unwanted_flower

i have several internet friends over the years ,some we have shared many heartaches and marriages and divorces and new babies ,shared the good and the bad .some I've even driven to actually visit them .Internet friends or off line friends does it really matter which it is ,we are all people behind these screens that holds feelings and can get really hurt by simple things ,typed on line and would be no different than our friends we see face to face each day .we laugh and argue and cry together and have success and fall in love at times ,it is all real .so i feel friends are friends ,no matter where you find the at .

Wondering what many would do ,when came a time in your Life ,you was told ,you was not on a road to recover.you was told ,you was dying .what would be reaction inside yourself ,you want to do with what time you had in your life ,left .would you share it with those you Love ?Would you let those you Love in on the News or would you keep it all to yourself so no one would treat you any Different than without them knowing .what would your choices be ?Personally for yourself ,as each would be Different I understand .I am interested in hearing How people would react towards hearing news that you was dying .Things you would want to do with rest of your Time left .

life form of fossils plants , not a typical book normal read i understand although my love for plants and research has become something i am addicted too .

your heart rate does slow down when sleeping and depending how one is sleeping on back or sides or tummy ,can cause this problem .try sleeping by placing your head upon two pillows instead flat and even with body ,sleep with head ,upper torso ,raised higher than rest of your body .most sleep disorders ,seem find this works out .still have the problem really sit your mother down and really explain that this is something serious that concerns you and you need her to pay attention ,it may be nothing even if it is anxiety or panic attack ,still serious and needs attention .Wish you best .

really depends on my job and how long it takes me in completing my job ,some days can get my normal 8 hours of sleep ,then working over time on research and will live on few hours of sleep .either way ,less sleep i can get ,will only result in me getting headaches or so tired ,i start dragging my feet through out next day and going through classes at times ,your teacher does not really appreciate seeing you ,nod your head in almost going to sleep and jumping in your chair as snickers come from your class mates as they know you was snoring that is embarrassing in class .

grinding your teeth during sleep is normal caused by stress or anxiety within your life ,it can cause problems orally ,like sore jaw or damaged teeth ,the chronic grinding can wear your teeth down .grinding your teeth can cause many reactions that after awhile you will have to seek medical help in areas ,loose teeth and sore jaw ,that can cause headaches too .grinding your teeth with sore jaw ,can be medical known towards hearing loss too .When grinding your teeth can affect your jaw ,it can affect the appearance of your face in some long term grinding ,they do have those plastic plates to wear over your teeth during the night to protect any further damages .as far as dreaming your grinding your teeth our subconscious mind ,may make us feel like we are dreaming ,although the grinding teeth is actually so painful at times ,you can feel the pain during dream like sleep .when it doesn't stop ,take time out and ask your dentist ,in regards towards a teeth guard to protect any damages to your teeth .it does help limited in grinding your teeth .

i couldn't ever think about ,living rest of my life without sharing it with someone by my side .those small precious moments that happen ,you want share them with someone close and dear to you .becomes your best friend in life ,facing many bad things and many many great things together ,holding each other' hands through areas that ,has brought down tears in life .building motivation and inspiration in each other as you share your life with that special someone .i just wouldn't want ,take each day ,alone in this world ,without sharing everything with that special someone .yes we can have many amazing friends at same time does not compare to that special someone ,that you know ,you want spend ,your life by their side .To reach for you in middle night when you awaken from a dream ,to feel simple touch of your feet ,touching each other ,to catch a smile ,slither across their face ,to catch a giggle from each other ,to hold each other as you watch the stars ,to do small things that you know ,would make the other happy ,there is so much much more in sharing your life with that special one ,for rest your lives ,that makes ,life just that much more happier to wake up each morning ,knowing you have each other .so some people ,might enjoy life ,living alone .i for one would not be one those .

The shelters do ,place ads in local news paper ,concerning pet adoption day .although ,during that one day a month ,is a reduce adoption fee also placed upon the pets located at shelters .the way shelters figure though in cost and expenses ,that they assume in adoption fees ,vary from one county to the next county .some counties may charge a fee of $100.00 or more especially when a shelter ,feels it is a pure breed ,then they may consider charging more .some counties only charge $7.00 fee .although smaller amount of fee ,means that shelter will not be keeping that animal to long in their shelters .depending upon ,what treatments that animal held during their stay at the shelter .although shelters are known to place dogs to sleep ,quicker than the feline breed .at same time shelters believe ,when a family can not afford the adoption fees ,they can not afford to keep ,updated medical and personal care upon the animals either ,at same time ,personal love that comes from a family ,does not hold a cost .it is all consider though ,on the shelters out look .human race should ,love their pets enough ,cat or dog ,to actually take time out and get them fixed ,so there is no mistakes and unwanted animals out there to be ,living in a shelter ,till comes that day ,they are laid to rest too .we have cats and their out side cats and whom actually cares enough to have them fixed ,so not increase ,animals being placed in shelters ,take a look around and you will find a quick answer to that .although shelters hold their own down falls ,they do hold there good points too and are there ,first handed ,to retrieve animals that are abused and left to die on their own ,as unwanted pets .how can we share our life with a animal and after years of sharing life together ,changes happen in your life and that pet can no longer be shared part of our lives ,now that is heart breaking news there.so we pay shelters to take on our long lived with pets money ,to be rid of that responsibility then complain when shelters charge to much or place animals to sleep .where is the good or the bad ,in the hands of all of us ?

if i was our girl ,i would want it to completely come from you and no one else .that makes it touch your heart and allow it to become very amazing .now would be interesting ,to see ,this rap you wrote up ,about this girl that has made you so happy .once you get it all finished .although remember even then ,no one could ever add or change it ,as it was written on from your heart for the heart of your girl .that makes it becomes amazing and special being original .

yes,it really depends on the relationship ,depends of the as shall call it ,(boy or girl)A person can say girls offer more affection and believe in romance more than a boy .Then can also look at it ,these days ,that not being exactly true as affection comes in diffrent ways and forms ,that may not be known as affection to some women ,although for that one girl in relationship with that one boy ,that affection is amazing only to them to be known ,that comes full into romance between the two .as far as giving in money who pays for what ,now days ,does that really matter ? as it can be the girl or boy that actually pays maybe it's both sharing .as far as saying who gives what and more is only vague statement of one's own self here .as there are many boys out there that offer so much of themselves .just as there are girls that wear there heart on their sleeve or skeptical in showing their feelings ,sometimes weather boy or girl ,both can get hurt in feelings in what they can give and amazing times ,is it just can be happy time ,shared between the two .there are long list of suicides in boy these days ,that being rejected ,heart broken that some how there unable to cope ,with out that girl they fallen in love with ,and now see that girl with another .just as their are girls out there ,some how finding their life ,fragile too .as far a girls getting abused ,i feel that becomes over rated on some levels ,these days .as once again their can be ,boy or girl ,that in life can become a victim towards abuse .although do not like that word ,victim as ,we only become that when e actually allow ourselves to believe that too in some cases .don't think anyone ,boy or girl ,should toss everyone in a poll ,like this ,to say who gives more than the other ,as that really would not be fair ,to judge from every angle in one or many relationship ,that each is really different .so honestly ,i am unable to offer a true comment to this poll and be actually fair ,to both sides of this topic ,boy or girl .as each is different and should not be judged .growing up ,as a girl ,one shouldn't look at the world and allow themselves to believe they are better than another in what one could offer above another ,to do that ,will cheat your own self in the respect ,that one day ,you will fall in love and feel ,that boy is offering you more than you ever felt you could offer of you self .it really would not matter who was offering more by that time .boy and girl would just be happy and in love and their would be a peace to grow a poll like this would only not matter ,who gives more than the other .those in love ,would only hold happiness of being together and sharing a life together ,that completes each other .

magick is life lessons that holds never ending understanding instilled in system of learning ,enlighten better focus upon areas and not limited in unlocking abilities of psychic healing ,that becomes what nature holds ,to be provided ,with mixture ,to be use in healing ,magick becomes unlocking the power of the mind ,as when one can ,focus upon the mind ,unlocking certain areas ,of our mind ,there becomes ,much more and creation that releases ,forms of energies that can be assumed as magick ,in many areas ,in one's own abilities and ways of life. there are many forms of magick ,held in different ways and beliefs all over the world ,natural;l,tails manic, tradition ,hereditary ,kitchen ,Buddhist ,shaman ,chemical ,chaos,electric,and last although not ,the ending of magick is sympathetic ,the main focus of high and low forms of magick is moot . prayer is considered a form of magick . it is desired focus upon thought or desired goal from within the mind .just as simple days we use now ,in yoga and meditation. mind disciplines ,are focused upon . as in our life ,years to think backwards ,as creating bodiless simple minds ,scientific rationality ,also created simple mindless bodies ,from slaves and workers through natures plants and all natures creatures ,through out this world and beyond ,so many in our past generations of this world ,we each tried control the lives of so many ,sets up in millions ,so in many areas ,most scientist try once again ,define any sort of reality as perceived delusional ,on any grounds ,when it becomes ,pathetic to state only true scientific knowledge is ,truth and all other is only play or delusions of the mind .so actually comes to bottom line of most out look of scientific outlook ,tosses magick into one solid lump that with religion as delusion . in truth search for such answers ,holds one area ,concerning nature ,and why should nature ,reveal any secrets towards to a scientist ,although scientist does not reveal their secrets out to the world ,respect another does not mean anyone person should have to agree with anyone ,or being like them ,although scientist disagree with this ,understanding ,refuse to accept ,magick is magick with no true answers ,although it will never cease to some one ,researching those undying answers ,instead enjoying ones life and living a life that ,creates a interest and allows one to be creative in ,areas they are drawn too sometimes such discussion ,like this topic ,without any intentions or understanding ,can and may very well be ,draw in the wrong crowds or energies that ,could or could not ,hold a strong ,destruction in another ,persons live or ,drawn into complete family of belief that ,find need to come secretive ,from those out there ,that find strong struggle and need to keep ,asking questions about something that ,has gone beyond many many centuries and affected many many people in our World ,that some to this day will never hold answers or understanding completely . at same time ,there are those that live their lives completely based upon ,this way of lack of understanding ,we show like this topic in many ways ,that disrespects ad could hold a destructing harm to their own life and own families . how long and many years ,should people have to protect and hide their own beliefs and ways of life they are born too ,and be able not be so secretive to protect ,just a way of life they know no other ,way ,that gets handed down from one family towards the next ,as they deserve same right to live free without so many prying eyes ,that holds no respect ,just that ,it becomes a interest and your drawn to area and want to understand it better ,so silly topics and discussions ,start up and not one person every offers that divine respect ,to the families that ,have lived certain way ,all their lives ,that comes natural to them and there family members before them ,that they actually live it as who they are in this world . see those that believe in magick and born into families of magick belief ,or shall i state , feel deeply inside them ,a strange ,connection or drawn towards arts of magick and a belief ,that holds strong amazing interest inside you . its alright to search out and understand and self teach yourself in these areas ,and allow it to become ,part of your own soul and ways of living ,that just maybe ,this could be handed down to your own family members in your own life as being a great gift in becoming a part of who you actually are in own self . there is most important area here . all these things come a interest and you feel drawn to areas of healing and magick ,then by all means ,start ,learning to bring it ,part of you . as for those people ,that know no other way as that in healing and magick ,has been big part of their own lives and families ,future and past ,they hold strongest magick inside themselves ,that comes natural to each of them ,as truth is they live it and add it magical inside there own bodies and it becomes a way of natural living for them each day ,as each breath they take inside their own bodies . they never find a need to ,create debates or disrespect any other means or ways ,in how they are living their own lives ,or the disrespect and fear ,they ,hold in this world ,that makes them secretive ,from disasters of ,people ,falling some where in their life that ,wakes up one day ,not so natural and say wow ,i feel drawn to this area and i need ,to better understand it all ,first of all ,one shall learn in life ,is respect ,the different ,ways of life ,that becomes more than interest or drawn towards . it is all they know in themselves to live . never debate as it coming out sounding as a joke ,nothing about life ,or peoples belief or ways they live ,ever should be disrespected as ,pinning it as a joke . now as far as ,crystals and stones and all areas that has drawn ,young minds towards the beauty and magical and the history of all creation in this earth . holds a past ,holds many areas that will go beyond any understanding or finding that whole of the meaning ,of that certain sacred place or many means of stones or many meaning certain plants in nature can be used for healing or three different plants can be used as medication in healing ,across the world ,holds a different past for many things ,and certain things become sacred in other beings ,belief or becomes sacred ,magical ,hose drawn to these areas ,yes will hold something stronger in side them ,that ,makes you feel ,there is something inside you ,that goes beyond thinking ,that should ,feel a belief in understanding ,this standing stones or rocks ,holds some form past ,history ,that many will assume and never truly ,understand facts ,of how sacred that really is and has become ,part of peoples lives . another way look at magick . why does is consider both in respects of scientist and religion that magick shall be consider dangerous ,not because it is a delusion more on lines it can lead to more define disturbing truths that our world can be essentially beyond human comprehension ,and all in all consequences of this comment would only lead us to think our humanity is our world would rather believe it was created by simple word as god ,rather we can ever be capable of fully and completely understanding ,ourselves . so all i can say in my long winded speech here ,is when in your own life ,you find you are drawn towards something that some ho allows you to feel good ,spiritual inside Who you are ,and holds strong true interest in understanding the arts of magick and healing old folk lore or anything sacred ,as you can never be drawn to one area and think ,the other areas do not matter to you ,or hold true connection ,all in all ,together that actually creates this amazing magick ,you so long wish seek out in your on self and understanding . as to many ,we all may think we know where magick comes from in fact ,that would be lie ,to ever fool ones own self and our own minds in how we see this creation of our world we live in ,and not truly in our soul have complete trust in ,the natural abilities of our world . Respect of even the unknown that goes beyond ,that creates a list of many followers some time and some form in their lives ,they get drawn to this area and without respect of our past . you will never learn how to understand or focus or appreciate ,all things ,you may encounter in your own life . learn to enjoy ,what becomes strong interest and feel drawn towards ,learn to allow it be absorbed within ,who you are ,as part of you and life . learn to respect ,a way of life ,that some live and believe . learn to completely appreciate ,different means of life . nature has endless ,and no limitations in being drawn towards and can,when allowed ,be so much magick and beauty ,in ones life . when allowed to actually view it with respect instead making it a debate i knowledge . so when wish post in healing ,and different out looks of art of healing methods and things to use ,then i am to say i would love reading and hearing and sharing such magick in ,what you write and share in your amazing discoveries ,that is strong sacred interest to ,you and allows you feel the beauty in being drawn towards ,understanding all areas of magick . so will await ,the beauty of magick you can share in all of the interest you hold inside you and creating understanding in finding the magick in areas that are drawing you closer ,as sharing it in your own life as part of yourself . Good luck with ,your understanding in areas that becomes a interest and instilled in you being drawn to certain areas ,that this world ,has to offer ,past and future ,that when one learns respect ,in their understanding and research of what they ,learn . Bringing it ,as part of their own lives and Learn to ,see that sacred Beauty and Magical ,out look ,on What ,you are drawn towards in ,allowing ,it become part of Who you are . As you sound like ,amazing person ,filled with so much Promise and will always hold curious mind and not afraid to ,search ,things out and allow ,it become strong part of your own self and life . Also remember though ,the unknown ,holds a past that ,their was ,people ,that lived that means of past and some people ,still now to this day ,are living as way of their own lifestyle ,that even simple stone or stacked up rocks ,that holds a beauty and past ,to those now ,that views it . Has been a sacred belief to many people and everything in life deserves to be ,thought upon with highest respect to the world we each live in . Wish you amazing Luck in life and your understanding . Stay with that beauty and yes ,a form of even magick ,that is inside yourself ,even now .

when i worked at nursing home ,yes i had night shift too ,creepy time to be working at a nursing home too ,one summer ,to help pay for books i needed for school and research ,there was this older gentleman that ,would always be talking in his sleep ,during the night ,it was like he was a busy man ,during the night ,inside his head .this man ,could not walk ,he was in a wheel chair and pushed around ,he held a stroke ,so his talking was ,limited too ,most the time ,he was bed ridden and poor soul ,didn't have many family visitors though .one night i was working and just doing my rounds of checking up on people ,only couple other girls worked that night ,although they held ,different hallways and rooms of people different than mine and we had once charge nurse on duty at night .I passed by this gentleman room and heard some one walking around and talking ,clear words ,and only heard one voice though .i quietly opened the door to his room and there was this man ,walking around and complaining he could not find his house slippers and even bent down ,to look under his bed and stood up with no difficulties .i helped him get back in his bed and covered him up as he kept asking for my name and finial when i turned away for brief moment ,he was fast asleep .the next morning before my shift ,was over ,the charge nurse came in ,to instruct bathing before i clocked out and brought in wheel chair and i told her oh no ,he can walk ,just ask him ,and the look i got from that charge nurse ,you think i slapped her ,that moment in time .She went on quietly complaining how she was so distressed out ,in hiring young people come in with their ,uppity and hatred of taking care of the old and how disrespectful we young people was against the older people ,that she would not tolerate me ,making jokes ,on their benefits and told me ,this gentleman was placed in nursing home ,after having a stroke and never seemed to walk after wards ,any day or time ,after that stroke ,and could not speak intelligent word ,to anyone ,to be understood and how that charge nurse ,was writing me up for my childish pranks and jokes .a course she wrote me up and i soon found another job after wards ,i will never forget what i saw .when he was asleep ,he walked as normal as i did or anyone did and talked complete words as clear as a bell ,although when he was awake ,he couldn't say one word except grumble and could not even have use of slightest movement of his limbs .so will never explain that one though .so do know ,there are people asleep ,and in some what like a dream ,they get out bed and walk around the house and perform every day duties and they are still asleep .you can talk with them and they answer you and they do not realize they are asleep as they ,look perfectly normal and awake ,although doctors testing ,and sleep ,disorders ,that hold testing done with all those wires and tubes ,placed on your head and they place you in quiet room to sleep and they monitor your sleep habits ,that ,people can walk around ,act as normal as being awake although asleep and sometimes what they can not do awake they can do asleep and ,then what ,they feel deeply inside their minds ,they perform ,when walking around asleep .can be dangerous in both episodes i feel .

somehow i am really interested in this topic as ,something i experienced ,when had ,weekend at cabin with few long time friends ,and through out ,the whole weekend ,pictures was taken of everyone ,some posed and some was not .just so each of us ,would have those pictures to remember that special weekend .although remember this one girl she hated her picture taking and everyone ,laughed at her saying she was being stupid and shy .as she was very pretty girl .one morning ,we all was rushing around the house ,getting all primped and dressed ,to head out ,down the mountain from the cabin and go into town for few drinks and dancing ,when this girl ,was standing in front of the mirror ,combing her hair and i came up behind her and ,only saw me standing in mirror ,combing my hair ,as strange as it sounds ,this really happened ,i could not explain ,it as i mentioned it in shock to her and she laughed ,saying i was insane or had to much drink already .so thought okay ,maybe she is right ,although still does not explain not seeing her in that mirror . so later on that night,after we went out dancing ,pictures was taken through the night and then when we all came back home and we was all settling down to sleep ,later i went and got one my make up mirror and creep in this girls room and held mirror down in front of her ,and squeezed down to try see if she be in that mirror ,nothing ,she was not in that mirror .not her foot ,not her head no art of her body could be seen in that mirror at no time .i had to place my hand over my mouth ,stop from laughing s it just freaked me out and knew had to be a joke ,as we all played jokes on each other .before end of that weekend ,this girl came out on porch and struck up a conversation with me and spoke she saw me come in her bedroom with the mirror ,she was pretending to be asleep and wonder what i was actually doing ,heck we been friends since 2 nd grade and never saw this before .i asked her how come ,i can not see her reflection in mirror .she told me she was going tell me something ,she learned from some part her family as a child and it seemed always made her safe ,in life ,that he growing up years ,as never happy one living at home and there was allot of ,abuse in her childhood .so family member taught her methods of ,using will and energy and her mind to separate herself in physical matter ,that she became invisible to be seen or hurt again .She stated she used this method many times through out her life and probably saved her life many times ,although it became something that ,seems to happen more than ,on its own ,than ,when she really had to focus ,when first learning how to perform it . i could not believe her back then ,it boggled my way of thinking although stranger things happen in this world that will never ,hold explanation ,no matter how much we research ,we just will never ,hold answers .the kicker to that whole weekend though ,once we all got home and had our film developed ,no one in any of our pictures ,ever had our friend ,in those pictures ,the pictures ,that we each took of her ,alone ,was a picture of all items in back ground ,she was never in that picture ,although if she telling truth ,she was siting or standing right there in that picture ,just we could not see her not even by film .and each group picture ,never had her in them ..now yes ,that is very strange and very interesting .

at times when we seem remember dreams or experiences at a very young age ,as you described here .those same dreams or it lingered inside you ,through out you growing up years .held confusing impact within you ,through out your life . it seems that ,young children and babies ,can see many things ,back then ,that as adults we fail or unable to actually see ,for one meaning or another ,as adults ,our minds ,seem wish grasp something of logic ,to place in what was happening or taking place ,that ,could be explained and many time ,more than most ,we shake it free from our minds and mark it down as just a freaky fluke and 2nd guess it and try not think to much on it .in our lives through out the world ,we each hold someone watching over us through out our lives ,sometimes children get a glimpse of those ,watching over us .Most the time ,when that happens ,as adult ,we do not remember that far back ,in our lives ,some do though .There could of been something ,that needed attention ,back as a child ,that would been result of some issue ,maybe or maybe not ,only assuming here ,that needed to ring that bell ,for you to stop what you was doing at time ,or not go sleep ,or anything to get your attention at that precise moment ,and tme ,to get you raise up in your crib and look their way .then when deed was done and that moment and time changed and disappeared ,they seemed to disappear as mist in fog ,just that instantly .to have those experiences through out your growing up life ,especially at certain times ,maybe and aybe not ,should be aware of your life and direction ,your life is taking you ,and hold some deep thinking that only you can master ,and see ,that direction ,your life is taking you ,is the right direction for you .don't spend your time dwelling on areas in life that ,some how ,does not really hold ,answers or asking why ,sometimes ,we just have pay more attention to our selves and create that happiness within our lives and live productive ,life that ,is meant for you to be ,living ,as we all hold dreams and wants in directions in our lives that sometimes ,they just ,linger inside our own selves as unfinished business as ,life has a way taking us in many directions ,despite ,what is so strong ,lingering inside you ,that we ignore and stop finding that creative art and motivation ,just ,to take life and own self for granted .sometimes we have to maybe ,live certain way or direction ,as it's just expected ,to be that way at times .one should never ignore ,what lingers inside self ,and never allow those dreams or directions that makes you who you really are and stand out in this world ,as number one ,they should be brought out ,and be creative in releasing ,all those amazing things ,that you always dreamed ,you wanted to live and create .so sometimes ,things that happen in our lives that can not be fully explain ,and it similar to what took place as a child .maybe comes a time stop trying really find explanation into that area .look inside own self .live a life ,being creative and releasing your dreams and follow your desires in knowing yourself and adding it ,as motivational part of your life .nothing is better in this world .when each of us ,could just always allow piece of our own lives ,to be our self and allow those lingering creative dreams and desires ,to become shared ,part of that direction ,you are going each day in your life .be You . Dreams sometimes happen ,for each of us ,to pay attention to certain things in our own Lives ,and growth ,to be best ,you can ,in being you .

maybe they really wanted to find out ,what the boys was actually saying about them .so they ,kept walking back and forth ,hoping strike up some flirting and after they left the room ,you boys would start talking and girls are like that sometimes ,they just want to know ,what you boys think of them in silly flirty way .maybe they held something in them that was to shy to just come out and be like just one of the guys as they used to be ,when all just was friends .someone in that group ,caught there eye and they ,just wanted see if boys felt same as girls did .although sometimes what us girls don't get sometimes ,is we may want boys flirt with us and will try many ways and sneaky manners to get information on boys ,especially if going talk about us ,and sometimes it doesn't always pan out way girls think because the boys are still just looking at the girls as quacked out freaks for acting that way and wondering heck why are they not acting like normal as before just one of the guys any more ..

come on ,it may seem like form of a downer in the heart department or feel shot down ,have to see something more exciting in front of you .For each of us ,there is someone waiting for ,you to step into their life ,maybe it won't happen as expected or when it should be expects ,although ,it will step into your life and whew! before you ever knew ,that special girl ,sends you a smile and her eyes ,will see only you .sometimes when we go out searching and looking ,that struggle ,becomes being shot down ,or heart feels heavy .take time in self and be happy ,just being you ,and that happiness and being you ,will shine out wards to those girls ,and like stated before you know it ,some girl ,will be stepping up towards ,you and hold a smile that ,make you do flip flops and something will change inside you ,that weight on your heart ,will be beating so fast ,that some how ,you find yourself ,unable to say no words ,when that happens maybe .although everything happens for a reason and when not looking ,things just seem ,come your way .so start shining through your day ,being happy with who you are and never be so hard on self ,be cool and live ,a life that ,describes ,you and who you are in this world .that is best thing you could offer any girl that could be looking your way when your not looking .

i totally agree with you in girls or women should be wearing boxers instead all those foo foo ,that we do wear and seem to sometimes be uncomfortable ,those could be saved for different times .although boxers are comfortable ,i own few my self already and love just wearing them around the house and yes i admit they come out with some pretty sharp designs and colors ,than they used to have in old time boxers .They should make boxers for women and girls ,it would be our luck one day they will and they become some drab color for girls .the men held those sharp colors .so us girls still be wearing the men boxers when they do that though.

Parents can teach their child during those young ages ,more areas than and school could ever dream of performing .Children are so young ,need ,support and loving environment that can receive with home environment ,with families rather in any school environment .I do believe though ,excellent checked out day care ,having my daughter ,in day care at least once a wek ,had offer her ,some areas in sharing and being around other children and respect of others ,that being raised as single child ,that was little difficult in teaching .

well i have to agree with many of you ,it is best to avoid many people that are controlling and try to be 100% right all the time or 100% wrong not on their part though .it is though draining emotionally draining to be living with or surrounded with ,someone that has a demeaning critical view even on life and all that surrounds them .They begin to know much more than doctors ,teachers ,parents ,any one that may seem any form authority figure and most of all they tend to grow even to big for themselves too .only form of life they hold is offering advice to others ,they feel some how they can mold in certain manner ,that does not become emotionally draining for others or themselves ..thank you for some of your replies and advice .

anwiii that is where you are mistaken .i asked for advice yes .i am mature enough to weigh out that advice that comes to me ,through something use full and the young bs that holds no meaning to my life or needed advice .i respect your advice .truly i do .with high respect .at same time anwiii do not ever try tell anyone that ,you can see beyond someone ,inside someone unless you are prepared to meet someone in life that also can see beyond ,even through simple text and simple cross over ,energies that are given off ,that goes beyond any understanding this forum cares to seek out or understand .at same time for some reason i offer you respect and credit ,as i feel you do see beyond ,where others do not ,at same time it went to your head ,life offers each of us a gift inside our selves ,it is up to each of us to be wise enough to use it with respect of others not selfishly for our own personal gains in our own insecure feelings .i am not just some weird apple in this world i come from some long line of family members that ,hold many gifts and many wise areas in seeing beyond many faces of different people ,there is a divine truth in everything anwiii .many people will disagree with my words i do not care what many people dislike or like about me ,i know myself and know sometimes i get confused in arts of love and relationships ,although i am human .i feel some way you have experienced something deeper in your life that ,you search for answers and help in understanding what affects you in your own struggles and allows you come off so hard when in fact ,you care way to much .the hurt instilled inside you is to much to cope and understand and you struggle for some self realizations to guide you to being opened minded to understand .when or ever a need to talk ,you should contac me and maybe we can take this on personal level that is a choice on your own here .i know i asked for advice on my boyfriend .i love my man ,would do anything for him although i find myself at loss for words too .i am struggling in knowing who i am and where i came from and how much i can reveal to one i love and finding myself in a pickle here in life and relationships and not able to come clean ,in this matter it boggles my mind in knowing what to do .last resorts allowed me to ask for advice in a area i did not assume anyone could ever help or understand as i could not once again revel the truth in who i am in life .though the man that loves me has to understand he just has too believe i am not on your butt and do know i am as stubborn as a mule and to point of everything ,gets me in trouble ,many times i hope i never allowed you feel hurt by my own words as i hope i can face not feeling hurt by your words i just felt and saw something beyond your words you typed and it bothered me i am only assuming you might understand maybe i am only assuming i will know when you reply there are only a few of us left in this world that could understand the words i type here .maybe you are one of those few left ?

controlling behavior only means they react out of fear ,unable to trust another only themselves .The fear becomes a form of being a bully to get there point across or controlling someone as they learned from experienes not to trust anyone from their own inside hurt they carry around like a weight ,they actually care alot about people although their own wise words of truth ,comes off in hurtful manner that makes others feel weaken by the input of being to critical and demeaning another till points it becomes a sheild of pain instead loving wise words of advice towards another or one you love .they really want to be understood and find that ,it seems no one even comes close to really understanding whom they are inside them or through their wise advice they share with others and do not ever mean really hurt anyone and it depresses them to really know there words do sometimes hurt others and you know no other means in being blunt and speaking except just being yourself and hope ,you do not get misunderstood .although i see you must be living 2nd wind of your child hood on internet here in differences of age groups i noticed here ,really stepping backwards i feel .i do dearly hope you consider to in knowing that ,you struggle to be understood there very well may be others that struggle to be understood and not judged or blamed as mistakes do not get ,placed without a reason ,people shall not become a bully unless a reasons ,everything has its place and reason to understand and far ,not by one set of truths .

in fact i bet you lean more towards a controlling area that you like to lead people on by stating how things stated deeply hurt you although with that spoken you will offer statement saying that you are not so selfish in self that ,you will allow that to hurt you ,again smooth player there in this topic in why people feel the strong need to be critical and demeaning others to gain such high control of another. all the time playing that soft well all around liked guy that does no wrong and gotten feelings hurt and letting others do your wrongs you chose not to be seen in being so manipulating against any one no! surely not ,you are not that type of critical person are you .demeaning others is making own self look good ,powerful in control ,being critical towards a truth only one person has ,like telling someone ,they look fat or write wrong or think wrong or act wrong ,till they start feel bad and each day 2nd guess themselves ,till they are unable to even think for themselves ,then controlling freak tosses them away ,to find another challenge .once again i am sorry this topic was never about you anwiii .i was just curious why people felt the strong need to control another by critical remarks or hurtfull words of truth that only hurts another .

oh i ask for advice about something and i am punched by you ,replying t all my post afterward being your normal self ,that demeaning and down right cruel and critical in your cold heart statements at times .like i stated .before ,whom ever a woman in your own life ,you must to find fault with her and maybe you are pure critical with her too ,that blame and judge her cruelty and makes her weak and cry with your so called truths and wise words that you try to use on me and I do not appreciate or respect ,that controlling behavior towards me so please anwiii save it for your woman in your life ,i bet she takes it because she loves you ,that is way it starts .i do not mean be so sharp with y comments against you anwiii ,i am actually very happy person that loves plant life and nature and animals ,i just do not tolerate small minded people that lay heavy judgment down in demeaning women or men in this life .we all hold our own feelings and just as important as the next .when we ask for advice we take it in considerations to see any advice is helpful not to feel like we asked for something wrong or we are liars for even how we tried to communicate out in our way of words that do not fit your way of words .do not try make me feel uncomfortable in topics ,please save that for the woman in your life .maybe check see if this behavior i see in you and we never met ,by any chance same your woman may see if by any chance you have a woman .maybe i am wrong in assuming you do .although not wrong in my own assuming ,is she feeling shot down inside herself too in some ways that ,you labeled her wrong too .i see your age on here and see those that you befriend may i ask if you fell backwards in 2nd breath of your very own childhood ?

we all hold a true divine reason why we was born and destiny and journey to complete before out time comes to passing on this earth .it may seem like ,we do not actually know that purpose or true meaning ,although ,your life is heading in direction it was mean to be although we all fall astray from time to time ,its all clock work ,we soon find that right path we all are suppose to be traveling .

you anwiii are mean and cruel and demeaning of all women I've noticed and seem to be someone that has to have deep control of all issues and relationships and all people without the control you would be the type that becomes selfish and hatred and depressed until you proved yourself correct in all issues or held strong need for someone to hear you or at least understand you in some small manner .those you do not understand ,you shut out your life .those that hurt you ,you remove from life .you can not understand beyond your way of truth .where is your truth coming from that is clueless there ,as truth comes in many shapes and forms with all attached reasons and explanations only closed minded fools hold one truth in explaining anything that may took place in life .there is many books out there explaining everything after meeting you ,who needs books lets just ask you for your truth and then live by it as golden .you would think this ,was all written about you ,as that song sings i bet you think this song is about you about you .i have to say sorry .it was written about people controlling others and being so low minded in being demeaning and deeply critical of others ,I am dearly sorry you may had some guilt about this topic anwiii.