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hurt4love - everything that you said is true, i am experiencing that all. as in! wherever i go, it reminds me of him. everything! thank you so much for sharing your experience. it helped me alot. i am in the stage now of realizing that i missed a lot of things. good things for myself. you know what? i have lived the 7 years focusing on him. my whole world turned with him alone. there were alot of things that i have not done because i always wanted to be with him, just with him. just the 2 of us. and the past days i realized that there is really a reason for everything. sometimes, i m thinking if the 7 years was really a worthwhile years. for both of us. or we were just both trapped in the relationship which everybody thought a great one? did we both grow with it through the years. i always want to learn things. before i met him i used to go to short term classes to learn. i want to learn things but i was not able to do that. i have no regrets of the 7 years being with him. He had loved me very much. Took good care of me. he treated me like a princess. But i cannot say that he is my Mr right because there were problems and most of the problems were money matters. some will say it is just money matters, it can still be earned. but what had happened was trend of money problems already. i knew that it is not normal anymore but i stayed and hold on with the relationship. thank you for all the reminders, and you are right i am still thinking of the what if he will come back. well, wanting him to come back. and i think i should not expect it right? i know too that damaged had been done and it will really be diffcult to get back the trust. but there is also a so called, love is sweeter the second time around right? hmmm... i think i am still not moving on... that is why im so thankful that there are people like anwiii and now you to talk too....in time, in God's time everything will be answered. for now, i will start thinking about myself. my own good, do the things that i wanted to do for myself. i will not expect for anything.i dont know but i felt tired already. i feel so so tired that i just want to live the everday because i am still waking up in the morning and need to face the day! maybe one of the phases of the healing process... but i miss him so much.

anwiii - again thank you. i am in the Maldives just recently joined a very good company. i am trying my best to work even my situation was not good. Honestly, im doing what you suggested. i had a great night last night with my colleagues, though i did not share my feelings with them yet, i feel good hangging around with them. i can also easily befriend to anyone. that is one of the best i do. making friends! you are right there is a lot of things that i miss to do for myself. i have focused my whole world with him alone. I realized that in 7 years, i have not checked on the things i want to do. things that i should have done long time. some of those are to learn tennis, fish, be a certified diver, drive a speed boat! to learn a 3rd language. to bake, really a lot! how i wish i can get a dog too. but pets are not allowed in the island. before i always say that i feel more depressed because im in the island feel so alone but i realized that God sent me here because He wants me to be in a place where i can easily heal. i should make every might when i am alone appreciating the things around me, the sound of the sea, the blow of the wind, the stars at night, the chirping of birds and all.... so relaxing and peaceful. i am in paradise! before i used to ask myself why i am here. i have a lot of good offers from other 5 star hotels in othr countries but i chose Maldives. and now i know why.Thank you anwiii, your words have helped me alot honestly..... i am in the right place to do the things that i want to learn. i have not realized it until you said so. there is really a reason for everything. i am hurting but i know i will get over this soon. thank you so much.

thank you anwiii. you dont know how much it means to me getting a reply from you. Thank you so much.it is really hard. in my case its harder, i am new in this country where i am now and had no "friends" yet to talk to. everyday i am just living for the sake of living. i cannot work anymore. honestly, if God will ask me what i want right now, i will ask Him to let me die. all my life, i am thinking of others. For my family and friends. I always want the best for them. I have not experienced being take cared of and be loved until he came into my life. now, i am shattered. i dont even know where to start to pick up all the pieces. I just want to rest for a while. I am so tired of crying, hurting and thinking. God help me. Again, thank you so much.

i had a 7 years relationship and all those years we are happy although there were alot of things happened we fought because we love each other so much. We were used in a long distance relationship and it has never been a problem because we follow each other in anywhere we go. until last december. he changed a lot. he seldom call and send sms. then i found out that he is seeing someone. when we talked about it he claimed that they just became so close and comfortable with each other. but we made things up. but the realtionship is no longer healthy. after that month, we argued everyday and i become so paranoid. there were no days that we dont yell each other and questioned each other.i get shattered that i almost dont want to live. but he make up with me. asked for a second chance and we did. but 3 days ago, we had another argument which ended when i asked him if he still love me. he usually says that he loves me so much and no one can replace me. that we will always be together no matter what. that i will never lose him. but that night he answered he does not anymore. i felt that my whole world ended. so i hang up the phone.now its been 3 days that we did not talk or send sms. i miss him so much and i love him so much. but i dont want to call him because i dont want to get hurt anymore. or maybe i dont want to know that he really does not love me anymore.i dont know what to do now. im so depressed. should I call him and talks again and make things up, or just wait for him to call me. what if he wont. does it mean i totally lose him. please i need your thoughts. i dont have anyone to talk to now.