QOD

I don't think I understood what I was saying when I wrote it.

I asked, earlier, about a gfx program that wasn't too simple or too complicated. I tried downloading the photoshop CS2 trial but for some reason my computer won't open it. I'm wondering if this computer ( it's not actually mine) already has a gfx program installed on it. I don't think it does. There is something called photo impression 5 but I think it's for the scanner. Are there any other free programs I can download?

I cannot say what I feel, if i feel anything at all. I yearn for my self, for the comfort of certainty, the certainty of understanding. Undying, unfufilled desire- where is the novacaine? This will be the last time I indulge in the transient, mind-numbing isolation you, so generously, offer in exchange for my soul. Anything to deny sensation. I am weak. I am that which i loath. I am my own parasite. I live to destroy myself, determined to suffer, I endure self-hatred and the emptiness of denial because I feed on the pain. I felt something today. A grotesque convergence of anger and frustration that made me want to gorge and vomit. I imagine thrusting a kitchen knife through my gut, dragging down, over and up so my intestines spill out onto the carpet. I hate my stomach because it is too weak to handle the tsunami of emotion I experience when I refuse to dam(n) my truth with a crutch. I cried instead.

I think I'll try photoshop CS, right now I'm testing my no graphic sig... I'm not sure what the font looks like.

Is there a free graphic arts program I can start with (not too simple yet no too complicated)?

I wrote this when I was 14 and I still remember it. I spun this web and set it up so it would set me free It wasn't long before I found this web was spinning meUp, down and all aroundIt's out of my controlNow I'm trapped inside this web I've woven in my soul.I suppose it could use some revision but I like to stick with the original text.

Call me niave but I won't know if i don't ask, what is the difference between creating a website ( like envy.com ) and blogging. I saw something about blogging on the news and I don't think I understand what it is all about.

I'm a sucker for comedy. I love SNL, the Daily Show, Whose Line Is It Anyway, Southpark, Family Guy etc. Just about anything on Comedy Central does it for me. Adult Swim is awsome as are the learning channels.

Wow! It's amazing how many posts this topic recieved compared to the other topics. A lot of times people ask this question so they can tell you what they think and they get annoyed when you don't ask them back. To me this just proves how willing we are to talk about our religious beliefs.Why are we so gaurded against listening to the beliefs of others? Is it because they threaten the structure of our own beliefs and the stability we rely on to continue existing in the realm of the unknown. Nothing is certain. Religion is a human attempt to make sense of something that we are unable to comprehend. Most of you didn't bother going into your own beliefs, probably for the same reason I won't bother getting into mine - I appreciate it.

Yep, nobody cares. That's life. We all deal with it and I tell you anyway because that's the topic. QOD means Queen of Darkness. The nickname came to me the summer before I entered highschool and it's stuck ever since. I like art, any art, there are many arts. I like many things. The end.

HaHa! I had Jagged Little Pill too, I think It was the third CD I'd ever bought. The first cassette was Debbie Gibson and the first CDs were No Doubt (Tragic Kingdom) and 311 (The one with "Down").