Amby

This contains adultish content. So dont read if you're a prude or 13 or something like that ehhh!So I'm talking to this internet friend person right.. Not really a friend, more like.. Someone who talks to me when hes bored, and vice versa.. Anyway..He is telling me how he has a date tonight. I'm like oh wow cool... Because when we were first talking he seemed heart broken by an ex girlfriend and whatnot.. So I thought it was really cool that he was going out again, even if he was just going to get boned. Anyway. Im like "Getchu some!" meaning.. Get you some nookie, some sex, some butt etc etc. Anyway. Hes like "Well I got some from her last weekend".. Im like OoOo go him! And he goes on to say "But I actually really like her.. Im not all about sex you know. Im not a sex monster".. Lol. Im like yeah right. Whateva! Then not even 5 minutes later he asks me "So whens the last time you got some..".. Not all about sex eh? *raises eyebrow*.Anyway. So I got offline for a while.. Came back on, messaged him again.. We are talking and what not.. He says something like "Ohh yay! one more hour till I can go home and get beautiful for my date!".. Right.. So.. Im like "Kewlll! What is she like".. So he proceeds to tell me what she is like.. Im like "If she hot?" Hes like "Not hot hot, kinda plain jane vibe" etc etc etc.So I was like.. "she was obviously hot enough to bone!" And he said "I didnt bone her, it was more than that.. It was sensual".. Im like LMFAO mmhmm SURE. Okay.. I'm like "Was last weekend your first date?".. He didnt answer, and I asked again.. Hes like "we havent had a date..".. Im like "huh I dont get it?".. Hes like "We met at a club, and went home together".. LMFAO!!!!!!!!! So.. He'd known her for a few hours, took her home, slept with her.. Yet it was more than just a bone? Give me a BREAK. I told him he was so much more naive than me, yet hes at least 5 years older than I.. He proceeded to attempt to insult me with some silly little comment.. Hehe."it was so amazing Ma. I think I want to marrry her. Shes sooo dreamy"Well I can promise him one thing. She just wants the nookie! He may think shes absolutely DREAMMMYYY but she just wants his peice.. Poor guy. Oh well. Guess he'll find out for himself LOL.LMFAO! Oh lord. Okay so hes mildly amusing, and entertaining.. But he sure is full of crapola.. LMFAO. I should have known from the moment he told me I was pretty that he was full of it.. LMFAO.Oh lord. Thats hilarious..

hehe it works now. maybe it was on my end.Amby

I won't take credit for writing such a thing.. I'm not that witty. However, I will brag by saying I am the friend of the witty master who wrote that piece. Ah yes, just being a friend to such a person is a wonderful thing.I think it is funny..I am religious though. I do believe in God. I am not Christian however.. I do not believe I need to sit on a wooden bench with a special name, listening to a man (a sinner) preach the words of a book who was written by men (who.. are what? thats right.. sinners).. I'm sure their intentions were good, but whos to say they did not distort the view of God to fit their needs? So. I choose to live by what I believe is right, not by what the hypocritical preacher believes.Anywho, thanks for all your replies, even the not so kind ones. Just one word of advice to those of you who chose to reply with anger in your hearts :: ligthen up. Amby

The Compuhost link - where it shows us our credits - isnt working. I was going to check it out, but it didn't work. Got the lycos page.Thought I'd let you know. Maybe its just on my end.Amby

Hi. My name is God. I created the universe according to my perfect plan. Don't ask why there are problems with it, because despite my omniscience, I can't be expected to forsee imminent disaster. In my amazing love for all of humanity, I selected a particular race of people as my favorite, and ordered them to wipe out surrounding races, burn their cities, and kill their children. Eventually, to fix that whole "sin" problem that I created, I had to sacrifice myself to myself so I would be allowed to change a rule I made myself. Once that was over, I set up a church here on Earth which does more harm than good, but at least they mean well. I suppose I could have planned the organization of the thing out a bit better, but I'm a busy God, and I just don't have enough time to make sure that my holy book isn't mysoginistic and my followers aren't racists. In a nutshell, you should believe in me because if you don't, I'll send you to hell to suffer for eternity. Did I mention I love you?Comments?

Im a huge procrastinator. I put every single thing off until the last possible second, if I dont have a deadline, it'll never get done. But.. Having deadlines and putting it off to the last second seems to make me work better, and harder. I work well under pressure. I always write my papers the night before/the morning of the day its due, and I always receive an A. I think I concentrate more when I know I have to turn it in that day or the next day. Whenever I know its a week or two away I get distracted really easy and my paper turns out like crap.Anywho.. Interesting topic I suppose.

2 - its really scary to me. although im sure boys would say 'ooohh thats DA BOMB!' or something lol.

also - its 10 credits I believe, not more than 3. Try to keep it up to like 15 or more. Just to be safe. Hope no one minds me responding.

Okay this morning my dad told me that I'd received 3 calls from 3 different houses in Tennessee - all my relatives. So I got worried thinking something may be wrong. Keep in mind that normally I would not call back. I do not speak with my mom or brother often, and I dont speak to anyone else in Tennessee who I'm related to at all. I called today at like 4:15 PM or so. A man answered the phone. Heres how the conversation went down. Him: Hello Me: Hello, whos this? Him: Brian, whos this? Me: Amber Him: Oh this must be the daughter. Me: Yes, whos this again? Him: Brian. Me: Brian who? Him: The Stranger Me: What? Him: Your mom pulled me out of a completely good vacation on South America to come here to cold *bottom* Tennessee to save her from herself. Me: Save her from herself? Him: Yes, her own worst enemy. Me: Ok anyway, I was worried because I had so many calls from everyone up there. Whats going on? Everything okay? Him: Yes its just about your graduation, do you know what time it is? Me: No, time isnt set yet. Him: Theres not a time yet? Me: No, not even a place, just a date. Him: Oh okay, well your mom and your brother are coming up there. Me: Oh, my brother is coming too? awesome. Him: Yeah I would come, but I need you to send me 1,000 dollars, *he laughs* Me: Oh okay I'll pull that out of my back pocket now. Him: Oh hush you knows its easy for women to get money, just a wiggle here and a bat your eye there. Me: Uh okay. (thinking to self :: *BLEEP*ing perv) then there was some convo, dont remember what. He said something about needing drugs and alcohol, I said.. Uh Okay. Just last month my mom was getting "married" to some guy in India, now she has some guy who was on vacation in South America at her house? Whos name, of all frikkin things, is Brian WIZARD. Oh by the way, hes a WRITER. It sounds to ME like my mom is on the prowl again, hunting for her next victim. Number 4, yes husband number 4. http://www.brianwizard.com/ Yes.. the guy even has a website, can you believe it. I think shes crazy, dont y'all? *sighs* Im stressed. *stuffs ice cream down throat* Amby

*gasp* it is working now! at first, it says 'sorry could not find <url>' or something.well okay, thanks. so sorry for the trouble LOL.Amby

the first is my favorite too. I dont like the others as much, but I didnt want to share just one. Thanks for the link. I'm checking it out now.Ambyedit:: i really love the first set, and number 5.. awesome stuff.

Wow thanks y'all I really appreciate the positive/contructive feedback. I havent written in so long, Is This Me is from *thinks* 3 years ago, and is this me is from 2 years ago I believe.. But they are my favorite poems that I've written, actually not really favorites.. More like the only ones I think are readable. LOL. All my others are extremely crappy. Ive explored many other avenues of art though. Pottery, painting, digital.. All for fun, nothing serious. Anywho, thats off topic.Thanks again for your kind words and such. I'll keep all your comments in mind next time I decide to write.Hugs,Amby

i think it looks great what kind of poems and stories are they? all kinds?Hugs,Amby

Just curious if this was a problem on my end or not. I have no clue how to check etc. http://forums.xisto.com/no_longer_exists/ is my url. i hope its not a bother asking y'all if the persons computer who uploaded everything to the FTP thing is down, would that effect it? Because the person who helps me - his site is down too, and he hasnt been online which isnt like him.. So I thought maybe that could be it. Thanks for help. Sorry for being a bother. Amby

I regret creating this post. Y'all need to calm down. This is a debate, on a forum, on the internet. Y'all are getting way to heated. Just let it go. You've all stated your opinions, dont beat it to death now.Each post here represents someones OPINION. Thats right, an opinion. At least accept it as that, and let it go. Dont let it get to you that someone disagrees.I dont know. I wish this would get closed now. Its getting out of hand I think.Hugs, everyone just stay calm.Amby

lol@Texas all the way. I actually dont like Texas :DAmby

Hey..Hobbies.. Hmm Well I have a few.. My biggest is being on my forum. Yes I consider it a hobby. Some consider it a chore, but I dont. I love my forum. Its a support forum. Anywho. Im not going to sit here and advertise. LOL.Hmm what else.. I paint.. Acrylics.. I suck at it a lot, but I still have a lot of fun with it. Ive painted a really huge froggy, with one eye bigger than the other (cute.. hehe).. Umm. A monkey LOL. A dove, a mouse, hmm *thinks*, and a few others not worth mentioning.. What else.. I write sometimes.. Poetry and such.. Not very good at that either, but its still fun.. I do some photo manipulation/digital graphics. Thats pretty fun too. Again.. I suck at it..Even though I really suck at all the artsy stuff, its a really good way to distract myself when I get pissed or something lol.Hmm what else.. Well I dont know if this is considered a hobby, but I listen to a lot of music. Mostly classic rock. Led Zeppelin, the Beatles, the Eagles, Pink Floyd, Queen, etc etc.Anywho. I think thats all. All I can think of anyway. Hugs,Amby

LOL I would buy one...However, I do agree with what the person said (three posts earlier, cant remember the name and too lazy to look back.) about there being restrictions here. I can understand not wanting people spamming up your forum, but.. I think its silly that a lot of my posts are deemed 'un-acceptable'.. I think it is because some of them are short, but.. I still say something meaningul/relevent to the post I think.. If I dont, then its usually always in the spam forum.Anywho. Im rambling on. Even though there are quite a few cons, the pros still outweigh in my mind. I like the people, and the service provided etc.Hugs,Amby

Thanks y'all. I really do repeat myself too much in my poetry. When I'm writing its hard for me to think. I think I concentrate too much and too hard and that makes it difficult for me to make it sound like it should. Anywho..As for the blood related topic.. Theres really no way to avoid it when talking about cutting and self-injury. LOL. Blood is sometimes what it all revolves around (for some.. its different depending on each person).. The sight of blood etc. I realize how it could freak someone out or make you think I'm a freak, but *shrugs* I cant control the way you or anyone else thinks.. lol. I can only tell you that I am not a freak.. Thanks for all your kind replies. I hope to read some of y'alls writing sometime (if you write that is).Hugs,Amby

*nods*.. I am over this whole situation. I've stood by my word, and I refuse to speak with any of the ones who did me wrong. Its ridiculous how they treat me like crap when an hour later come back and expect me to forgive them for being rude and mean.. Then when I refuse.. They go around and try to get pity from all our mutual friends.. Im like hey.. If you expect me to take his crap then you're just as bad as him, and I dont need that either..I dont know.. Im ranting again.. So maybe I'm not as over it as I though.. But I'll get over it. LOL. Eventually.Hugs,Amby

Oh wow! That really does sound a lot better.Im not the best writer in the world. I actually havent written in a long time. Both of those poems are probably over a year old.. I used to write quite a bit, all very crappy. Those two are just okay for me. I really enjoy reading the Is This Me poem because I think I managed to describe myself perfectly. Or describe my feelings rather. How I thought as a child, and looking back how silly those same thoughts seem now. The fact that life was care free etc.It was hard because I had to make the poem rhyme (it was one of the requirements when writing). And I absolutely hate having to make poems rhyme. It was terrible, but I think I managed. I remember getting a bad grade though, so it must not be that great of a poem. I enjoy it just because it is so personal I guess.The other one was written in a state of panic! I wont get into details but sitting down and taking the time to write it practically saved my life! I was losing it LOL.Anywho. Thanks bunchies for your replies. I do appreciate the comments, and the fact that you managed to be honest yet nice about it!Hugs,Amby

This first one is about self-injury. I wrote it when I was still struggling to stop.. Most of you probably wont understand, but maybe someone here will (and by that i mean.. maybe a self-injurer will run across it).. if so PM me. I'd like to talk to you. lol.A Cutters MindMy hands are shaking.In my left hand I hold a cigarette, and in my right I hold a razor.I lower the razor to the flesh of my leg with my trembling hand as I inhale a puff of smoke to calm my nerves.Blood flows down my leg hitting the white tiled floor below.My red blood against the white of the tiles would seem almost surreal to any other person, but to me it brings a sense of comfort.Beauty in my eyes.No one understands the mind of a cutter unless they themselves are a cutter. It brings a sense of relief to ones soul and to their mind. No it doesn?t last, but we do it again.It?s a deadly addiction if taken too far. For the time being it is my only escape from a world where no one cares.An attachment, an addiction.I?ve grown to love it, and will continue to love it until I?m handed another option worth grasping. This one was one I had to write for class. We were given an assignment to take a childhood photo of ourselves, and write a poem about it.. I'll have to edit this later and put the picture in it that I wrote it from..Is this me?Can this be me?This innocent child I see.Full of hopes, and dreams.Are you sure that?s me?So happy and cheery.So silly and free.That cant be me!Those big brown eyes.Such small hands and small feet.You have to agree that could never be me.A mind full of fairy tails of how great life will be.But little does she know what lifes true meaning will be.I know now that this child before me, and all her hopes and dreams, would soon create something.That something is me.Tell me what you think, even if you think they truely suck. LOL.hugs,Amby

Okay Im extremely upset at the moment.. I didnt want to post this on my own forum because it deals with some of the members and such, so I figured.. Why not come to my new found home and make them endure my rambled and jambled rants and raves. Cheers.Im reallllllllllllllly sick of people telling me to excuse other peoples behavior. Like.. If someone is a complete *bottom* to me, everyone is like. Oh Amby, you're being SOOOO immature, just get over it and make up with the person already.. So.. I'm supposed to be all happy go lucky when people are rude and tell me to shut up and yell, and scream and whine and moan.. I dont think soooooooooooooooo!I hate to take many beatings, and insults growing up. and I'll be DAMNED if I'm going to take that same crap over the internet. Give me a BREAK. I DONT THINK SO!. This is my life, and I dont deserve to be treated like a piece of crap. I dont deserve to be kicked around when someone else is having a bad day. Get over yourself, get off your high horse, and pull the stick our of your.. well we wont go there....Im done with taking peoples crap. Im done being the forgiving one, and the one who gives 20 chances. Im not going to let someone burn me over and over and over because it makes everyone elses lives easier. Im not asking anyone to hate anyone I dislike. I dont care if you like them or not. I dont go around telling people my personal business. I may rant about it, like right now. But am I giving names? Heck no. Thats my business. I dont want everyone in my business, knowing every bit of drama I come across. *sighs* i dont feel a bit better after all of this.I think we should all just go WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE all day. heheh Thats always fun.Huggles,Amby

To say you are not racist is like me saying I'm normal.. Its a baldfaced lie.. You have some sort of resentment against Mexicans.. I agree that there are some problems here in the US with illegal aliens taking jobs that legal citizens (this includes whites, hispanics, asians, indians, african americans etc) should have. I do believe that we have a big problem in America in that sense.. But for you to single out Mexicans as being the problem is .. RACIST.. Whether you want to admit it or not, it is.. There are plenty of people of ALL races in America who are here illegally.. Not just Mexicans.. I think that a lot of what you said is very true, but I also believe a lot of what you said needs to be rethought.. A lot of your feelings towards Mexicans needs to seriously be evaluated. Amby

I never thought I'd actually enjoy posting here. I thought it would be full of those very proper computer gurus.. I figured the whole forum would be nothing but computer talk, and for the most part it is! I try to stay away from that because I end up getting lost in what everyone is saying. Its frustrating..Anywho, off topic. I love the fact that the people are nice.. And.. I seriously neglected my forum the entire day yesterday. ENTIRE day.. Just posting away here. But.. the admin said my posts were un-acceptable.. Not sure really what to do about that.. I hope that I dont get in trouble.. I wish he'd explained it a little more in depth so I could improve my posting skills.Maybe I'm spammy. I've been told that in the past.. But Im not really sure I understand how.. I try to make my posts meaningful and are never a single word long.. LOL. At least a sentance or two.Anywho, we should definately organize a trapaholic club. LOL. the 12 step recovery process. LOL. Oh hell who needs recovery..Amby