Antwan

My?lifewhen?I?wake?up?I?have?a?feeling?of?gloommy?parents?are?fighting?downstairs?so?I?go?the?bathroomwhen i see?my?faceI?know?that?I'ma?disgracebecause?I?pop?pills?and?smoke?weedmy?parents?don't?understand?that?this?is?what?I?needI'm?tired?of?them?judgin?me?nudgin?metrying?to?make?me?something?I?don't?wanna?be!!!so?I?go?to?my?room?and?say?I?don't?give?a?*BLEEP*I?don't?need?you?dad?I?wanna?be?stuck?in?the?muckI?like?gettin?high?I?don't?need?to?liedon't?give?me?a?sigh?I?only?want?you?to?die!!!I?hate?the?way?you?treat?me?every?day?you?end?up?beatnin?meso?I'll?say?it?againI'd?rather?live?with?michael?Jackson*BLEEP*?you?dad?don't?get?madI?know?I'm?the?son?you?don't?wanna?havbut?it's?okI?won't?change?my?wayI'll?live?life?like?it's?my?last?dayschools?the?only?place?that?I?enjoycause?when?I?come?home?you?try?to?employthat?I'm?a?screw?up?a?*BLEEP*?up?a?motha?*BLEEP*ing?stonerso?I?go?to?the?bathroom?and?whack?off?my?big?bonersingings?the?only?way?to?express?how?I?feel?cause?when?I?try?to?tell?you?dad????[/tab][tab]?you?don't?think?it's?realbut?I?still?care?that?your?having?an?affairwith?a?*BLEEP*?named?Sarahbut?you?better?beware?she?might?cause?dispairand?make?you?swearand skin her from her hairso?dad?this?goodbyeI?don't?wanna?lieI?don't?wanna?cryI?don't?wanna?try?anymorego?marry?ms.?drew?Barrymore?I'm?tired?of?hearing?your?voiceso?I?will?rejoicewhen?I?leave?home?and?I?get?stonedthen?get?some?domethrough?a?phoneand?go?get?a?loanso?I?can?buy?some?more?hydrocodonewhen?I?get?sleepy?eyed?I?dream?about?suicideand?how?I?wanna?be?killed?by?syanideor?jump?out?a?plane??and?when?my?body?hits?the?groundmy?organs?flyand?this?is?how?I?wanna?die?*BLEEP*?you?daddon't?get?madI?know?I'm?the?son?you?don't?wanna?havbut?it's?okI?won't?change?my?wayI'll?live?life?like?it's?my?last?day-Antwan

My?lifewhen?I?wake?up?I?have?a?feeling?of?gloommy?parents?are?fighting?downstairs?so?I?go?the?bathroomwhen i see?my?faceI?know?that?I'ma?disgracebecause?I?pop?pills?and?smoke?weedmy?parents?don't?understand?that?this?is?what?I?needI'm?tired?of?them?judgin?me?nudgin?metrying?to?make?me?something?I?don't?wanna?be!!!so?I?go?to?my?room?and?say?I?don't?give?a?*BLEEP*I?don't?need?you?dad?I?wanna?be?stuck?in?the?muckI?like?gettin?high?I?don't?need?to?liedon't?give?me?a?sigh?I?only?want?you?to?die!!!I?hate?the?way?you?treat?me?every?day?you?end?up?beatnin?meso?I'll?say?it?againI'd?rather?live?with?michael?Jackson*BLEEP*?you?dad?don't?get?madI?know?I'm?the?son?you?don't?wanna?havbut?it's?okI?won't?change?my?wayI'll?live?life?like?it's?my?last?dayschools?the?only?place?that?I?enjoycause?when?I?come?home?you?try?to?employthat?I'm?a?screw?up?a?*BLEEP*?up?a?motha?*BLEEP*ing?stonerso?I?go?to?the?bathroom?and?whack?off?my?big?bonersingings?the?only?way?to?express?how?I?feel?cause?when?I?try?to?tell?you?dad????[/tab][tab]?you?don't?think?it's?realbut?I?still?care?that?your?having?an?affairwith?a?*BLEEP*?named?Sarahbut?you?better?beware?she?might?cause?dispairand?make?you?swearand skin her from her hairso?dad?this?goodbyeI?don't?wanna?lieI?don't?wanna?cryI?don't?wanna?try?anymorego?marry?ms.?drew?Barrymore?I'm?tired?of?hearing?your?voiceso?I?will?rejoicewhen?I?leave?home?and?I?get?stonedthen?get?some?domethrough?a?phoneand?go?get?a?loanso?I?can?buy?some?more?hydrocodonewhen?I?get?sleepy?eyed?I?dream?about?suicideand?how?I?wanna?be?killed?by?syanideor?jump?out?a?plane??and?when?my?body?hits?the?groundmy?organs?flyand?this?is?how?I?wanna?die?*BLEEP*?you?daddon't?get?madI?know?I'm?the?son?you?don't?wanna?havbut?it's?okI?won't?change?my?wayI'll?live?life?like?it's?my?last?day-Antwan?