want_a_new_life

Did you avoid contact with her or she with you? I tend to feel ignored but I can take things personaly in my state currently. I dont know if she is expecting me to fight and prove my love for her or give her space and have no contact. I want her to miss me and realize what she is willing to give up. As the days pass i start to feel more and more like a used puppet and she is my master... the worst thing is that she knows she has control over me. Im whipped and we are not even together...

I feel for you and your situation. Waiting for someone to make up their mind or figure things out will tear you apart inside and out. I am having similar issues myself.. I'm tired of people saying it takes time! What or who is this "time" and why do they never show there face around me... You sound very strong and i'm sure you will pull through.

About a month ago my girlfriend / best friend of nearly 7 years started acting really secretive and started doubting my fidelity. (I wasn't / never did cheat.. had two more payments on an engagement ring). One night after she came home late we had a huge not so sober agruement where I was told she was staying out late with "people" to vent and she was not happy.... she said she had been seeing someone so i kicked her out of my house... She came back the next morning to get some clothes... i told her she had 7 days get remove her furniture and she agreed. She now lives with her brother whom I am very close to... Her brother told me something that I believe to be true; that she was depressed that shes 28 and has nothing to show for herself, no college degree, terrible job, no money... her unhappiness was with herself but I was an easier target to blame. As much as i try not to talk to her we end up hanging out from time to time... She is my best friend.. hard to erase everything at once.. Her phone rings the entire time. I hurts me so much to be around her but even more to be away from her... I am still crushed from all of this... I havent slept more than 3 hours straight and have lost more than 30lbs. I am depressed but try to keep up appearances. I am rambling... ok.. here is my issue... She says she has moved on. Doesn't live with me anymore. yet her mailing address has not changed and all of her furniture, clothes, pictures, everything is still at my house. So she gets a fresh clean slate and i get constant reminders when i can't eat or sleep. I want to work things out with her because I think she is the one for me... No one's smile has lifted my heart and no one's eyes have seem my soul like hers. I know that time heals all wounds but from my current situation time really means an eternity. I am forced to sit alone in my home and wonder if she is just taking some time apart to sort herself out. Her leaving everything she owns at my house has got me so confused.