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Thanks. I got the email.

I have been waiting for a couple of days now. I still get the same message. That's why I posted here.

I have the email, and I looked it over again. I think now that it is still waiting to be processed--or at least that's what something said in the email.

I actually have two that really have changed/inspired me. A Child Called "It" - Dave Pelzer The Paths we Choose - Sully Erna For some reason, I can relate to them, especially A Child Called It. Another good one would have to be the autobiography of Ric Flair--I forgot the title of it though. They all have a great deal of meaning to them, and I enjoyed reading them.

I have a hosting question for those who can answer. Well, my hosting account still says that it is pending. How long do I have to wait, and how many posts do I need before it becomes active? I am not sure about it, so I thought I would post here--if this is the wrong section, then I really did not know where else to put it.

Do any of you believe in demons? How about demonic possession? I am not sure if I was allowed to post this up here, but I wanted to know. Are they real in your eyes, or have you had any experiences with them? From what I have heard, demons will usually target someone with either a weak mindset, or someone that has triggered a demon to want to target them. Is any of this true? And which/how many religions are qualified to deal with this?What if someone were to actually volunteer to become a target for the demon? Would a demon choose a person more likely to do something like that? What about dream demons? Do they exist or are they only a part of the mind when you sleep?Just a lot of random questions, I guess. So feel free to answer them if you want!

I have read many things at times in my dreams. But usually when I dream, it is usually someone speaking instead of actual signs (advertisements and the like), and there are very symbolic things that often appear. I can understand them for the most part, and piece them together, but sometimes I forget the moment that I wake up.My dreams usually have a lot of shadows, wolves, and wild situations. Fire has always been frequent to appear as well, and it always seems that I am on some sort of journey.

I for one believe in Magick. But one thing that one must remember if a practicioner, is intent. What is intended by casting or using Magick? Is it for a good or healing cause, or something dark and destructive? From the Wiccan Rede: Eight words the wiccan rede fullfil, "an it harm none, do what ye will." I cannot say that I have actually used Magick before, and since I am in the learning process, I wouldn't do it until I knew what I was doing. Magick is something that one can learn from, but it takes time, as does most things in life. Anyone that would use Magick to harm another is not powerful at all! Life is a precious thing. One should not want to destroy or harm it in any way, shape or form. I guess that is my opinion.

That's cool that you've practiced it. The only real physical sport that I used to do was Wrestling, and things that came a long with it. Do you do much wrestling in Ninjutsu, or is it totally different? From what I know, most Martial arts will use some form of wrestling, or grappling techniques--I just don't know to much about them.

I have looked through a few books, but I haven't had the chance to talk to my friend yet. I don't think she plans on bringing the dog back over my house for a while--maybe because people have already began to complain about it. I don't know.

I have read part of the book, but I have yet to see the movie. From what I heard it was a great movie, but some people I know did not seem to care much for it at all. But I think the book is a great read!

Out of the choices given, I think I like Action movies the most. But Sci-fi does come close!My favorite action movie (if you could call it that) is The Scorpion King. Things about Egypt are very much on my top favorites list! But, Blood and Chocolate comes second, and I guess you could say that it is considered Sci-fi--Dog Soldiers is my next pick out of that one!

Interesting. It seems like it would be fun to play!I think that I'll probably check look into it more later on, as so I think that I am interested in. From the screen shots, I think it would be a game worth playing.Nice one.

Thank you. I guess I shouldn't focus everything I do around that, and try my hand at being something other than depressed. I was actually in the process of writing a play based around my life, but I don't know how well it would turn out. I've given the play the title, The Life Eraser, and I have actually finished a poem around it too. Thanks for responding to my post. I hope that I can learn to get on with my life sooner or later.

Well, I saw that the movie was coming out and thought that I would bring this up in a topic. So, how many of you have actually read this book (series, if I am not mistaken)? I have yet to read it, but from what I heard it sounds interesting.What exactly is it about? Yeah, I know that there are vampires and the like in it, but is it worth reading? Should I get the book, or wait until the movie comes out to watch it? Some people that I know said that they liked it, and it was a good read. But I don't know.I haven't been reading a whole lot of other books lately, besides ones on spirituality, so I want to know if this is a good one, by any chance?

Thanks. I won't buy it just yet, I think I'll just continue with Photoshop for a while. I have heard that Manga Studio is already going out into a 4.0 version, so I will wait to see what it offers before thinking about getting it. It seems like a great program though, and hopefully Anime Studio is the same way.

Thanks for the information. I think I am learning a lot from this topic!I actually have a book on Wicca that I am reading right now, called, "Progressive Witchcraft." The authors of the book are Janet Farrar and Gavin Bone--they bring up a lot of interesting information in the book, and I am trying to learn what I can from reading through it.For a BOS, I think I am just going to start with something small--like a notebook, and then once I have a good knowledge and understanding about what I have written, I will probably get a real one or something rather. I have been checking out the various online sites about Wicca, and I think that I would like to learn more about Tarot Cards (or some other divination form). There is a Tarot Card reader's shop on my way to school, but I am not sure if I want to check it out or not (I am not sure about doing that at all). Should I wait until I can find a reliable source, rather than just visit a shop like this? What would be the best idea?Someone I know had said that she was going to be initiated into a family coven, and I have tried to learn a few things from her--she is just learning as well, but still knows somethings about the subject. I wanted to find out more information about local Covens in the Ohio area, but so far I don't know what I should do. Maybe I am just worried or something? I don't know.

Ok, so here's my stress put in words. I am sorry if any of this offends anyone, but it is a fact that is hard for me to live with on a daily basis. I don't quite know what to say anymore, as this was past, and today is current. But even so as it is the past, I still feel very depressed over this subject. My family life from a very young age was never one that someone would wish for, and even though I lived in that sort of structure, it never for once felt like a real family. Deep down, I truly hate my biological family for all of the problems that they've caused me and I don't think that I could forgive them at all for this. I just wished things were different, and that nothing like this had ever happened to me. Abuse, and the like is something no one should have to endure--no matter who you are. I've dealt with many kinds of it, and for some reason I still wonder why I am here? I try to put it all behind me, and so far it does not help. It is like a silent killer, and even as I try to fight the pain, I have been suffering from it for the longest time. Deep down, I hate my father. And deep down, I still wonder what he is doing at this very moment. He hurt me badly, and since I was the oldest child, I usually got everything thrown back at me. Was it just tough love? No, that wasn't it. I really believe that he hated me for everything that I stood for, and when I was younger I really wished I could have been loved. But I suppose that there is no use in thinking about something like this, eh? I should just throw it all away and be the normal person that everyone wants me to be--not the crazy, and mixed up me. I just wish all of this could have been prevented further, and I actually had a real chance to be happy. My adopted family thinks that I am happy, but that is not true, and they wonder why I want to be left alone all of the time? Well, okay. So this is more of a journal entry than a "vent," but I suppose that's what this forum's here for, right? Am I still living in the past, or am I just putting myself into a distant world full of darkness and monsters? I don't know. Heck, I have even tried to put my life story into the form of a play, which I based it off of the poem that I wrote--someone said it should be on Lifetime or something like that. But, oh well. I guess that's it for now.

Thanks for letting me know. It is just an interest of mine, and don't think that I would actually want to practice something like this--just learning about it is enough for me. I like the idea of spiritual development with martial arts, but I think I will only keep it as an interest. But I do have a question about it: would someone consider this to be a superior martial art, to all others, or is it just along the same lines of any other martial art? I mean, if Ninjutsu is a martial art, how well does it compare with every other one?

My favorite anime series would be as followed:Wolf's RainHellsingYu-gi-ohNarutoDeath NoteInuyashaBeybladeBakuganDragon Ball ZWolf's Rain is my favorite, but Hellsing, Naruto and Yu-gi-oh come close to the top. I really don't watch DBZ anymore, and since Beyblade is no longer on, I don't really follow them anymore. That's my list so far.Too bad they really don't have a Manga for Wolf's Rain--I think that would be interesting as a read. Naruto is an excellent Manga, and so is Yu-gi-oh.

SMF and Phpbb are two very good ones. They are both free to download, and are quite nice to use. They both have support sites, and excellent moddings sites too. But if you are looking for a paid forum, then Vbulletin or IPB are great choices. Most people that I have seen with hosted forums use IPB 1.3, and it is a good choice for starters--it is the same software that is used for Invision Free, and I think IPBfree. You can customize it a lot with out worrying too much about it--and there are many skins and mods for it as well.Hopefully that helps some.

You all made some good points. I'll probably talk to my friend about her dog, and see if she could take it to the vet to get it looked over. I guess the dog is a bit too protective, and since we have tried to calm it down, it hasn't really changed much. The vet might be a better choice in dealing with the dog, so I will most likely check with her about it--the dog has serious mood swings. I think that it's behavior has something to do with it being a terrier. I am not too sure though, but the dog seems to have some people worried--especially the younger kids that I know. Yorkshire terriers from what I know are supposed to be protective, but I don't think they are supposed to be that protective. I don't know. Thanks for the suggestions.

I really enjoy both Manga and Anime. I would probably have to say Manga though as a choice, because the art and effort that they put into each page is amazing. While western comics aren't as interesting to me as Manga, I love to look at the art work and detail that goes into every page.Anime is awesome though, and the animations are very cool. I think the voice actors add more of a punch to the story though, as you can only imagine what the character's voices sound like in Manga.I would like to end up doing a web comic, or an online anime series one day, so both really are fine in my book. Both Anime and Manga require skill though, and as such they have picked up my interest quickly.

How does one actually prepare themselves to meditate? If someone were to, say, have racing thoughts or something along that like, how could they overcome it? I realize that something like this must take a lot of effort, but is there any good advice for beginners? Ok, this might be a weird question, but here goes: is there something involving chanting or repeating certain words, over and over again? Is meditation complete silence? Focusing on something for a period of time seems difficult for me, and I was also wondering what the best method was in order to gain true focus? If anyone has any suggestions on this, then please post them! I am serious about learning this sort of thing, so any advice would be helpful. Thanks.

Ah, ok. Thanks for clearing that up! It seems like a real interesting subject, and so I might have to do a bit more research on it. Too bad that those Naruto techniques weren't real. But anyways, thanks for the link!