My Poetry some poems i have written over the years

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self-esteem

 

I look in the mirror and all I see is an expressionless face looking back at me

 

People say im beautiful, but all I see are the mistake and flaws that seem to follow me.

 

I want to be the girl I know inside; the one I always seem to hide

 

But she's too afraid to show herself; she doesn't want to end up feeling left out

 

How can I change this, make things right?

 

I don't know how much longer I can get through the night?

 

How much longer I can put up with this disgrace I've become

 

So many things I regret that I've done

 

All I want is to be accepted, to feel like everyone else

 

To stop feeling caged inside, and learn to be myself

 

How can I do this? Seems like I'll never know

 

Seems like im running, out of places to go?

 

Don't know what to do now,

 

Or the meaning of all this

 

Does the person I want to be really exist?

 

 

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my feelings inside, i cant understand

dont know what to do, i cant handle this anymore

dont need these feelings, dont need this guilt

i thought i could deal with them, but once again they have over powered me

taken control of me, changed me once again

made me re-enter the dark world i keep trying to run away from

its not possible, because that dark place is me

a place i created with in myself, never to be destroyed

my prison, where i am held captive and alone with my thoughts

the things that have occured in my life,

oh how many times must i be here, how many times will i feel this way

i long to get away from it all, to find something more

so many questions i ask myself, not sure how to answer them

not sure if i want to, not sure if i can

can people see me for who i really am?

who am i?

im not sure anymore, despit what people think of me

they could never define me, for how can you define something unknown?

once more a question unanswered, to keep me company in my little world

my little world of misery and dispare

its so cold here, im so cold here, but i cant be reached, nore be saved

no matter how hard ive tried...this place cannot be reached by others

i wont let them in, i cant let them in, for then they would see the dark side of me

maybe they already see it, i cant be sure, for this place has taken me

but i cant risk it, i cant risk them,

for they to may be trapped inside my world

and that is something i could not do, i life i cant aford to risk...

this world, dark place i live in,it already has me, it wont get to the ones who care enough

who care enough to try and save me,

no this dark place will never get them, till the day i die i will never let them in

nore let the dark out...

this is who i am, i have to accept it, no more questioning it

this is the end of hope,

the end of me

 

 

Undifined

 

feeling alone, wanting to go home

no one to talk to, no one to love

wanting to cry, but not knowing why

feeling confused, i think ive been used

cant handle the stress, now i confess

cant make it all alone, no point in going home

trying to hide, my feelings inside

there taking me under, they want to be seen

what should i do? i feel so confused

cant handle this stress, can fix up this mess

the mess ive become, so far from myself

so far from the girl i once thought i knew

i used to be strong, i could handle the truth

now i am lost, in this world i cant exscape

i want to run but i cant change my fait

who am i now? where do i go?

so many questions, the answers?

unknown

 

Confusion

Ever sence the day we met

I promised myself i would never forget

Never forget the way you make me smile

Never forget the way you read my thoughts

Never forget the way you look into my eyes like you know everything

I've never had someone who cares as much as you

So much confusion though and not knowing what to do

The look in your eyes drives me crazy

The smile always on your face that makes everything seem ok

The feel of your touch when you hug me

All these things keep running through my head

All through the day and right before bed

Im not sure what to say now, im not sure what to do

Im sorry i can't help myself, i think i fell for you<3

 

 

Depest Sorrow

Sorrow So Sad, It Makes You Cry,

Pain So Deep, You'll Wan't To Die,

Love Unseen, So Cruel, So Mean,

Broken Hearted, Yes Thats Me!

Friends Who Hurt You, No One Cares,

Family Members Who Just Arn't There,

Love So Close But Yet So Far,

Lonlyness In The Dark,

Broken Hearted Yes Thats Me!

People Say Thing You Should'nt Hear,

All The Secrets You Quietly Fear,

Love Unnone, Unseen, Unheard,

So Many Rules You Need To Learn,

Broken Hearted, Yes Thats Me,

Broken Hearts Is All I See,

Come A Little Closer, Then You'll See,

The Broken Heart Thats With-in Me.

 

 

Happy 6 Months

Whoever thought we would end up here, six months have

past, so soon so dear. With each day that goes by i love

you more and more. With each day that goes by i realize

you are the one i truly adore. There are no words to

explain what my heart feels for you now. You are my

whole world, nothing could compare, to the comfort and

love each day we share. Spending my life with you

is what i was meant to do, feeling these feeling with you

is a dream come true. You fill me with such a joy i just

cant define. Theres something in the way you look at

me that lets me know we'll be just fine. Theres something

in the way you hold me that just seems so right. So no

matter what happens, i know we will be allright. Until

the day i die i will always be true, until the day i die i

will always love you

 

 

 

Happy 8 months

 

For all the times we've laughed and cried

And all the times i tried to hide

You have always been here for me

You have always seen what no one else see's

You love me through the good and bad

Being with you is the best experience i ever had

You make me laugh even when im blue

Theres no words to say how much i love you

No matter what i'll know you'll care

Something tells me you'll always be there

To hold my hand and walk with me

To be the perfect man for me

I'll love you more than you'll ever know

I never want to let you go

 

 

These are just a few of my poems and there are more to come! Hope you enjoy