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I disagree with you ,that can not fall in love with someone across the internet.Meeting someone online .Gives you a chance to understand and know the reality of that person beyond any attraction physically could offer ,allows you to ,see beyond the person ,deeply within their soul .The two sharing many deep areas within each other ,that no other can possible understand except two sharing that cherished times together .Allows you to grow within a deeper bond for each other .although have to admit that ,when you take it off the internet though and reality of each others lifestyles and introducing each other to those different lifestyles can create more than the two actually could of possible ever imagine in their life shared together .Although one could always go beyond all reality of coming together off the internet to truly understand their is stronger bond within each other to know ,there could never be anything this life could toss in your direction ,that together ,the two can not work through it .To become stronger sharing your lives together and each making the other a better person .I shall always hold a strong belief in falling in Love with someone not yet met and meeting each other online .When two people ,are drawn to each other ,some how you just know inside yourself ,you found that special partner that ,you been waiting for all your life .It becomes so magical to actually bring that feeling off the computer and allow it to flourish into fullest bloom your souls can ,join together as you both always knew it was meant to be between you two .There are many magical possibilities to everything in this World ,When you do believe and never lose that Touch,when you meet ,that special Partner .No matter How the two actually met in ones Life ,that brings them together .Love never has a particular direction it takes all the time and sometimes Love happens when least expects it to happen too and in most weirdest manners or environments .It holds a Journey all on it's own .We can never Plan its Journey as That would be very Foolish though .Love has strong magick and strong Belief that once Bonded it is a Love that never Dies or Loose its Touch .Sometimes though I do realize when two can find that Love and know its meant to be .Sometimes that Reality ,should be cherished off line and some people find ,They got off the internet although ,the other partner still ,online ,trying find that magick ,once held as Reality can be over whelming to bare .Although Love can be Found When Least expect it too .When Love finds you ,you will never want Lose it .

well past few months I spent time ,at the boats ,playing poker and I've actually won!never thought it addiction as always felt i was jinxed in gambling and everyone thought that about me too .although was told by special man ,that I brought good luck in cards ,didn't believe his words back then .although how foolish I was not to believe back then and tested my luck out in actually stepping forward and doing things .I've only sat back in shadows and watched most my life ,thinking I was bad luck .actually past few Times I've won ,it made me gloat for days and whole face light up in smiles .maybe I am just addicted in Believing in my own self .doing things I never felt I was good enough to even try it first before i put self down .does feel good though Winning

When I was lonely and sad ,feeling sorry and selfish for my self . I came face to face with the eyes of this dog that ,was filled with sadness ,that only wanted to be loved by someone .I came across a Dog that ,this person had for a long time ,that some how in their Life ,they could not have it as shared part of that family again .I was visiting one of the Local Animal Shelters during that day .This person paid the Shelter to take his Dog off his hands .The shelter charged him a small fee .The next time I visited this Shelter they was placing this same animal with a code on his tiny cage ,he now called a home ,that stated ,he was being placed to sleep in not those Words that code commented ,although that was what was taking place ,as no home ,wanted that dog ,as added member to their family and adoption fee was $100.00.As remembering back ,they charged original owner a fee of $25.00 to take this same dog in their shelter .as going back home and could not get those sad eyes ,out my thoughts .I went back to the Local shelter.Stood outside as the shelter was closed for lunch so waited .This car drove up with a family and as they sat in the car with their family pet ,they could no longer have ,waiting to pay the shelter to take that burden off their hands .Right there I knew in my own selfishness ,What I had to do and wanted so much to offer ,of my self to this dog and many more in my life .I took this dog home ,to my own small apartment and gave it a bath and made arrangements to get updated veterinarian check up's for the dog .it was black and white border collie that was so well behaved and trained ,he even brought me the newspaper ,I guess he was trained to bring newspaper ,when you sat down .smiling I then placed a dedication in Loving this Dog every day and placing a search out to find ,him a magical secured Home that he could open his heart up to the whole family and feel the love he so highly deserved ,being a part of a family .In my dedicated search ,came across many and set my mind upon this one family .When they came for this Dog .A young boy stepped out the blazer and when this boys eyes met the dogs eyes ,it was such precious moment that seemed they both have been searching for each other ,all their lives and finial found each other .it was breath taking to see in this life time .I started placing myself out there ,taking many animals home in finding them that special deserved home in past few months .I could not afford all the veterinarian attention some needed although found ,did not have search to far for warm big hearts that donated their wonderful amazing time for these special animals .so many veterinary offices and yes Walmarts seemed have warmest Hearts .over past few months I've re-homed close to thirty different animals ,from adult cats ,kitten ,dogs all sizes and shapes and Iguanas and even large Frog that seemed to make this special little girl face light up with smiles ,and make her dreams coming true to add as companion to the existing frog she already cherished in her life .I have received so many emails back with pictures and letting me know ,just how love and special these animals have brought to these families ,lives and how rich they are now .inside me I hold something shining and filled with so much Peace to know ,those eyes of those animals now sparkle with Magical Love ,they now feel Love .Something I learned about myself ,life is so selfish ,I fell into that depression and becoming each day so selfish in my own worries and hurts that I failed to actually remember what Life was about and who I really was ,and stood for in this World .was never being selfish and giving up ,just because life is a struggle sometimes .I could say the words I have pride in what I did although once again it sound selfish as I know ,pride has nothing do with it it's the love in me that I know will speak louder than anyone's selfish thoughts of me and all those mistakes I've done in this one life time I know who I am inside me and i am filled with lovenot selfishly taking life for me and me alone for my space or anything I may selfish think I need for ME When so much is out there that needs just be love to feel someone cares .I know what that is just to be loved !!!!!!!!not to be noticed Sometimes I hear those famous Words spoken to me ,words that tell me I am selfish and only want more YES I WANT MORE .I want more in Life that ,allows this world to see ,you take on a pet as young person or old ,know that pet ,comes with life time responsibility that ,never changes unless ,it changes within sharing your life together .it becomes a part of your life ,your family not for a few years or wait till it becomes 8 years old then want removed of that burden to get something different .it becomes for rest of their life shared with you .a gift of love that becomes part of you .so if that is selfish and me wanting more .I have to say yes I want more in this World .some how my small intentions in hopes I can bring some awareness in realizations that animals are Gift of Love that last a life Time ,as part your Family .Never give up believing .

Doing something happy in Life ,to me is most rewarding Life's experience anyone could possible have in their life .I have been diagnosed with Cancer and having been struggling with this for Longest Time in Treatments and Surgery .one the areas I've found out that has become big issue in anyone that struggles with cancer as big area in their own life is becoming selfish in how one can share or see their life and not wanting to be treated different than when you didn't have cancer .you just hold a strong need just to be your self and not dwell on living and coping with day to day cancer .as someone like me ,I always thought I knew many things ,in life and hard teach old dogs new tricks although how wrong I mislead my own self at times in how I choose not to listen to those that love me and shared my life with ,during times like this .although in my coping skills i searched for all these months .i placed myself in group therapy .then met many families during this time .my heart went out to each family .maybe it was a chance ,to stop thinking of my own problems ,maybe it was goodness of my own soul ,most of all I believe it was something magical that became very spiritual to me ,that these families ,taught me something about Life ,that even I failed to allow and share in my own self and Life .I was invited ,to some the families I held wonderful chance in meeting them during time they to struggled in coping with a loved one with cancer .even though being a part of their lives .I thought it was me bringing many magical moments to their lives at the time .as thinking back at wonderful moments shared ,so precious ,makes me smile and my eyes light up ,with just the thought of it all .to explain these precious moments may seem kind of silly although at the time ,I believe it was most inspirational coping for not just the families ,but me too.I was invited in these families homes ,we shared some funny moments ,I learned how to play barbies with a little Girl ,that has struggled with cancer and out look ,holds a dark adventure ,although during this Time ,it was precious to me ,as i was drawn to this little girl and her complete family ,how we shared ,our laughs and giggles and those precious moments of ,entertainment ,we could create .although families in there busy lifestyles some how struggling to keep ,everything within budget and keep everything going in right direction ,some how they forgotten how to cherish and create those special precious moments with a love one .in all in all ,knowing those precious moments ,to watch a mother ,toss her worries out the window for that day and crawl in floor with her daughter and play barbies ,and have imagination that only a mother and daughter could share during those times ,and allowing the daddy into a special creation of a tea party .as we each sat in this little girls small tiny chairs and drank our tea with ,greatest imagination anyone could ever hold and hear the laughter filter through out the entire room will always be a precious moment in our busy lives that was created just for the moment .after leaving that day and the most enjoyed times I shared being a part of this special family .I had precious time in my life that allowed me to see ,a bigger picture in my own self in how I limited ,those that love me ,from sharing ,my own struggles with cancer with them .to protect them from experiencing the pain and discomfort was actually wrong in me and same time ,I felt was protecting all I love from ,feeling what I was going through too .Over months of Winter here ,I spent my Time going to Hospitals of cancer ,floor and placing my matalic shiny red wig on and face of a clown and bringing as much happiness I could with each magical visit to those at Hospital and there families .as so many joined in this magical moments .it brought out something in all of us that will be inspirational to our lives forever .one day this person ,told me how much fun I was although,that I have brought mommies and daddies and families back together ,during a time like this with my magical wings and smiles ,filling the rooms and lives with peace and happiness. she wanted tell me ,I reminded her as a butterfly that with wings that flutter in and out a room ,leaving a smile on everyone's face and never allowing anyone to feel the sadness that is inside my own heart ,that has touched my soul from actually ,blooming to full potential .Letting my Breath out. as this person seemed ,flow inside my complete body and could see ,something I felt I buried deeply within my own self ,not to share that part of me .This special strong adorable Girl ,placed her hands on top of my hands and spoken words that ,everyone wanted to offer something back to me ,for me to allow ,others to love me back in return .all suddenly in hallways was filled with balloons and so many people ,it took my breath away ,just seeing all those I spent most my time in bringing so much happiness and closeness to bringing love ones together ,as I believed ,we need each other during times like this .Here everyone was ,telling me the same thing for my own self ,that even I so proud ,need my loved ones at time like this too.In life ,when you think you set out in helping and guiding others towards those Precious moments that last a life time ,some how ,you are never to old to Learn new things ,that Life has to offer .that day will touch my soul for rest of my life .Taught me many things ,that I cherish .Sharing this experience with everyone ,Hoping that no matter What life hands out for you ,to cope with and when times get so rough ,you want to give up or walk away ,as the weight feels as it's to heavy .You are never alone .When you always Believe and have Faith ,The weight seems to Lift and something very Alive and spiritual touches your complete being ,lifting all ,till it seems ,not so hard to cope with ,leaving you a peace within own self .never give up Believing .Life is filled with many Life's experiences .It is all worth the Fight . Never to young or old to Learn something New in Life's Experiences .

has anyone ever been to a Hockey game ? that is one my wishes to be a hockey game ,watch it first handed .it just excites me completely in watching a kick@#$ game .I followed mavericks ,closely and seem to one there fans that find themselves screaming and cheering them in my own living room ,although one my dreams is to be there ,live ,watching just one game ,I would be totally happy to experience that .sirota is the rookie leader in all central hockey at least through my eyes .He has achieved in leading mavericks for past two seasons and always stands his own .although find self pouting just a little as the team lost their third game last Saturday ,they played as if they held no energy ,or boost to actually play as they are known to perform .they was stomped by the river kings ,losing in big manner .that was a disappointment there ,watching that .besides I am from Missouri and there was no scoring 2nd period considering mavericks outstanding performance against the river kings .Missouri earned complete golden opportunity to get back in the game at the end of that period ,when river kings was pulled away for three complete straight penalties .where Missouri got that chance to pull themselves up .although sad to state ,they didn't hold their own at all ,through out the game .they are really lagging ,last few games .So does anyone follow Hockey?if so whats your favorite Team?Have you been to live Hockey game ?share details ,as I love hearing ,those areas I've not yet experienced my own self .

getting a animal to share your life is most precious gift anyone could ever ,have in ones own life .as to me it a gift of love .that never stops becoming a gift that becomes more precious and cherished ,through out the years of your life and all that becomes shared with others .they love attention and love to actually bloom to full potential in whom that precious dog ,is meant to be ,he will always be there ,by your side ,offering that magical love ,even when your life gets to busy to notice it .he is proud animal of beauty ,his pictures show .it is life time friendship.keep him close to you through out your own Journeys .

Who to state anything about the unknown in this world.that is exactly what it all is the unknown.we can state all we read and all we know inside of each of us that ,is taught to us by ourselves or someone in our life.what no one can do is state a truth of the unknown .as there is no truth in the unknown ,we in this world are still puzzled and learning over all areas considering the unknown in this world ,past present or future .we can offer many biblical inspirations to anyone in life ,How they just appear and inside our minds this is a puzzle of the unknown in leaving many questions how do it occur ,although we do not really question it as it must be so ,as it was God and life says it is true ,we was taught this too for many many years .although when someone speaks of different unknown ,how can anything of that sorts be consider true ,as you will get words that someone speaks of lies and deceptions and that someone is contradicting ones own self ,when dearly they are trying to explain ,something they experience and knowing it will sound far fetched ,although that person braves ,it to speak of it ,as he trust ,where he wishes to share this experience of the unknown .i clearly doubt his family would of shared this piece of information about there own child ,what to mess with his mind ,that just poor consideration on this persons part ,to ever disrespect ,stating that comment .now being raised from North Carolina ,and coming from long line of Generations ,as a child was taught ,many life's experiences ,you just kept ,quiet about many things ,as many will only be skeptical unless they held facts of anything and allow you to feel ,less than truth in anything you shared ,of those life's experiences .things just was kept sacred within Families.other wise to are confronted with episodes of what is happening now and could create such danger and harm to someone ,that where that unknown ,is exactly what it is unknown and holds a purpose in this persons life .Good or Badthere is a reason why it is there and attached to this person .so i can only offer ,benefit of doubt to this person that maybe what is spoken is actually holding some truth to his own experiences and making it differcult in finding correct words to explain it and feel comfortable doing it without feeling foolish or fear that it may become harming ,when allowing others understand or this unknown be known to others .as for me i actually do not believe in anything being called demon or hold anything inside me that may connect anything i understand as form of a demon .that is just me though ,as do not place any disrespect towards anyone on how they actually believe or was taught to believe .sometimes areas of the unknown ,attaches to human host within this world ,not for becoming anything of evil intentions at all ,although there becomes a purpose why it is attached through out life and starts this attachment at very young age .only wishing to be known within that family and not through out life towards others .although allowing it to be known out in life can create something more than one person can ever believe actually could transpire as anything of being true .try understanding ,what was told to you ,as your parents ,how lightly could they just take what happen to you as a child and just mark it down as oh no not again and did not even consider any cross roads ever understanding what is taking place ,with their own child all those years ,that as a family wittiness it .as your family is ones that sat you down and explained what they knew ,that experienced within your life .you took that news flash and ran with it ,without considering all options of what your family just unloaded on you .Think within own self and come up with actually life's experiences ,you know yourself and then seek out someone that holds a better understanding ,in guiding you ,to actually in helping you ,as you state you do not wish ,things go away ,seek someone to understand what is taking place and reason that you hold this strong attachment close to you and not wish it to separate from you and your life .you could be holding this within you ,through out your own Life ,your own self .Believing in one self ,does release such areas of the unknown from your Life ,as you set many things in their own place .you find you do not need absorb this form attachment as you hold right now .