we are at bar one time, he said, I am living the life, going out and dating beautiful women. I felt that there were two sides to him, the charming sweet caring side and the side that I never knew. When I just got my new job I moved out on my own in October. My bed faces the window with an ocean view of San Francisco. I feel very bless to have success in my career. I usually leave the blinds up and look out the window every night before I go to sleep and count my blessings. I prayed every night before I fell asleep that an amazing man would come in my life and fill my heart up with happiness and smiles. In November I met him and stopped praying about it because I felt really happy. My heart felt like it was filled with happiness. He did make me happy. Now that I am out dating again, I still pray at night and look out at the view and city lights. I wish that a new amazing man that wants to be with me and love me will come in my life. I cant wait to be that lucky lady someday. I remember those three stars that I would look up at every night in Bora Bora, that were equally vertical aligned and equal distance from each other. I remember the three wishes that I made, to continue with my success, have good health and find the man that I would end up marrying. So I try to look on the bright side, my success is great. Im starting to full lead a big project at work next month. Im restored back to health from the trip. My last wish to find that amazing man is whenever its supposed to happen it will happen. Maybe it wasnt meant to be since we are not seeing each other anymore. I know that someone great and amazing will come in my life again. When I woke up the next morning from being sick, I saw the sun rising, the clouds were pink and blue. It was a 6 am view and usually dont get up until 7:30 am. I took a picture of the view from my apartment. I cant wait to meet someone that will fill up my heart with happiness and smiles. I decided to write so that I can move on. I didnt realize that Im up to ten pages in a word document right now. To all the ladies out there that are searching for love, good luck and remember its never you. Its always the guy are the ones that are not right for you have issues, but the right one will come along. Just one click of a button gave me a crazy experience, but at least I knew early enough so that I dont waste my time with the wrong man. I think back at the little things that I missed like passing the church in Northbeach and holding his hand. There was reconstruction to the church and we called it our space shuttle and we would smile every time we saw it. Or the eye contacting and holding hands, and saying, Yay together whenever we felt happy. Now that I think about it I dont know whats real anymore and if men are the same way like that with every woman. I dont understand how you fake emotions or feelings towards someone. I want to move on and erase all of those memories as though it was just a dream and I woke up to reality. My friends said, just think of it this way that you got a really good trip out of it. I dont want a trip with anyone unless they really wanted to be with me. There were so many questions that go in my head like, why would you go to that extent. How does someone go from I miss you and I will be thinking about you to I dont need you anymore attitude. Dating is tough, Im going to keep dating until I find someone amazing that makes my heart smile and happy. I dont want to spend time thinking about the past. I cant wait to see what lies ahead in the future.

OMG I am having the same problem! I was quoted a promo price for 1 year, then 2 mos later they raised the price. When I called to dispute it, they said they could lower it to what I was promised, but they'd have to take away the STARS promo that was supposed to be free anyway! Happy Anniversary my a**! Then, they said that after my promo, the price would be raised by 15.00, which was not what I was told by the rep who apparently lied to me in order to get my business. I called, talked to three people, they said they would check it out, but after what I'm reading here, I don't expect too much. Bottom line? The "Executive dispute" guy they sent me to said that there was no way he could honor the price the rep told me, AND that if I canceled, they would charge me 400.00 in fees!!!! This is OUTRAGEOUS!!!! So basically, I thought I was getting a great deal better than Brighthouse, but after the year is up with DISH you end up paying the same as the competitors, but at least they have free customer service (Dish charges you after 3 mos), maintenance and they don't send some scraggly guy to your house that looks and talks like he just got sprung from prison to "take care" of your problem. I was with Brighthouse for 10 years and I'm probably going back, but I'll have to cancel my bank account if I do, otherwise DISH hits me with the 400 fee. How stupid, unprofessional and downright RUDE of them to promise something just to get your business and then take it away, and then threaten to hit you with the cancel fee. Its like, they're going to get their money out of you one way or another. Waiting for a call back to "resolve" to issue, even though they said they can't honor the price I was quoted, but I will post if anything happens with it. I gave them hell, not sure if it did any good though. VERY DISAPPOINTING!!!!!

MMORPG Creation3d Mmorpg Maker Softwere?! Even thought It's been 3 years now,some people still need help in creation of a MMORPG. First of all you'll need to know a bit of HTML for the website creation, But If your not planning to make a website with HTML I suggest using https://www.sitew.com/ (and buy a domain for as long as you want) Alright now for the MMORPG, Like most people said You should learn C++ to create one, You'll need a Game engine Here's a list of 2D and 3D Game engines: 3D Game engines: Bigworld Realm Crafter Panda3D 2D Game engines: Eclipse (Not working anymore) XtremeWorlds Genesis2D

I dont know how to begin. There is a girl who i met 9 months ago at my job. I liked her the very first time i saw her and took her number. We started talking and started liking each other. it happend quik. we went on a date couple of days later. and ofcourse i paid for everything and treated her like a Nice Gentelman. She was very impressed by me. when i met her she was living in the Dark. No parents, No family, no friends to help her and look after her struggle. She was a DCF child. I broke down when i heard about her past and how she never had any love or happiness in her life. I took that very seriously and made a promise to God i will Bring her back to life and give her everyrthing she Deserve. And i Started treating her like a Princess. She never went on a reald date before. her Ex treated her like a *BLEEP*. Always used to ask her for money, used to hit her and Never took her to any restaurent or movies. Everything was New and Overwhealming to her when i Used to take her out to Movies, Dinner to the best restaurent, never raised my hand on her. Always gave her Ride to whereever she wanted to go. Took her to the City on her Birthday, gave her expensive Gifts, spend lots of money and time with her just so she is happy and she feels atleast a lil bit that she has someone Now in her life to Make her happy. She never had a good job who paid her anything. I started liking her alot and fall in love with her. She fall in Love with me too. She never had much money to spend. Sometimes She didnt even have any money to Eat and I used to hand her My credit card and told her here u go babe go eat anything to want to. She always wanted to live into her own place and cuz of me she got her New Place.I helped her Move all her stuff into her New Appartment. helped her Do shopping for it. Helped her build it to the way she wanted. Then She wanted a Laptop. I gave her that too on a Valentines day as a gift. She was way Nice and Sweet to me for All 8 months untill she got everything she wanted. and She used to Thank me eveyday about it.But then I never Knew Our Life will Take a U turn. Now she had her Own place, a Nice Job, Laptop and more. She had a guy friend who started working with her at her Job. they knew each other for a long time. She said he had a crush on me when we were in school and she kinda liked him aswell. but i didnt care about that cuz she was behaving normally untill she had nothing. But once everything she got what she wanted, i started noticing her altitude towards me was slightly changing. I thought it was just a Stress from her job. But one night she was getting out late from her Job and she said she found a Ride from a Girl. and I said wonderful and told her to call me when u leave ur job. She called me after work and she started giving me an altitude on the phone and i was wondering why is she talking to me this way? i told her ur disrespecting next to ur co-worker. And she didnt care and kept on talking to me like never b4. i thought something was fishy and as she reached home she wasnt willing to leave the car and go to her apartment. she is like give me five minites, i want to g upstairs change and ill call u back. i said why dont u talk to me while going upstairs, she said im aggrevating her and she was begging me to give her 5 minutes cuz she was hungry and i hung up the phone and left my house heading toward her place. And as i reached there she was sitting with a Dude in the car. She left the car quickly as she saw me arrive and started heading toward her door and didnt even bother stopping. we broke up that night. She kept on calling me all night and the next day to get me back. she said she didnt do anything with him but my point was she lied to me and i caught her with a dude in the car. I was attached to her so i gave her once chance. she said she would do anythng to bring me back to her life so i told her to dont ever talk to that dude who works with u. she said okey. One week later on the same day she lied last week with the same guy for the same reason right a day b4 our 9 months aniversary SHE LIED TO ME AGAIN. this was it. whatever trust i had in her i lost it all that night. so i broke up with her again. She still kept on trying to get me for 3 days straight and even cut her hand to get me back. I was crying for 3 days cuz of what she did. i was emotionally attached to her so i just listen to my heart and put a stone on my heart and brought her back to my life as a LAST CHANCE. I know she has no one in her life so seeing that also i got lil strenght to go back to her.i Explained her eveything about how you shouldnt take peoples negative influence over me. they dont know whats between you and me and they dont know what u have been through and that i was always there for u. always listen to ur heart cuz once u make a mistake again I will not take u Back. Everything was fine, we were happy back together. and i caught her text messaging that dude flirting. I got mad at her and started crying and she said It was just a joke between me and him. I told her ur keep messing with me and not want to take me seriously. Told her They all have parents, Money, and people to depend on. You have No one to help u or to be depend on but me cuz i know what u have been through and i love u and i will always be there for u but if u arent gonna respect me and be Loyal to me, i will have to give up on u and let u be. She said I will Never do anything again I promise on my Mother's Grave. After all this she did with me and promised me not to mess up again and she knew if we ever to break up i want to end on a good note and if u like him just tell me and i will walk away but she said there was nothing going on and she only loves me and she also knows how it hurted her when i left her. She was aware of Everything. 2 days ago I told her I get out at 6 from work and i will not hangout with anyone and i will wait for u until u get out of work at 10 and we will spend time. at 930 i came out side her job in the car and it was freezing out plus i didnt have heat in the car so i thought she would leave at 10. She knew i was waiting outside since 930. and from 930 to 1030 i was waiting, from 1030 to 1130 i was still waiting and she said she just need to foil, clean up, cash out and leave. She was already maxed out at 10pm for her 40 hours. I told her i have to pick up dad at 1 so please leave b4 12 so i get to spend time with u. she said im still waiting for foil at 1130. so i waited til 1215 and she still didnt leave. She was working with that dude that night. the store lights were off and i called her and told her will u now please leave cuz im freezing to death here. She said im sorry i still have to wait for foil and it will take 15 to 20 minutes. so i said i wont be able to pick ip dad and he will be very mad. I started crying cuz i figured out she was just making up stories so i leave and she take the ride from that dude. As i was leaving and crying she didnt even stop me. i was waiting for 3 hours freezing in my car and she didnt even care. As soon as i left she came out of her job and i asked her why did u leave now. She said her boss let her go. So i found out She was just waiting for me to leave. She could have just told me to go home if she knew she wasnt gonna take the ride from me. I told her ur very cruel and u didnt do Good to me and that u USED ME. So i broke up with her 2 days ago. I just Want to know WHY SHE DID THIS WITH ME???? WHY???

About the Norton ghost softwareHow To Create "ghost" Images (norton) On WindowsWill u Please tell whether the Norton ghost software gets at free version..?If so kindly mention the website for it.. -question by Nasir

Two backgrounds in one td class not supported in ie browsersCss Background Not Showing Upin Ietd.Asb1_off{background:transparent url(../images/buttons/wl/big/WL01DB_Off.Jpg) no-repeat;}Td.Asb1_over{background-image:url(../images/buttons/wl/big/hover.Jpg),url(../images/buttons/wl/big/WL01DB_Off.Jpg);background-position:0px 148px, 0px 0px;background-repeat:no-repeat, no-repeat;width:149px;height:auto;cursor:pointer;} -question by vasu

I THink That Shadow Is Ok But Sorry Robert But it Let me down a bit at the end and i got confused sometimes with the time jumpingOther Than that The Best Book I EVER READ EPIC

No right clickA Solution For Disabled Right Click On Web PageNo right click scripts piss me off, not because I wanted to steal anything, but sometimes I just want to right click so I can open a link in a new window without losing my place on the current page. About half the time if you first click and hold down your left mouse button, then click and hold down your right mouse button while keeping the left button down, then release the left button, it will then pop up the right click menu box and you can copy or save. You can always do a screen capture and edit in any photo editor, or email the page to yourself by clicking File->Send->Send Page by Email. -reply by aguest

Im going through kind of the same thing right now. I am going into middle school next year and i am going to School A. and EVERYONE else is going to School B.My mom isn't gonna let me transfer...witch doesnt make sense AT ALL because School B. is excepting everyone who wants to transfer...im crying ALL THE TIME...my mom just doesnt understand... Im leaving all of my friends...and its even harder when you have to leave you Best friends that are GUYS!!! You cant hang out with them outside of school...i cry every time i think of anyone who goes to my school, how im going to miss them, and how im going to die at School A. I think im ugly...but everyone says im really pretty. I feel like i want to die. I have looked into commiting suicide even...but i just cant do it...I think about how much of a bad example I'd be for all those people out there. (I wasn't going to commit suiside ONLY because of the school problem, there are more) I'm Scared of what is going to happen to me...im scared because maybe I'll wake up one day and feel like i've had enough... and I'll kill myself...i dont want to have to do that...Do you people have ANY advice at all???

All of you are making a simple problems seem so damn hard to fix. Next time you log in and it freezes, try this CTRL+ALT+DELETE > Shutdown > Log Off Then log back in and you're good to go. done What I'm trying to figure out is how to stop this completely. It seems to be common on XP SP 1-3, from HOME - Pro.

320 Gb Samsung harddisk working slow on XP but perfectly on Windows 7Extremely Slow Hdd Operations On Windows XpHello, previsouly I was using windows XP on 80gb seagate sata hard. Now when I installed a new 320gb samsung hardddisk on my HP530 laptop, even newly installed XP works very slowly on it, but Windows 7 is working excellent. I can't understand the problem that why XP is running very slowly on it and it windows even helds sometime. I even checked the Primary IDE mode and it is UltraDMA Mode 5. Please help!! -reply by Hammad Riaz

I posted this in the ANSWERS forum 2 days ago. It seems here is a more appropriate place. Therefore, I am re-posting (with a little bit additional information). I've registered in Xisto for several months (Username tsangsir). I've not been able to stay signed in the forum. After sign in, I was kicked out in several page clicks, There is no message. It's just like I have never logged in or clicked sign out manually. I clicked frequently (< 1 min interval) so that there should be no timeout. Using different options in the "remember me" checkbox on the sign in page made no difference. Any idea on what's wrong? I have enabled cookies. The same issue also occur with Xisto. I could not test recently because it have no response. Seems no one sees this... Anyway, here are some updates 1) I set up facebook connect. The same problem occurred. 2) Actually, it seems some page will kick me out in 100% of attempts, others seems more random. For example, the Post Reply page and Profile -> (any links) kicked me out 100% 3) By using sites like https://www.whatismyip.com/, it's found that my every web access has a different IP address. These IP addresses are different from the IP address the ISP's DHCP assigned to my own computer. Is this a cause of the issue?

Monitor Message: mode not supportedVGA Mode Not Supported Message On Monitor[Replying to iGuest,13886,15130Start your PC and while its starting keep pressing F8, a new screen will open with a list of options, for Win XP: select "enable vga mode"(6) for Win Vista: select "enable low-resolution video (640x480). This will enable the lowest resolution and after normal startup you will be able to adjust your desired resolution that is supported by your PC.

hi i found a solution just 2 days ago!! me and my friend have been trying for days to get it working. i had no clue this was cousing my problems, not just for aoe2 but for other games as well. and torrent the problem was not with hamachi or gameranger, patches or with any hamachi version, but with my network setup. i thought it was working correctly, but no if you suspect somethings wrong with your network, i recommend checking this out. i tried to do a portforward, but with a port checker from portforward.com i found that my port did not open no matter what i did. so i started googleing and found out that i was behind 2 routers. first my modem(1), that was acctually a router/modem and a second router(2) i use for wireless access. this coused problems. (double NATed) the simpest solution is to replace the router(2) with a wireless access point of course, but its not so difficult if you'r not afraid to mess around in the router settings. check to see if you are double NATed. login to your router(2) and see what WAN ip address it has. (type ipconfig in cmd to find default gateway and enter the ip in the web browser) portforward.com has username and password information for most routers if you dont allready know. under status->WAN it displays the routers ip, it SHOULD be your externatl ip. BUT! if it is 192.168.x.x or somthing just like your local ip, you are double NATed.(to check local ip type ipconfig in cmd) you can see your external ip at portforward.com home page. okey to convert the router(2) to a wireless access point. first you need to find the gateway to your modem/router(1). witch is not displayed with ipconfig, but with another command, tracerout or tracert on windows 7. type tracert http://forums.xisto.com/ or any other web page. it will show you a list of jumps before it reaches the web page. the first jump will be your router/modem(1) 1 <1 ms <1 ms <1 ms 192.168.x.x (it also works with your external ip) type this ip in your browser and login. in the dhcp setting you should see a address pool, e.g 192.168.10.100 to 192.168.10.200. both you and your second router(to be converted) is in this scope. and is listed under address leases. go back inn to your second router(2) and give it an ip outside of the scope. e.g 192.168.10.50 and deactivate dhcp. reboot. the only thing that remains now is to take out the cable connecting the modem(1) to the routers(2) WAN port and connect it to the LAN port instead. remember to enable upnp in your router/modem(1) and your good to go. no need to port forward hamachi must be the highest priorety in the internett connections advanced settings so that aoe2 will use that ip, and game must be created with internett tcp/ip and join with hamachi ip. aoe2 must be added to firewall exeptions. you must also end explorer.exe for the colors to work correctly in vista/win7. both hamachi and gameranger should work now perfectly. tnx and good luck

It makes no sense that the greatest most loving wonderful and caring BEING in the universe who tells us to love our enemies and do good to those who mistreats us would throw what HE loves into a burning fire forever and ever????????????????? Also the Bible says that GOD sent not HIS SON into the world to condemn the world but that the world might be saved through HIM. If CHRIST doesn't save the world, does HE fail????????????? Also if satan wins most of the world, then HE wins. Who would makes the most wonderful thing imaginable that he loved and allowed his enemy to destroy most of it and be pleased with what is left over???????????

Configure Laptop To Work On Static And DHCPConfigure Laptop To Work On Static And DHCPIn most versions of windows on the properties of the internet protocol version 4 there is a general tab and a alternate tab Set the general tab up for automatic (DHCP) and the alternate tab to your static settings your computer will try to get a address automatically via DHCP and if it can't get a address because there is no DHCP server on the network it will use the alternate static setup you entered. for most versions of windows START>Settings>Control panel> Network > find the LAN network connection and look for properties on one of the tabs. Then in the list look for Internet protocol version 4 TC/IP V4 and double click or highlight and click properties. Vista it is - Start>control panel> all control panel items>Network and sharing center... Then look for and click Local Area Connection > properties then double click TCP/IPv4 and setup the general and alternate tabs as described. I will not be coming back here anytime soon so if you have problems ask others. -reply by Gilbert

hi i am 25years old aand have now been with my partner for 6 years. we have one child together and we each have another child from previous relationships. When we first meet i was into partying and was quite a crazy girl that always looked for fun. He found me and wanted to fix me without changing me. iv had alot of problems growing up hense why i had such a crazy personality but over the teen years, now i have calmed down and im not so fun anymore because iv become so sensible. an i appreciate and admire my partner so much for seeing me through the darkness and bringing me into the light. but i feel over the recient years i have been questioning if i am really inlove with him or if i feel obligated to be in this relationship for all he has helped me with. we love our 3 children very much, but i dont feel that passion, lust or romance i just feel confused, sometime i am so happy i have him and other times i sit and question what it would fel like to be truly happy inlove. i am sceard to say or do anything about this because i am not sure if what im feeling is worth ending a relationship over. there is so many qualitys to my man but there are things that just make me so angry he always teeses the kid practicly he acts like a child with good hygene skills where i dont like listening to teasing and i am growing up and moving forward in life while he's at a stand still he hasnt moved forward or reached any goals over the years and i continue to grow and learn and achieve my goals.if this makes sence to anyone i would love to hear your opinion because i really do feel lost and its burning away at me inside i dont think im truly happy but i feell so traped because he was once my saviour.