Dear iGuest, I accidentally stumbled upon your post when I was doing research on Nome Alaska and I couldn't get it out of my head. I know this post is from July and I know my reply is very very late, but I couldn't help but say something. Your message was too heartwrenching to even sleep. I know things can be really terrible at times, so much so that its near impossible to go on but if there is just one thing that you still like in the world the flamed sky of a sunrise, the feeling of warm clothes out of the dryer, the first bit of sun after a dreary winter, even a memory from a time that you were happy, hold onto it (whatever it may be). Things really do get better, but it takes time and effort. Don't give up and PLEASE don't die. I Care