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Yes I have thought about starting something agaist this dr. the specialist could not believe that with her symptoms her doc did not catch on sooner that somethign was seriously wrong. But it is not my place to do this. I am 36 with my own family and this i my mom and step dads choice to persue and actions and as of right now they are against it. they are instead using there time to find something or someway to help my mom live a little longer. which i can understand. but it sure makes you have a low oh what is the word i am looking for it sure makes you want to not believe in drs. is what i am trying to say. And yes i do need to clear my mind. i just dont knwo how. like i said this is the biggest obstacle life has ever givine me and the hardest. I am just completely lost I have never felt like this in my life. and I have been through alot and thought this many times. but never like this. Thank you for you reply and kind words i really do appreciate it. =)

wow i have to admit the headline caught my attention, Have sex win a refrigerator. But wow i was in shock when i read. That is to funny, I cant believe that a goverment would actually do that. I hope our country would never do somthing like that. I mean sure it would be nice to win smething for hving sex but that is just wrong... rotflmao

I bought my husband a psp about a month and a half ago, he is a truck drive so hes not home much, he LOVES it. He has had no problem finding games or movies for it. I think i paid about 275.00US for the psp the 30 dollar started kit with everything. and two games and it came with a game and a movie. now like i said he is a truckdriver so this thing gets banged and bumped around and he has had no problems with it at all,he can acces the internet from it anywhere he stops for the night. so we have nothing but good things to say about it here..

First of all I am not looking for pity or anyone to feel sorry for me, I am hopiing to find someone that maybe has gone through something similiar and can be someone i can talk to and find out how they made it through this. My family has gone through alot the past few years we have had many deaths in our family and now recently i find my self with the biggest obsticale to evercome. We have lost about 5 family members in about 2 in a half years, The last being my grandma my mom's mom last year dec 23. My mom has taken this so hard the rest of us have also, but my mom the worst. Since my grandma has passed my mom has not been doing good. she has had no appetite and lost alot of weight, I guess that can be kinda normal i dont know. But then in april a little over 4 months since my grandma passed, she started getting other symptoms not eating at all constantly not being healty she got pnumonia in april had a few tests done at her docs, they said no big deal gave her antibiotics and sent her on her way. Well she got a little better and time passed well june she gets sick again the doc says no big deal sends her on her way, mind you shes still not eating much at all has lost about 75 lbs since dec and her doc says no big deal! well in september she got real real sick went to her doc again by now she had lost 100 lbs she did weigh about 230 b4 all this started now she weighs 114 lbs. so anyway september her doc decides something is wrong they do some testing and xrays and tell her she has a spot on her lung and it is nothing to worry about giver her antibiotics and send her home. mid october she is vry ill, cannot breath well at all is not getting better and goes back to the doc theydecide to run more tests and set her up for a mri to find out more about the spot on her lung. Tests come back not cancer, In the mean time her husband my stepfather has realized something is not right here, so right after her last appointment they set one up for a specialist. they do an mri and x-rays and say yes its definately cancer. they then proceed to want to do a byopsy. she has this done we have to wait a week for results to find out that they did not go deep enough to find out anything. so they want to do somethign called a pet scan which from what i undestand they give you something eiter orally or in an iv to make the cancer show up in this scan. and then anoher byopsy the day after. well this is november 16th now that she has these tests done, and then the specialists call her the day b4 thanksgiving and says that she has this cancer all through out her, her lungs (both) her spine her throat and her lymphnoads (unsure how to spell) and that it is uncurable and she has 2 months to live 7 max if she does chemo. Now I am just in shock I have not slept more them 3 hrs at a time since mid oct. when this all got serious. I dont know what to do with my self I dont know how to feel, i just burst out crying for no reason my family is suffering for what i am going through. I went to my mothers house for thanksgiving i cried all the way there thinking this will be my last thankgiving with her. I tried to act normal when i was there, i knew i just couldnt look at my mom and start crying. I just dont know how mych longer i can do this. i knwo it cant get any easier but can it really get any worse? Christmas is coming up and im jsut not in the mood, i have 4 kids, i feel horrible that they have to see me like this. and that i dont look forward to this holiday. please is there someone else out there that has gone through something similiar that can help me out, or give me some advice good or bad. i just dont knwo where to go or do with myself. thanks for your time in reading i knwo it was a long one sorry.

Hi everyone, My name is Alison sn is Krazygoddes. I have previosly hosted my own website b4, and just was tired of paying for no ads so i began a search with yahoo, on free webhosting. I came accross a few sites that said they were free and went through all the trouble and pages of signing up and get to the last page and then there it is they want cc information to activate your account... hmmm that doesnt sound free to me. So i kept searching, and i found trap 17 now i have been doing nothing but reading for about 2 hrs now since i signed up, and it is just alot to read, I am still lost a little and am kinda afraid to ask for help after reading some posts from members calling people ignorant if they cant figure out or read enough. I mean come on like i said i have been reading for about 2 hrs now. I feel it is a little difficult to try to search for answers and a little discouraging reading about all the accounts that got banned or deleted on accident or by mistake. But i did someting i probably shouldnt have and that was posted my discouragement (nothng bad i mind ya) in the chat box. And a moderator was kind enough to take the time to ask me what was wrong so i explained and that person answered a few questions for me and asked me to give Xisto another try, So i am still here trying to hang in there. I think iam getting the hang of it and trying not to be discouraged by posts i read calling people ignorant, but i have to say i dont think thats cool! So as of now im gonna keep reading and hopefully become a part of this community. I didnt mean any disrespect in what i have said. I just have never seen anything like this b4. I think its a great idea and a great place to make friends and meet new people. I just think it should maybe be a little easier to find stuff and help topics, I think i have it figured out now. But it is a little overwhelming at first and i think that other mmbers need to understand that and be a little more considerate. And tyvm to the moderator that was so kind to me and asked me to give a second chance.

Hi Everyone, I am new here and trying to figure everything out, and reading that post has kind of scared me, Now i dont know it I wat to stay, This seems like a great program to have and ise, But i dont know if I could handle going through all the work of seeting up my site just to loose it? does this happen alot? Or is this something i should not worry about? Please I am hopeing someone will respond to my post b4 i go much further. Hope you all had a great Holiday!! Krazy