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  1. Hurt4love
    Well I do wanna share this experience today because it is the aniversary of that day. I feel emotional and sad tonight remembering what happened over 10 years ago. When I was 16 I was popular in high school. I had my own group of friends and we would always have fun. That year a new girl had just moved to our city. I am not kidding when I say she was a copy of me. She looked exactly like me but she was sort of an introvert. I remember she was different. She was not a loner or anything but she did not like company. I sensed though that she was a sweet girl and despite the rumors about this girl and how different she was in terms of her lifestyle and views, one of my favorite moments was in the morning when I would see her by her locker and she would smile to me. I always smiled at her to make her feel like she could trust me. One day I saw her leaving the class crying. She stopped and looked at me then when I smiled at her she smiled back even though she was crying. The next day she finally said to me I hope you have a great weekend! I was happy that she finally had some trust in me. On December 18th, 1997 my group of friends started talking about her. I realized through their conversation that they made fun of her in class the previous day and they made her cry. I yelled at them. I had a huge fight with them and told them I did not want to talk to them anymore. I looked for her address and finally went to her house to appologize to her. Her dad opened the door and told me, she passed away the previous day. She was with someone who drove after getting drunk and had a car accident. The young guy went to prison and she died. He told me he picked her up from school. I realized then that the last thing this girl saw before she died was my smile. I lived with a strange feeling of guilt for a long time. I know I was not my friends and I know I tried to be someone she could trust but perhaps I felt guilty for not appologizing to her sooner. Maybe it is for not earning her trust sooner. I don't know why but ever since that happened everyone felt guilty. They felt guilty to a point where they started calling me by her name in her memory because she looked like me.The point is this girl was different. She was unique and for that the world did not spare her. Now that she is dead I learned that smiling could mean the world to someone. Even on the phone make it a habit to smile because you never know what happens next, whose day you are going ot brighten with your smile, or better yet whose life you are going to change with your smile.
  2. Hurt4love

    Hi, I was just stopping by to say hi! I haven't seen you around in ages and I was hoping things are going well for you! We still need to talk by the way about our philosophical ideas of positivity and optimism :D

  3. Hurt4love

    Today was the last day of classes for the semester! Now the creative process of filming a documentary begins! I am so excited :D

    1. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      Thank you!

    2. chini13

      chini13

      i hope u have a great time doing that

    3. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      I think I will!!!!!! Thank you chini :D

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  4. Hurt4love
    Thank you my dear WD! These are very sweet and wonderful words! Wow that way you will let me publish all my poems here :PThank you again
  5. Hurt4love
    Thank you these are indeed encouraging words I am glad you liked it!
  6. Hurt4love

    Totally relaxing :D had a beautiful full body massage today and my documentary film got the green light today :) Will start filming soon! It`s all good!

    1. chini13

      chini13

      all the best sweety :)

    2. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      Thank you! that`s how it is I guess...Life puts us through ups and downs...then ups again :D

  7. Hurt4love
    In a moment of truth she spoke...In a young moment born of innocence and power... In a moment of truth she unintentionally broke one`s heart...In her moment of strength it was the moment of another`s pain and denial... In a sovereign moment born amidst the tears she released her fears...She released her cries and stood her grounds... She needed to fight for the air she breathes...She needed to show her unique spirits... Overloaded by silence, she retreated...Realizing the pain she unwillingly caused... She foreshadowed the reason for her true existence...Why does it have to be this way? She wondered... It`s time for her to fight for the truth...To show her true identity, the road is full of bumps... Can she not just shut it all away?...Can she not live in peace?... Seems the road ahead is her only path...Seems like the moment of truth was meant to be... One day they might understand...Someday, in some month, in some century they will realize it was for the best...
  8. Hurt4love

    It`s funny how parents want us to be a carbon copy of themselves and don`t easily accept that we`re simply not :)

    1. anwiii

      anwiii

      in the words of will smith, "parents just don't understand".

  9. Hurt4love

    It may not seem that way right now, but I do believe that everything will get better soon. After all it doesn`t rain forever and God and also life don`t give you more than you can handle. It`ll be alright, the sun will come back someday :-)

  10. Hurt4love

    Well what do you know :D the world is happy, the birds are singing and the sky is bue again :) Even the snow is sparkling! Life is beautiful no matter how hard it gets :-) I guess it is always for the best!

    1. chini13

      chini13

      :) :)
  11. Hurt4love

    It`s true that what doesn`t kill you only makes you stronger...and no matter what happens, I will always remind myself to keep smiling :-) :-) :-)

    1. web_designer

      web_designer

      you are absolutely right dear...

  12. Hurt4love
    HiI am making a documentary and was wondering if anyone here has an interesting and intriguing story about his/her experience with the number 7? Do you or anyone else you know experience things that have to do with the number 7? Does number 7 keep coming up in your life? If you do tell me your story and who knows your story might be featured in my documentary.
  13. Hurt4love

    I wanna sedate my brain...I wanna stop thinking for at least one day...One day only :-(

  14. Hurt4love

    I have 2 presentations today and one of them is very very important! I Stayed up all night preparing for them..Wish me luck!

    1. kobra500

      kobra500

      So important that you left them till the night before. Good Luck!

    2. Baniboy

      Baniboy

      all the important work is left to be done under stress and sleepy minds, that's how it's always been and that's how it'll always be...

    3. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      Thank you all for your support! well today is the day when I am going to find out the results of my important presentation. I will let you know when I find out :)

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  15. Hurt4love

    Yummy!!!!!!!!!!!! I am in Spaghetti Blognese heaven enjoying my favorite dish :-)

    1. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      Oh and I forgot to say...I love my spaghetti but I hate my back so much right now!

  16. Hurt4love

    I can`t move, sleep, sit, stand and walk and my back is not getting any better. I have no clue what to do :(

    1. web_designer

      web_designer

      oh seems i missed you when you were online here...:( really hope you will be fine soon dear...

    2. anwiii

      anwiii

      get some sleep! :D

    3. Baniboy

      Baniboy

      do some streches...

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  17. Hurt4love

    Thank You, you made my day :)

  18. Hurt4love

    I despise people who smile in your face and stab you in the back. They disgust me totally! Is it that hard to be honest to others?

    1. chini13

      chini13

      u r asking for the most easy thing..yet most of the people find it difficult to be honest..difficult to portray what they are...

    2. web_designer

      web_designer

      unfortunately we will still meet people like those in our life...

    3. anwiii

      anwiii

      i would rather get stabbed in the back and know who my friends really are than not know at all. :)it's a matter of perspective. keep thinking postivie and it will rub off on others....

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  19. Hurt4love

    I just feel so good. This is awesome! :-)

  20. Hurt4love

    I am so happy and so sad at the same time and I miss him so much :(

    1. web_designer

      web_designer

      :)...
    2. chini13

      chini13

      :D:(
    3. deadmad7

      deadmad7

      :P?
  21. Hurt4love

    My only wish is that the people I love would trust me fully, allow me to spend my life with them and share every moment with them. I wish I can finally feel like a grown up...Maybe I never will.

    1. chini13

      chini13

      :) u r grown up but it is good to keep the kid alive forever..and u are loved :)
  22. Hurt4love

    Don`t ask...I can`t do it...Everything is just exploding in my face from all sides...I give up...I want to quit...

    1. web_designer

      web_designer

      quit???

  23. Hurt4love

    This is gotta be one of the worst unlucky days! To top it off someone broke into my house and I got Robbed! when will all this be over?

    1. Hurt4love

      Hurt4love

      I am still trying to even understand how it happened. I am trying to keep myself together. I hope it will get better soon! Thanks WD and Anwiii for being concerend about me!

    2. web_designer

      web_designer

      hope things will be fine darling...unfortunately things like that happens all the time...

    3. chini13

      chini13

      such an annoying thing happening h4l..but when things go in xtreme...it means they are going to be over..don't worry u will soon have lots of goof time and no turning back...takecaregirl and keep smiling

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  24. Hurt4love

    yummy...eating my favorite meal...Spaghetti Bolognese & Meatball :) I'm loving it :-)

    1. rob86

      rob86

      I believe you mean Buon Appetito, spaghetti bolognese is Italian :)

    2. web_designer

      web_designer

      well i don't italian...pardon...:)

    3. rob86

      rob86

      I never liked "Bon Appetit" anyway. I prefer "Petit-Appetit". The less they eat, the more left for me. Yum!

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  25. Hurt4love

    You always hurt the one you love...The one you shouldn't hurt at all...You always take the sweetest rose...And crush it till the petals fall...You always break the kindest heart...With a hasty word you can't recall...So If I broke your heart last night...It's because I love you most of all

    1. web_designer

      web_designer

      hey...nice words...i like this song...

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