Ok, here is the thing.. I am 17 years old, I have a normal life etcc... But am running into some problems. I think am getting into depression. I normally go out with friends have a good time, play sports, etc.. But I keep acting weird at home. My dad is the nicest guy in the world, helps me with everything, talks to me about everything.. I consider him not just my dad, but my best friend. But now some how i have been a complete jerk to him all this days.. For reasons am not aware off. I just cant take it anymore, something i think am just dumb and i dont know, i should drive as fast as i can when i am doing so.. What am trying to say is that, i just dont care if i die or keep living.. Not that i want to kill my self but it just happened to come to me and take over my mind. I want to be a fighter pilot, and fly. I know i have a big future in front of me, but i just sometimes DON'T CARE ANYMORE. I have been a really good student, never failed any of my classes, nor get D's. Now i have almost all D's and C's in all my classes.. I am kind of exited that it is my senior year and i graduate once and for all.. then i can become a freshman again "laugh laugh". I keep telling my self to get out of it, but it seem to be stronger then me.. I have never been involved in drugs, nor smoking.. I have drink before with my friends, but is because i wanted, not because of peer pressure. I though going to the doctor and talk to him about it, but i feel that i want to get over it my self.. What u guys think, i need some answers please.. Thanks in advance
