I'd been dating this wonderful guy for the past year and fell totally in love with him. I'd learned a lot from past relationships and finally did everything "right" and was ready to put everything I had into it. I'd been very very happy. He is older, and feels pressured to finally figure out what to do with his life so he's headed in the right direction with school and work and is really busy doing so. I've always been supportive, but since he had so much going on, I became involved with all of his stuff and kind of put mine to the side. I had been traveling more than 50 miles to see him 3 times a week or so for about 7 months until I moved to his area to be closer to him. This is where all the trouble began. It was hard for him to see me so much, and though i never asked him to do more than he was capable of, he felt guilty when he couldnt see me. We still remained very happy, however, and had made plans for the future and loved the hell out of each other. A few weeks ago he had found out that he had to leave his apartment and asked to stay with me and i was thrilled. A few days later, however, he was acting strangely and i asked him what was wrong and he wouldnt tell me, but after some more questioning he confessed that he couldnt move in and didnt know if he was in love with me now or ever had been (even though he said it once...he apologized for that when we broke up), because he couldnt give himself to a relationship fully in the current position he was in in his life. I was absolutely devastated and basically immediately dropped more than 10 lbs and developed a severe anxiety reaction (also, members of my family have been in the hospital and were doing poorly, so this didnt help). I realized that I was alone in this city because I had left all of my "stuff" behind, I didn't like my job, my classes or my roommates, and had spent all of my time doing things we loved together. I am not used to sleeping alone and therefore don't really sleep. I have developed an ulcer and the doctor wants me medicated for anxiety for a short time. We have talked almost every day (he checks on me because of this not-eating issue) and have seen each other once so far. We had just planned on hanging out somewhere but I ended up staying over and everything was like it had been. He says he misses me a lot and loves me and I will see him again in a few days. I just dont know what to think of anything and I can't get over it or function normally. I know its still new and has only been about a week and a half but Im totally lost... help!
