Sorry to about your family situation,
The only thing that I can suggest you is to pray everytime you wake up - even more if you have any type of odd dreams and during your pray, ask to see a light on your way and if it is a sign, ask in your pray to find out how you can avoid it to happen.
When you believe on this positive energy that is God, his angels interfer on the way and bring a sign to your life that the only person to fell and understand the msg is you.
However, not many people have the same believe on this positive energy that is God, but if at any stage of your life, you doubted that, look at the sunset or sunrise and 'ask' him to show you a sign of his existence (please don't tell me that you just believe in what you can touch), and belive, you will be able to see clearly signs in your life, but of course it will be up to you to 'transcript' his msg... and most of the time, even before you finish your pray, you will have the biggest sign that you ever imagine, which is; the sunset/sunrise that you are calling his name.
Peace out and send you all my best wishes.
C.E