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zamaliphe: lol! I see! Yes, you and I are kind of the same, yet not. I would revise before an exam Just to get the good grades and to satisfy me... But anyway, thanks a lot for your imput!roo.t: I don't believe in organised chaos... It has to be tidy... or I make it. Personal life... I think my personal life is already messy... and that's probably why I want everything perfect? velma: lol! Ah I see... I guess that's cool.. XD Thanks for your imput also. imbibe: lol! Yeah, it's good to keep things the same and to have just a pinch of normality in your life...Anyway, thanks for all your comments and for reading my long... essay? Your comments show I'm not the only one... of which I can breathe a sigh of relief

Something on a program made me think of this topic? I guess I always knew I was a perfectionist, but the program made me realise? well how much.So are you a perfectionist?Me? My friends say I?m a perfectionist, and I think I am.It?s about multiple things, but for me, I?ve got a couple of reasons?So for the first example, it?s my bedroom. It?s basically all in order, nothing is askew. Every book has its place, and they?re all in order if it?s a series. My DVD?s are in order, and so are my CD?s. My clothes in the wardrobe are in their own places. You can pinpoint the trousers there, and the t-shirts here. I fold my socks up? Or does everyone do that? If there?s any mess, I have to tidy up. Just because I?ll find it hard to find something if it?s in a mess. It?s really frustrating if you need to be somewhere, you?re late, and you can?t find something you?re after. So I just keep everything in order.That might not be so bad? but, then there?s the computer. My music is sorted into the correct folders, with the correct information on every track. All my computer stuff is in icons, and the font I always use is size 10. My word documents are in a folder, in a folder. Same with my pictures. If there?s stuff that doesn?t have a folder, I have to put it in one, otherwise it?s messy?. Then on the internet, I always have to delete my emails in my inbox because keeping stacks of them is untidy? I always thought that was just me? but come to think of it? I have my bookmarks in folders as well? Then in facebook, you know where everyone just adds millions of applications so it clutters up their page? Yeah me? I only have one row of applications, and not even that. Then about work, school or homework? My school work and homework have to be? well close to perfect. I want good grades, and a good score. If I do an exam, and I?m one mark away from an A, and that if I answered one more question right, I could have got that A, I would be? well, disappointed, sad, and? kind of beating myself up about it.. Kicking myself. Of course, as the day goes by, I know I can?t change that fact, so I just drop those emotions and go back to my proper self. I?m not the type of person to ask people?s scores and if I?ve got higher than them, I?ll be getting a boost on my ego. I don?t do that? I personally don?t care about someone?s scores, as long as mine are ok. But if I write something in lessons and I go over it, and it looks messy, when in reality, I guess it isn?t, I have to rip the page out and write it again. Maybe, reading the above, you won?t think I?m a perfectionist? but do any of you keep your lockers tidy, and the books in the right order of size?I also keep my bag tidy, in order of books ect.If a thing is out of place? like a sheet on a table isn?t aligned correctly, I have to align it correctly to satisfy me.. otherwise it?ll keep on bugging me, and I?ll do it anyway?. in the end.I also have to make sure everything is in the correct place, aligned correctly by mentally going over them in my head, and making sure it?s? well, in its proper place really?I think that?s about it? I?m not a perfectionist in terms of cleaning, and well, if something is dirty, I don?t have the impulse to clean it? just if something is not aligned correctly, or not in its proper place. My standards in a person is not high. I only judge a person?s heart and personality. If they?ve got a good heart and isn?t plastic or fake, then they?re alright.I forgot this bit: I disapprove of chat speaking, and text speaking. I guess everyone?s like that? but I also disapprove if the right punctuation isn?t used, like a comma or an apostrophe is missed out. If someone forgets the capital letter at the beginning of a sentence, that gets on my nerves as well? and when people go me and my friend, when it?s meant to be my friend and I, and when people go I done that, when it?s I did that? That gets on my nerves.I shake my head and frown at a lot of things?. Nearly all of them annoy me and tick me off?I?ve only started noticing it now? how long I?ve been straightening things when they don?t really need to be straightened? Hmm? Around? 3 years? Since I was 11... And I started secondary school. In primary school, I didn?t think I did it? although my tray was always tidy compared to everyone else?s. Or maybe it?s been happening all my life and I just didn?t notice? *shrugs*But yeah, is this .. Well? not a healthy way to live? Can you be ?too? organised? Will this turn into anything? well bigger? Am I born with it? Or was I just? well environmentally affected? ? Or simply, I?m a freak? Environmentally affected.. I?m wondering about that. My mother is the person to blame if this is true. She hates mess, and has to clean the house from top to bottom, wiping the floors, and the windows, basically everything so there isn?t any? mess? She wants us to keep tidy rooms, any rubbish and it has to be thrown out. The computer, is entirely mine? but my grades and school work? that?s my mum wanting me to do well in school? I don?t think my mother is a perfectionist. She just wants to keep a clean house. It?s not that tidy at her work place to be honest and she only wants the best of me?. I?m confused?.Anyway, are you a perfectionist? Do you think you are? Or are you far from it? I guessed being a perfectionist? is like? a kind of addiction?For better or worse, you tell me.

Yeah... Well she says stuff about it that's ... well full of rubbish to be honest. It is annoying... Maybe... I don't think the world revolves around the opposite gender though. There are many things that will make you happy. Aww, thanks! I try to be an individual... O.o That must have been tough. That is... it's wrong how parents think, because they gave birth to you, they're allowed to control you and who you meet. Yes, my mother is kind of the same. She blows hot and cold, hot and cold, and sometimes it's really annoying... I came up with another one... whilst browsing. You know people with Myspace, Facebook, Bebo, MSN, that kind of stuff? Those who add about one hundred people just because they want to show they're popular and not a loner. Those are the people who are scared about who they really are, the people who are afraid to be alone. I don't see why you should fill up your page with junk, when you don't even know a bit about the person.. It's just... pointless.

There are a lot of things that piss me off... The difference is whether they piss me off, or whether they just annoy me a little bit... Whether that is a difference or not... Anyway, what pisses me off, recently anyway, is my sister...She's younger than me by a year, but she treats me as if I'm stupid and... well, dumb basically. She's really condescending, patronizing, it's just... it pisses me right off..The other is my mother. I love her and all, but she really pisses me off. I seem to never satisfy her, because she's always picking up my bad faults. She has to check up on me, in case I'm doing anything wrong. Then, she also says lots of rubbish like, if you never find a man, you can never be happy, I mean, what the hell? People who use chat speak or text speak on the computer. I mean, you don't do it in real life, so why do it here? Just because they're lazy to actually type the whole word. I mean, if you can't type fast enough, learn. If you're too lazy, don't bother at all.Another thing, people both on the internet and personally, people who crave attention because they're scared to find out what it's like to be alone. I mean, they always have to be the centre of attention. If someone's stealing their thunder, they ... well, they're up themselves basically. I mean, they think they're so cool, when they're going to be the ones working on the streets.People in school, when they think it's alright to strut around the school as if they own the place. People who laugh at you because of your own individuality. They look down on you if you don't wear make-up or roll your skirt up so it practically shows your butt.People who also think that they cannot possibly live if they don't have any contact with the opposite gender, I mean, what the hell?Oh, another thing. When people always want to beat you at something. They keep asking for your exam or test score. If they've got higher than you, they're all smug, because they've reached the "top"People who don't appreciate good talent, and who think, playing the piano is geeky and dorky. *sigh* A lot of things piss me off, and it's mainly about people...Oh, also, when people are prejudiced, whether it's your race, or your actions, or your intelligence. When they just label you off immediately without knowing your personality at all.Drama queens, yeah I have to agree with the people above as well. I mean, we don't need to hear your voice right across the room. If there's a wasp, people just shriek and scream and jump about. I mean, if you stay still, it'll soon leave you. Man, it gives you the impression that they've never seen one.When people are rude to you, when you need help. When you need support and people just back-hand you as if you were asking for it.Rich people. Well not all rich people. But rich people who spend all their money on stuff that they don't need. Throwing parties fit to hold over 1000 people, and basically getting drunk every night when people are starving and living in the streets. You don't actually need the stuff, and poverty is still around. Those people are the ones condemning them to death. The economy, that's another thing. Where you have to give up something you love so that your family can live, whereas all the people who can afford, spend it on junk.Oh and music, which isn't actually music, but in fact, screeching and gawd knows what.When your friends say that they'll always be there, but they leave you the second you need support.Did I say people who take things for granted? That as well. I mean, people who take their senses and body parts for granted. I wonder what they'll be like if they put themselves in someone's elses shoes who has lost their eye sight, or their leg.That's about it... I think... Basically, a lot of things... mainly about people... But this is what the world has come to today. *shrugs*

I sadly don't do any exercise whatsoever... I'm pretty lazy in sport and exercise...Let's see... Well, I still go to school, so I have P.E once every week, for one hour.I used to walk 3 miles, from school to home, but I don't now because it gets dark really early. Might take it up again in the Summer.I just don't have the time to do exercise. I'm either, working, doing something related to school, or going on the computer, as my addiction stands. I don't have time to exercise... So I don't have time to go to a gym.Not everything revolves around exercise when talking about health, but the majority yes.

I agree. The economy has changed for the better or worse.A part-time job would be best yes. If you're not in Uni/College at the moment, start having a job and start saving now, the sooner the better.Although, when going to either Uni/College, you can still have a part-time job, and then a full-time in the Summer, yes I do agree. For me, because I'm not exactly rolling in money, I think I'll have to get a student loan. I'm already working, and I can see the difficulties, what with your job, your education and your social life. But yes, education costs nowadays, but you'll be thankful for it when you are rolling in the money through your good job, applied by your education.

As this has become... quite recent, and the first season has finished, one of my favourites is Heroes.I remember watching the trailers and previews on TV and thinking... "Wow" because it was simply... enthralling. I saw loads of images on magazines and there was all this... excitement about it.I've watched every single episode of Heroes. Normally, I just skip a few, and then come back, but for Heroes, I watched every single one. It was simply... amazing. I loved the people with powers and just the way it was made.In England, Season 2 isn't for a while, I don't think...I'm a fan of fantasy, all kinds, and Heroes was just...Recently I made a RPG website, and it was about characters with abilities like Heroes. To see it on screen was great, like a thing from my mind :)I was wondering when the series would come. I mean, you see loads of films, like "Fantastic Four" and "The Incredibles" all with people with abilities, to have a series, a long one at that, just leads us on, and tempts us to watch more.Anyway, that's my comment on Heroes. I can't wait for Season 2.

Generally?For posting in forums mainly. I seem to be doing that a lot. Communities and Forums.But I also use it for information and support.I also use it for contacting my friends. Most of my friends were known by using the internet. I don't regret that decision...Using the internet, all the usual stuff basically. Without the internet, how can you make a website? I also use it for making websites, which is great

*Raises hand* My first song/music was ages ago. Too long to remember. I think I've still got the book somewhere. I remember my first glimpse of the piano in a room. Not soon after, mum took me for my first lesson. The teacher had a book ready, and it was "Part 1" Started off simple :(I then progressed from Part 1 to Part 4. Completing book after book. Easy books of course. Practising at home. I moved from place to place which was a bit tricky as I had to find a new piano teacher. Mum wanted me to play, and she wanted me to pass all the GradesI was on Grade 2 I think before finding my teacher now. I've been with him for... a long time. At least 5 years. He's an excellent teacher, just expensive. My piano teacher now, he's got the title GRSM, whatever that means... I suppose it's good.I've taken exams one step at a time. I have passed all of them...Anyway, I started at the age of 5, been playing for nearly 10 years. It wasn't my decision, was forced into it by my mother. But I don't regret it.I've passed Grade 7 with Distinction. My mother says that when I pass Grade 8, I should give up. We don't have that much money... My teacher said it isn't about grades, exams or even years. It's about becoming a great musician, and that takes time.Anyway, I think I'm going to continue playing the piano. My lessons, however, will take place for another 4 years before I go to university.When that happens, I'll probably stop the lessons and play and learn by myself.I love composing a piece of music, I just make it all up, random...I can read music pretty well, although playing it is another thing entirely. Takes time to learn it well.I don't want to give up, it's a good talent to have. To just listen to a band you like, and be able to play it, is simply... awesome.It also helps when you want to make a band :(I also started learning violin, but I gave that up... Can't remember why now.. probably because it was too tricky and it hurt my fingers :(But time flies... It seems as if it was yesterday...Anyway, I want to play the acoustic guitar, and I'm not giving that up, no matter how hard it is. I can't afford tuition, so I'll be teaching myself. I can read notes, pretty well so it shouldn't be too tricky.It's not just about performance... With piano, learning a bit of history and theory is great as well. :)Anyway, good luck! Start off small, and gradually get pieces that are more trickier...

I know... 4 languages I think.English, Chinese, French and German.I can't write, or talk chinese that well, but I understand it when people speak it. I have had lessons in it, since I was small, but I just have no intention on learning how to write. I can talk, but... it's not that good. I mostly know what someone's going on about by them talking.I've been learning French for... 3 years, and German for 2 years.English, all my life

My first language that I started learning in school was French.Then the year after that, I carried on with my French studies but took on German as well.I think, during GCSE or A level, I might be able to take either latin, greek ect.Not sure on that. For latin, all you're doing is translating because nobody speaks latin to a person nowadays. I want to learn latin... Might some day though.

I wish... but in all honesty, never.I want to skip classes that I have no interest whatsoever. That I don't see the point of, and I don't think I will need in the future.Some of the classes I go to are so boring, it's unbelievable. My mind just drifts off instead, which I guess it kind of like skipping class... on the same wavelength anywayI plan on not skipping any classes, because even though they are boring, some of those lessons, we need.What's the point of skipping when you can just feign sick instead?My friend has severe asthma, so she has to go to hospital quite a lot of the time to do check-ups. It gets a bit annoying that she doesn't want to learn. She's clever and all, but she's just too lazy. She would skip school if she had the opportunity. A shame really...But anyway, it's her life. So yeah

I don't have any pets... But my dad does. I mean, it's his job, and his... hobby.We have had about... In total, since my dad keeps buying more, and replacing the ones that are dead ect. Anyway, we have around 40 fish been looked after. We now have around 20.My sister had a hamster, named "Hammy" very original. We gave it to someone to look after because we couldn't afford it any more, but the hamster died within a week :)That's about it.My mum's always wanted a dog, but yeah, we can't exactly afford it... And we would be depriving it, because all of us are too busy.

"The last song I'm wasting on you" by Evanescence.Amazing song, Evanescence is one of my favourite bands...

My friends and I normally just have a lengthy conversation. We sometimes have debates, other times, ... well insanity.One friend of mine is absolutely fanatic about musicals, and if bored, will start singing a song from a musical. One of our games (sad, I know) is her singing and then stopping, and one of us need to guess the word afterwards. It's quite funny what we come up with actually...Two of my friends play guitar, so they sometimes bring that along and we can all play together. All of us, there's 5 in my gang, well we're all musical in some way. So it's good all over.Yeah, that's about it. We have fun times, I love hanging out with my friends. But we only do it in school, since we're all busy, out of school.We don't have time to go shopping together or any of that lark. Just stay at home, and do our work... we're very... Well, we believe in education strongly to get us somewhere.

I've just recently got one. I reckon I would call it a job...I'm a student as well yes. My job is ... well, my family owns a chinese takeaway business. I man the desk at the front on Friday's and Saturday's. They're my regular shifts. On Friday I work from 5-9, and on Saturday, 5-11Then I have other days like Christmas Eve, and New Year's Eve.My wage? Depends where you live Anyway, I get ?10 a night, which isn't bad. I used to just get ?5. We opened recently, and there weren't too many people. But business is steady and rising... kind of.It's hard, juggling your job, school and general social life. As this is a family business, I can't exactly go "I quit" and nor will my parents sack me. Which I guess is an advantage and a disadvantage. It means I'll have to work, until I finish school.I find myself, too busy, and stressed. What with major exams, homework, and my job. Especially now, Christmas.I work one night, next night, visit my relatives for Christmas dinner, and the next, visit more friends. Then a break, and two more nights at work. Then a break, and finally another day at work. I have to study for major exams, and I'm getting worried, looking at the time I've got.Not to mention, my social life, which is zilch. My social life, sad as it may seem, is only coming out of the internet. If I cancel that down, my life is basically ... boredom.My wages, and my pocket money I have to save. My family isn't particularly rich. If I get into the university I want to go to, I'll have to get a student loan.My age, doesn't reflect who I am inside. To deal with all of this at my age, I would say is pretty mature...

I stumbled upon the internet, and basically found out about making websites.Of course you need codes and such, but this host only allowed HTML, CSS and Java I think...Anyway, so dealing with lots of codes, mainly HTML and CSS, I've picked up a few things here and there.I'm not that advanced. I reckon I'm a beginner. I can do little switches ect. I don't use any programs... Just do it in the database.I might further my understanding of it... but I'm too busy at the moment, so I'm not sure on that.

I would call it addiction.Yes I am addicted to the internet. I only found it recently, to some use, but basically, it's got me hooked up almost immediately.I mostly go on forums. I don't play games, or anything like that. Forums and Communities are what I'm after. Oh, and also website building..I don't think I can live without the internet. Just because it kills time so effectively.I wouldn't beat up my parents, no. But fantasizing it, is that addiction? And going on about it ect.You don't want to be over-addicted, as it can ruin your life in a sense, that if you're a schoolkid, your grades might slip.I don't think I've gotten to that stage yet. I try and go on the computer every day, for 3 hours and above. But my grades, I don't think, have slipped.I'm not a social person, so joining forums such as these, kind of helps in a way.Most of my friends were found via the internet.The internet isn't bad, but it can be bad. It's your choice whether to make it that way.

Sport isn't one of my favourite... things.I don't like it, I'm not fond of it. Watching it on TV can be interesting, but performing it... basically sucks.I like some aspects of it, like sprinting, fencing. Some of those sports are really fun, and worthwhile.Although, come to think of it, I absolutely LOVE dangerous sports, like paintball, zorbing ect.Dangerous sports are awesome.. it's the normal everyday ones, like tennis, football, rugby, badminton ect.Participating in sports is healthy and will probably help you, somewhere in the near future, but I still despise it.

I mainly watch TV, with the usual channels ect.Wikipedia's quite good. You type in your favourite band and it comes up with the genre, of which you can search through that and find more.I also ask people in my school, because a lot of them listen to music.The radio as well, but my friend suggested one method:To go into iTunes, I think, and then look through compilations of your favourite genre. It should come up with some new bands you haven't heard of.Basically, any new bands you haven't heard of, listen to their songs. You'll be surprised at what you find

I agree. I've had tutors teaching me maths since I was little. I guess it grows on you because I absolutely love it now... sad as it may seem.Maths is about logic, I reckon. Just because if you work it out, and you write it on paper, but you get the answer wrong, you can always go back and check, go back and check.I understand it, it's not too difficult. Something is either wrong, or right. For example, take english, who knows what's wrong or right? Not to mention all the different terms as well. It's one thing I'm kind of good at... I've got a great deal of learning left, but I'm 50% certain I'm going to include maths in my career.Nothing much more to say really... But I thoroughly enjoy maths, because it's easy? Partly, but it's fun in a sense that you go... "Oh yeah!"

Music is my life. Without music, I'll be dead, and walking around, trying to be someone I'm not, trying to impress someone with no talent whatsoever. With music, I've got that talent, and it defines me as a real individual. If I hear music I like, my head goes a-bopping, and I drum out the rhythm with my fingers, or my hands or anything basically. Music is so catchy, and alive, it's hard not to join with the music.I have been playing piano for nearly 10 years, and I'm soon learning guitar. I think music has shaped me as a person because I can be proud of it.Music is all around us, films, songs, the world. It's been here for years. That's what's also good about it.I have to vouch for a lot of people, that music is well... simply great. Nothing more can be said

If I'm angry, one of the things I do is listen to music, normally the heavy, rock and roll kinds :)The lyrics and the tune will calm me down. Music is everything in my life, and to have that, in myself and within the world makes me... well... thankful in a way, but also a cure. I understand music, and after being angry, something you understand and know well is a relief to be honest.Another thing is my mind goes into overdrive. I swear constantly and I'm basically rambling on, all in my mind of course. I believe fully in honesty and truth, so if something needs to be set, I'll say it and try and correct it.Swearing at them in a foreign language is funny :(Or coming up with insults that they don't get. I also take deep breaths, but I don't think of happy thoughts. I can't do that when I'm angry. I also might cry... But that depends on the situation

I agree.It seems as if most schools use some sort of a network, to block or other.My school network blocks all forums and basically all fun sites, and leave the boring ones.Basically, if everyone started going onto this particular site, the teacher will pounce, tell the technician, and he will block it.I don't see why, as the lower and middle school have everything blocked, and the 6th formers, don't.Rights of privileges I guess.Sometimes the defences go down, but they're only updating it...You might start thinking in bringing your laptop into school. I saw that one didn't connect to the school network but instead, just used the internet connection.Anyway, School networks are a pain.

Forums are very addictive. Some are like... well drugs in a way, and some not. Some forums can lead you on, and tempt you, making you addicted, not to mention fantasizing the next time you go on...In a way, they are a means of killing time. It's your own perspective whether you're wasting it. Forums are mainly for generating community, I think. They're not like, facebook and myspace, which is just a one on one, unless you're in a group. Even then you're in a tight, compacted space, whereas Forums have the freedom to gallivant around. As I specialise in RPG forums, I have to be biased, and go with them. Although, simple community, help forums such as this, are great as well. Forums... mainly used for fun, isn't it? Role-Play, Help, Support ect.Yes, mainly people are bored, and happen to stumble by one, and then get addicted. I personally think they're great!