sorry to make this abit long but i want to tell you in detail so you can help me and advice me better. please have some patientsi am 20 and i fall in love with a girl two years agao. we fall in love in college. we both started that college newly and fell in love. she came and approached me first and we both fell in deep love with in a week. we loved each other madly and made so much beautiful memories. everybody in the college use to call use romeo and juliet. we would never been seen separate. we will always be seen huggin and kissing in and around the college. we use to txt each other as we open our eyes and stop txting when our eyes closed itself at night, but you see love never comes alone it brings millions of problems and troubles with it.she belong to a quite rich and strong family. strong as in her dad and brother have good links with proper dangerous and gangster people. we both spent only first 5 months in peace then her family finds out about us. her family threaten me to death to leave their daughter but i never left her and her family torture her like hell and same she never left me. two years we both been together even though being in so much trouble.but only since end of apirl everything went wrong. her older sister and her sisters sons died and her sister husband (whole family died in a car accident). she use to love them alot and this had a great affect on her. she went in to so much deppression. i tried my best to be there for her and ease her grief but most of the time she will tell me she need time so she want to be alone. i can do this much for her so i left her alone but do txt her and talk to her every day but not as much as before. i see her most of the time being alone by herself and when i go to her she would say she want to be alone so i leave her alone. as days went pass she start feeling better and she start spending times with her girl mates. i use to miss her madly and wanted to be around her so i would go up to her and tell her why she doing this to me, that she tell me she need time but she spend time with her firend why cant she spend it with me as i miss her madly. she would igonre and avoid me and say she need space and time. then slowly i start caughting her having laugh with other boys in the college and she spends time with them. this broked me i went to her and asked and she would give clearification that there nothing going on and she love me but need time, but it would be so obvious that you can tell she is lying. but i use to forgive her because i love her madly and don't want to lose her. i ask her she spend time with other boys why not with me, she would just comletely ignore it. then one day i caught her emails and some picture with a boy (i knew her email password as she told me once long ago but she has forgetten that she told me) . she wrote the email to a boy that how she love him and the pictures showed how she been spending time with him and she wrote on his arm with a pen that she love him. i know you can understand how i felt at that time. it just killed me. when i asked her about it, as i said she would give clearifications which would be obvious that she is lying. she said to me that she love me madly but how she is so *BLEEP*ed up so she want me to hate her so i can live a better life and move on. i said to her i still love her and hugged her and forget about it.then one day she told me how that boy came to her house with his dad and his and her dad are best friends and her dad want her to get married to him and how she is so helpless. she has to get married to him as i explained how her family is very strong. so i understand her problem and said ok no problem. but on one hand she would txt me and on other she would be txt him and lying she is not. i still take that in as i loved her madly.but one day it was just to much. when we both went to college to get our grades she told me that how that boy is coming to college and want to meet her. i said ok. she went out the college to meet him as i suspected her so i followed. when i saw them two hugging and kissing this just killed me and i was so broken but this time i couldn't take it. so when that guy left i asked her. she said i did it porpusly so you can hate me as i am not good for you. i said to her i still love you alot but unfortantly i can't be with you anymore as your body is not clean for me anymore. even if i want to kiss you i wont be able to. so we both offically broked.i see this as she has moved on beacuse she got a better option then me. her biggest dream was to mary me and she use to say if we dont end up marrying she would burn herself but it was also very clear to us that no matter how much we try and do we will never be able to get married. so i think she moved on with him and this has also made her family life alot better as she dont have to get torture anymore coz of me by her family.i want to also move on and but the problem is this she is my first and real love. we both loved each other deeply and she has done hell alot for me that which nobody would do and has give me more love than i dreamed. when i think about moving on i just can't imagine any other girl on her place. like the way we met and fall in love. the beautiful memories we made. these two years are the best two years of my life. i think how some one can give me better then this when she has gave me the best out of the best. this is the honest truth the two years we spend together was real and honest. the people in college and who ever know us use to say we are example to the world as we both were in love madly. she is so beautiful and so romantic. i still feel the same love for her. sometime i think even if i get maried or get old i will still love her the same and miss her.i want some advice how to move on. will i get a girl who is better then her (where as my heart say no girl better then her), will any girl be able to love me more then her. will she would be able to give me more happiness than her. seriouly i don't know how to move on. i just can even think of any other girl. i love her alot. but i know i wont be able to take her back ever as i got self respect for me but cant even stay without her. i want to know will i ever be able to fall in love again. she was my first and real love and these two years i can never forget. but i really want to move on with life. so please someone with experince tell me and explain how to move on and get over.
